hUi's dREam houSE~~

=)回文冬的一天

2012-01-24T06:32:00.000-08:00

今天才发现原来所有事都有放下的一天。。
=)
不管当初有多痛多难过。。都有冷静下来。。放下的一天 =)
感谢这一路来让我痛让我难过的人。。。
教会我很多事。。。突然才发现这一切。。原来离我有些远了。。。=)
我还好好的。。。开开心心的就好了。。。=)
今天第一次做摩哆车哦·。。很好玩o(∩_∩)o 哈哈~~~
^^~

一个月就有那么几天。。

2012-01-09T06:10:00.000-08:00

好处和坏处是心情就不怎么受控制。。。
可以·不·用去想心情其实真真是怎样。的。。。

还满好的。。。

今天终于在哪有人懂了哦。。。

心情。。。。不知道怎么形容。。。一切都无所谓啦。。。。
要笑哦o(∩_∩)o

i had a very warm dream last nite=))

2012-01-03T07:38:00.000-08:00

lately quite alot of thgs going on~~but i am lazy to describe it now~~>.<~~
but i wan write about having a warm dreams... although is nt real..but it did make me feel warm~~=))
i really like the feelings inside the dreams~~~
almost let me unable to leave the dream =)...
sometimes even dreams is also somethg tat u r nt able to predict..it is like a gift or challenge ...
and cant hav or create it again even if u wan to...becoz it will come by its own will..and cannt stop it from coming and coming again>.<~~

still...i really like the dream..itis so warm =)

internship的日子

2011-12-23T03:36:00.000-08:00

第一天拿RM7500的audit file对我们这些新手来说真有些难度咯。。。
第一天拿到就是错愕。。。然后就是一连串不会和不懂。。。
又换audit program了。。如果帐都做好好。。上手的auditor也做好好都还好哦。。。

做工头三天我还要病了哦。。真有够累的哦。。。
它东西又多。。。然后又很乱很烂哦。。。。做到我每个senior都摇头。。。人家已经够忙了。。
我还是要去烦他们。。。。::>_<::。。。因为不会。。也因为太太太多问题了。。。
东西又多又乱。。。。上手的auditor很多乱乱做。。。又ignore了很多问题咯。。。就连要问client问题。。都很有难度哦。。。。

做到我一个头两个大。。。有压力哦。。。。。。不过。。向好的方面想。。那样我做完这个我应该学会不少=)
不过我想会第一天就给我这样的应该是因为跟我一起来的那个是permanent所以要让她做可又不放心让她做就让我跟她一起做咯。。也许真托她的福我才有机会碰那么大的file哦。。不然他们一定又让我做那种已经没活动的公司。。。

可能做完这个我都做那些很简单的了。。。

所以我真应该珍惜^_^

对了。。还有冬至到了。。。o(∩_∩)o 哈哈我那天陪妈妈做汤圆还弄了几个很可爱的o(∩_∩)o 哈哈

然后要讲感受。。私事了。。
突然觉的他很像泡沫。。一直都很想拥有。。一直想要抓它。。原来抓就会破。。
如果它飘走了。。真只能看着它走。。不能去追。。。不然只会自己受伤掉下来。。。
也因为它只是路过。。。不属于我。。。。。就只能让它走。。
分手以后。。只对他动过心。。。而现在。。。会揪住我的心一下下的就只有那些回忆了。。别的没在想了。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

last...wish myself and all my dears happy merry Christmas=)

2011-12-22T09:26:00.000-08:00

时间过了。。东西原来会改变那么多的。。
觉得有些难过。。
开始怀念。。
开始不明白为什么要遇见。。要有那段回忆。。
动心而最后难过。。。
有时真宁可没遇过。。。就算了吧。。如此有头没尾。。还是为我带来伤害。。宁可没动过心。。。。。。。。。。。。
害到现在。。。心总会想。。。
听到他的名字心竟然会揪了一下。。。
无言了。。
害怕了。。。
有点失落。。。
不该也没关系？。。。
不知道。。也没关系。。。
好好珍惜现在拥有的就算了。。。

做好本分。。安守本分。。。
为拥有的快乐就好了。。。不求它的了。。

依然相信。2012年会为我带来好运快快乐乐。。挑战结束。。。=)

要守护好自己的心。。要格外的坚强。。。要快乐。。要简单=)

2011-12-18T04:24:00.001-08:00

today is sunday...tomolo will be my first day of internship..
haiz...didnt really rest dao leh...T.T
somemore today whole body still super pain leh~~>.<~~ i wonder how hard i dance last last nite...T.T

I hope tat tomolo when i work everythg will goes well .....getting abit scare jor>.<......
fingers cross~~=)

FIRST TIME XD

2011-12-17T08:11:00.001-08:00

16th was the date of my last audit paper ~~=) and at night it is also my first time go clubbing in Malaysia(exclude the real first time and only time club in aus with sis and EX)
This is really somethg for me to remember =DDD^^
it really is somethg new to me =DDD~~finally i get the chances to go =)~~
of coz i put all the make up knowledge i kwn on my faces la XD~~wont always get the excuse to put so much make up d ma =DD
hahaha~~haiz...but it feels like the god doesnt feel like leeting me go ....
create so many thgs to stop me o...: 1. go the wrong way, end up jam for about 1hour++ only reach...2. d place we go ....dun knw y tat day veli little ppl ..somemore mostly is non- chinese.......T.T...

when i reach there with all this issues...i really feel abit emo jor....somemore my fren order drinks tat nt wat we wan o...>.<
but....>.< becoz drink two types of alcohol...i end up getting drunk abit...=)
and i also make up my decisions....i dun care dy..even if the god doesnt wan me to go.....i still wan enjoy this precious chances =) i wont always get the chances to d =)~~so this is it~~my first time clubbing before i turn into 21 XD~~

i go with three pretty babe and one bodyguard fren XD~~hahahha
Photos below XD~~~

this is obviously after d>.<~~coz drunk dy>.<

hahaha >.< purposely post one of my totally nude face =) coz is really quite some differences of me btw with and without make up>.< so muZ REMEMBER and record IT^^hahaha~~XD~~

below is photos when early day before going clubbing d =)~~~i juz put super light make up only~~

hav lunch with this pretty babe also in d same day =D~~happi~~^^~~

WATch me~ ψ(╰_╯)

2011-12-13T06:12:00.000-08:00

never underestimated ownself...never underestimate me...

snowman and chirstmas tree^^

2011-12-10T07:07:00.001-08:00

oh my...now is only is the early of December ~~~but the town is already full of christmas decorations ~~>.^ some even started to decor as chinese new year~~XD~~haha
anyway~~~ even my own sun-U got a chirstmas tree and a cute little snowman inside our student centre o^^hahah~~so happy o~~^^
i take photo with the two cUTE things ^^hehe~~

but a bit paiseh la>.<...coz when i take this kissing snowman shot(photo above).....there is a staff pass by....>.<....hE LAUGH at me....
but is ok la~~he juz laugh and walk by~~i wont really mind la~~since there is only one man saw me XD~~ i still very happy with it~~^^ i even make it as my hp wallpaper o~~>.^
hahaha~~ sometimes it is really good tat ...such small thgs will make u feel happy...and is juz pure happy and without any complexity in between it... =D
i ENJOY this feeling =) i wish tat i will have a great christmas =)

random =) meaningless...

2011-12-09T02:24:00.000-08:00

TWO Eggs ~~^.^ haha~~<3 ~~两颗傻蛋o(∩_∩)o 哈哈

2011-12-08T18:11:00.000-08:00

眼泪也解释不到我的难过吧。。。
我的失望。。。我放过了那机会。。。
那个考好的机会。。。讨厌我的愚昧。。。
昨天回到家哭了一两个小时。。。真的好累哦。。。
结果都没力读书了。。。
好好奇。。那么不开心为什么还可以继续念书。。。

因为不想更失望。。。更伤心？？

心里的话。。想过N次的话突然很想记录下来。。

2011-12-06T19:59:00.000-08:00

突然很想说。。。

没错我失去了他的爱。。但。。。还好。。公平的是他也失去了我的爱。。

回忆太美，伤口太痛。。。所以无法恨也无法原谅。。
因为事实是。。纵然已过去。。淡忘放下。。。也依然是真切的发生过。。。不可能全忘了。。

一个男人不再爱你。。。你哭闹是错。。。静默也是错。。。

特别喜欢一句话。。。
“我不后悔我做过的每件事。。。绝不。。”--晴川《宫-锁心玉》^_^
我希望我能做到如此。。因为人生不能重来。。。不同的选择总附带着不同的结果。。
所以一个决定能改变很多。。。因此我不希望我带着后悔过日子。。。

不过说句实话。。。。如果重来。。。
以我了解的自己。。。我还是会做回一样的决定。。。
因为与你一起。。。我学会什么是爱一个人。。。原来我也会为男人哭。。。原来我也是那么脆弱。。原来做人还是该有保留才能减低对自己的伤害。。。
还有很多很多事是我学会的。。。。
最重要的是。。。曾经我很快乐很快乐。。。那是无可取代的。。。那就好了。。那就够了。。

快乐和难过本来就是爱情的附带品。。。
没有这些。。。那爱情还算完整吗。。。
因为爱情需要心而心里就是住着这些。。。

这是我。。真真切切的我。。。怎么可能忘了呢。。=)
不会忘了我走过的。。。今后也要快快乐乐的过。。好好的活。。珍惜拥有活的更好o(∩_∩)o

new hair cut +exam TIME

2011-12-06T19:23:00.000-08:00

finally get my hair on tat day =)
i had cut the type i always wanted ^^ half short half long =)

hehe~~like this i can make some trick to make it look like short hair ^^ then i get to c myself with short hair but still keep my precious long hair ^.^
hehe~~~

nEXT tomolo is the big DaY~~is my taX exam~~
This time i really finish my study and all i need to do now is revise it =)
so 郑欣慧加油哦!!└(^o^)┘ muST o!! do well and SCORE it ~>.^
hope the exam tomolo will goes well as the way i hope and i can score well =)
after the exam i will hope tat my work will be good also =) i hope i can get along with my new and old colleagues and get to learn things =)
so now must full of positive energies ~~ LET's do it!! =)
wishes myself GOOD GOOD luck^^

COPY paste..

2011-11-25T05:33:00.000-08:00

一个男人恨你，是因为他得不到你。一个女人恨你，是因为你得到了她想得到的。

每当你说“没事”的时候，心里或多或少都藏着点事。懂你的人会懂；不懂你的人，你也不用太在意。

当你向一个人索要一个答案，如果对方迟疑三秒钟以上，

往往，他最终给出的那个答案不是心里真实的答案，

而是为了取悦你而刻意描画过的答案。

如果有一天，你在街上碰到了你的前任恋人和ta的新欢在一起，请不要心酸。

不想输就记得妈妈说过的话：因为自小我们的妈妈就教我们要把旧玩具，捐赠给比自己更不幸的人...

所谓“归属感”是你强烈地想和他在一起，“安全感”是你觉得他强烈地想和你在一起。

当一个男人同时对两个女孩子有好感时，他更爱谁取决于谁更不爱他。

恋爱就像口香糖，时间长了会平淡无味，觉得平淡了就想放弃，而无论丢在什么地方，都会留下难以抹去的痕迹。

想要忘记一段感情，方法永远只有两个：时间和新欢。

要是时间和新欢也不能让你忘记一段感情，原因只有两个：时间不够长，新欢不够好。

时间和新欢都有了，所以我把你赶出了我的生命，只剩下回忆。

“爱”和“喜欢”的区别很简单，如果你爱花你会给它浇水，喜欢则会摘下它。

同理一个人，如果你爱一个人就会悉心呵护她，喜欢则想要不择手段占有她。

大量心理学研究发现，结婚越早，婚姻质量越高。

但人们更愿意相信自己逻辑：等待的的时间越长，结果越好。

骨子里自卑的人，他们总希望看到别人出丑。

你之所以感到孤独，并不是没有人关心你，而是你在乎的那个人没有关心。

如果某个男人主动替你拎包，把你放在道路的里边走，主动为你拉椅子，不要因此而感激涕零。

这只能说明他之前有女朋友使他变成这样。

而能让他记住的女人，永远是改变了他的那个女人，而不是你。

所以，越是细节完美的男人，对女人而言越是挑战。

过去的事情可以不忘记，但一定要放下。

这是裸婚告诉我们的

很多时候，女人都只是想要一个答案。但对男人来说，答案无非是几秒钟内大脑编出的理由而已。

两个男人追一个女人，用情浅的那个先放弃；两个女人追一个男人，用情深的那个先放弃。

人们对初恋的快乐时光总有难以割舍的情怀。

不过，据研究显示，初恋的美好时光恰恰是未来婚姻幸福的障碍。

布里尼恩认为，人们往往会把初恋的激情当做评判未来感情生活的标准。

他呼吁：为了幸福婚姻，请淡忘初恋！

如果开心和悲伤时，首先想到的都是同一个人，那就最完美的；

如果开心和悲伤时，首先想到的不是同一个人，你应该选择想和ta共度悲伤的那个，人生本来是苦多於乐。

开心有太多人可以和你分享，不一定是情人，悲伤却不是很多人可和你分担。

你愿意把悲伤告诉他，他才是你最想亲近珍惜的人。

假如你爱上了两个人，选择第二个。因为如果你真爱第一个，就不会去爱其他人。

能开口说出的委屈，便不是委屈。

能被抢走的爱人，便不叫爱人。

一个人成熟的标志之一就是，明白每天发生在自己身上的99%的事情对于别人而言根本毫无意义。

在你想要放弃的那一刻，想想为什么当初坚持走到了这里...

缘起，在人群中，我看见你。缘灭，我看见你，在人群中。

生命中最美好的都是看不见的，这就是为什么我们会在接吻，哭泣，许愿的时候闭上眼睛。

有没有这样一个人？无论多么想念，却不曾再见面。

够力的一天。。>.<.....

2011-11-24T07:42:00.000-08:00

今天真的是很够力咯。。。
o(︶︿︶)o 唉。。早上我不小心撞到罗里。。
车子。。有些伤。。人没事。。因为其实很小事。。o(︶︿︶)o 唉。。
总之。。。弄到一整天心情不是很好。。。

大考要到了。。我还有很多要读哦。。
好烦哦。。。
不是很开心。。。
o(︶︿︶)o 唉。。。。
希望这次考试能顺顺利利过关。。。
愿神明保佑哦。。。

this is wat i shud remind myself everyday ↑"WATCH ME" or"TRY ME"...i wont and will nt give up easily... =)
...................no matter how nt good my day is... =)...

REcent life-~

2011-11-23T09:26:00.000-08:00

最近都在准备大考。。。
没有什么特别哦。。。就拍了一堆自己念书的照片。。。

那一晚太饿了。。。还好朋友给了糖果我吃。。。因为实在太饿了。。╯﹏╰↑

这就叫茶壶的世界o(∩_∩)o 哈哈↓

不过那天我还是弄了个卷发哦。。。开心o(≧v≦)o~~好棒↓
还刚好朋友带相机。。我们就玩了好多张自拍哦(*^__^*) 嘻嘻↓

哦·~~对了再有一天我和朋友去做瑜伽然后还去吃了点心哦o(∩_∩)o 哈哈↓

2011-11-22T08:00:00.000-08:00

我感觉有点糟糕哦。。
像今天的事。。。我尽然找不到个人谈哦。。。
我觉得有点难过哦。。
想起以前。。。都有某个人陪着我。。。
我都找不到那个人。。。因为根本不存在哦。。。
有点落寞哦。。。。
转了一大圈。。。全部都不对的。。。。。。。。。。
每次都觉得自己可以不需要。。。可以好好的。。。。
但每次弱的时候。。。我竟然找不到一个肩膀靠。。。
有点无奈的感觉。。。
因为我傻的可以。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
我会好好过现在的生活的。。。。
我依然相信。。。对的人会在对的时候出现。。。

some words that i would love to hear from a guy tat i love =)

2011-11-19T07:19:00.000-08:00

copy from some article tat says tat different horoscope have their own love words~~=)
i juz copy a few of them coz this are my favourite ones ^^

Libra 天秤座

I love your tender kisses and charming smiles.

Scorpio 天蝎座

To me， you are irreplaceable， because you are one of a kind.

Sagittarius 射手座

If you need me， I am here for you. I am on your side.

Capricornus 魔羯座

Oh， dear. I want you to know that being with you， it’s as good as it gets.

Aquarius 水瓶座

You are the one I have been looking for.

copy and paste o..

2011-11-18T05:35:00.000-08:00

你热烈极了，渴望极了，冲动极了，巴不得把所有美好的东西都给他，只要你有，只要他要。

可是他归要结底还是个普通的男人。别的男人有的优点他有，别的男人的缺点他一样也不少。情到深时人孤独，你明明是和他一起，可是你还是不能确定他的心里眼里想的念的全部是你。他和别的女人有说有笑，你的心开始一点点冰冷。因为那些笑容和眼神曾经专属于你。你开始失眠，一点小事情都草木皆兵患得患失。

你开始翻他的通话记录，你寻找蛛比马迹他晚归的嫌疑，你庸人自扰，你自讨苦吃，你终于被自己打败。

他不再关心你没有胃口，不再为你有心事而着急，不再担心你的房租不够，不再因为你淋雨而担心你生病。你和他说过无数情话的电话，再也不响了。

情到浓时情转薄。你试探，你纠缠，你挽留，你终于逼他亲口和你说出对不起。

下一句，是分手。

下一站，是再见。

他说我们分手吧。你说给我个理由。他说如果你实在想要，那我给你编造一个。

于是你哭了。你的眼泪再也不能灼烫他的心了。他面无表情地看着你，他说我走了。终于他渐渐消失在你的视线以外。

你瞬间崩溃。这一次，你知道，他是说真的了。你知道，你终于失去了他。

然后的事情呢？就是拼命想他的坏，他的无情，他不讲卫生，他睡觉咬牙打呼噜说梦话，他没有情趣，他开车喜欢闯红灯说话喜欢带脏字，他从来不把你介绍给他的朋友和家人，他是骗子，是情种，他带你上天堂又推你下地狱。

可是，你和他终究是分开了，他以后会喜欢谁，会在谁的床头沉睡，又会娶了谁，跟你，一点儿关系都没有了！

如此的全心全意的爱，都经不起长久时光的冲刷，何况是爱的不够的呢？所以说，恋爱谈的愈长，结婚的可能性就愈低，有时候恋爱的长度与结婚的可能性成反比。

遇上对的人，莫等待莫蹉跎，也许没有房子没有车子，只要他认真上进，他就是张有潜力的积优股，早点进场获利更高。

dissapointment

2011-11-13T06:00:00.000-08:00

today went out on a date with him...
finally go out with him...
but i am very dissapointed...
isit becoz i expect too much ??
am i expect too much on him??
isit my fault that our date turns out to be the reason i doesnt wan to consider him anymore...
today i did my make up and pick out a whole new outfits with my favorite high heels...
still....every hope i had for the date has fully crushed after our lunch...
haiz.......
he is really nt my type...
i cant fall for him....
end of conclusion....

Doing assignment day.....

2011-11-12T09:07:00.000-08:00

sometimes it really would let me feels good when i am full of knowledge...becoz i read so many article and journals...
but still...it is so tiring...
i got so little time and so many thgs to do...
really tired....

and i would love to have a warm hug.....but i doesnt knw where to get the hug...
that special person havent shows up...
so i'll juz have to wait....

自恋的我(^__^)

2011-11-06T23:53:00.000-08:00

那天赶功课所以就留了在学校的audi5 ~~^_^~~因为了了解自己~~在家会比较懒o(≧v≦)o~~

很坏的我。。。哈哈~~趁我朋友专心的抄功课时我让他带上了我绑头发的小可爱~\(≧▽≦)/~哈哈


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那天放了双眼皮贴和照样的刷睫毛膏~~效果还满不错的哦o(∩_∩)o 哈哈

很开心哦~~好像放大了一样o(∩_∩)o 哈哈~~~

第二天因赶时间所一没刷睫毛膏~~可效果也不会差很远哦·o(∩_∩)o 哈哈~~开心~~
(*^__^*) 嘻嘻

 -------------------------------------------------------------------------- 回忆。。

那天因为太开心。。。一连拍了很多照。。。其中的一张。。。令我想起以前一些事。。。

这两张很像吧。。。下面那张。。我拍的时候是17。。。没有很小可还是看起来像个小孩子。。。

这张照片。。。让我想起的是。。。以前。。。有个人也曾因这照片笑过我。。说不像我。。
我那时都还没和他一起。。。更没有说注意他了。。。也许那时。。他也不曾想过会跟我有过那么一段故事了。。。。。
时间过的真快。。。。要三年了。。。。事隔那么久。。。没想到我再一次拍这pose。。竟跟那时一样是单身。。也和他没关系。。。。只是。。再也不可能像当时那样。。。他和我单纯的朋友嘲弄玩笑了。。。。

有点感触。。。还好。。。与他结束后我过的还算不错。。。以前都没想过。。会有现在这样的局面。。真的世事难料啊。。。。现在明白一个道理。。。原来单身能让我学会该有的独立。。。

End of OCt @ early NOV ~XD

2011-11-06T23:13:00.000-08:00

i had been to the delicous with my frens and try their cakes ^.^ and they try their pasta^^
is really really GOOD^^~~although is REALLY EXPENSIVE>.<
4 of us eat a lunch then cost us RM96 ~~~~~($ _ $)
*luckily i juz eat a cake>.< juz cost me RM15~~hehe~~ Y(^_^)Y

this two months eat many great food ^.^

This is the pasta ke yun order^^chili if i m nt wrong =D quite nice but taste abit like full house's pasta~^^

This is the one tat yinn order~~=) is tomato~~but it taste like curry to me ~~haha^^~
\(≧▽≦)/~

this is d one siew hong order~~cheese and beef i think~~ o(-"-)o~~and this is d most EXPENSIve among all food tat we order~~but .....it really taste....."no offense" but....really nt tat special o~~>.<~~DUN uND.... @.@

This flat white~~^^order by ke yun^^~~hoho~~but she end up too full and regret order this coffee^^hehe~~

This IS MINE^^hhoho~~MY chocolate BANANA cake^^VERYVERY nice o~~=D~~HAPPIE~~
is VERY VERY CHOCOLATE o~~^.^ next time jiejie come bac muz bring her try^^~~hehe~~
o(∩_∩)o

Me with ke yun~~↑

ME and yinn yinn =D~~↓

had go to SS15 try the new snowflake =)~~ with mt , jana , siew hong , and yinn =D~~
this is the 1st time i come here =D.....wondering...y no one had ever bring me here...........
the new item in snowflake =) with baby pearl, red bean, green tea ball, and the soya ice.... suppose to taste good since all of this is my favor >.<...but dun knw y the soya makes me feel abit sick>.< end up cant finish it~~~(＞﹏＜)

yesterday and the day before yesterday XD~~

2011-10-23T08:57:00.000-07:00

最近嘴巴生了两个大ULCER~~痛到我半边嘴都肿了。。●﹏●

╯﹏╰连吃橙都要切到酱小

还好姐姐给了我仙药。。。搽了它能让它麻痹一阵子。。。(＞﹏＜)

虽然痛。。。但。。。。。。o(≧v≦)o~~还是在presentation前一天吃了很好吃的午餐o(∩_∩)o ~~

最爱的酸辣汤~~还有朋友吃的炸鸡~~鹵豆腐和蛋~都好好吃o(∩_∩)o ~~

然后第二天。。。嘴巴还是肿肿的。。画好好妆。。上车。。也吃药搽药了。。还是痛痛的哦。。

总于presentation 在七点讲完也结束了。。。在晚上结束~~~所以接下来就是晚餐时间~~^^和朋友mt & tartar~~吃寿司^^

在那里还是能自拍哦~~呵呵~~自恋的我#^_^#

(*^__^*) 嘻嘻

晚餐后~就和他们吃绿茶冰淇淋~~好吃哦~~^.^~~~

那天的presentation还算不错哦~~就有些东东要改改~~^.^

12/10 & 13/10's day and night =D

2011-10-14T05:04:00.000-07:00

i was suppose to have audit presentation on 13/10 d~
so we prepare-ing it in the AVroom in library and even wear formal dy~~

another shot with my fren^.^~~he is actually comb-ing his hair~~then i pulll him take d

13/10-~~the day i was supposed to present~~so i had wear formal~~=D

but then after practice we realise we r nt ready...so we post pone it to next week>.<
so i eat my lunch wif my fren then onli go home =D

面对面板面~~好吃^^

回到妈妈店那里顺便买了两件外套下星期可以穿了=)

晚上看了部电影。。很有意思。。

因为它是由四个老人家拍的。。。却能让人不停流泪和感动感触哦。。。
导演编剧。。和演员都很厉害。。。

让人明白。。。最浪漫不是爱的激烈而是老了依然相伴左右。。然后很爱。。。
相爱不容易。。。维持那份爱更不容易。。。能够爱到头发白了。。。原来真是最浪漫的。。。

这部戏让我哭了很多。。可没有很激动。。但。。心很感触。。有意思。。。

然后为了调节下心情就看了另一部戏。。。结局不错。。内容也还好。。就不够另一部感触。。容入心。。。=)

AIYO~~~~~

2011-10-10T17:37:00.000-07:00

yesterday go out wid fren tatar^^so happy i somemore fetch her bac uni~~=D~~
then take photo of me wif her in d car^^haha~~

HAIZ.......................
assignment havent finish ar............
howhohowhohwohwohowhw??

无聊的一天

2011-10-08T23:56:00.000-07:00

今天是星期天。。
女人每个月的烦恼真是让人无助。。。
痛到说话都没力气了。。。

抱着姐姐给的毛毛热水袋。。。毛毛袋加了热水暖暖的。。。很舒服可还是痛。。。。>.<

再见了我棕色美丽的发色。。。妈妈嫌我头发棕色更容易看得出头发干干坏坏的。。。

所以我染深了。。有点不习惯。。想念以前的发色哦。。。>.<

想多了。。。

2011-10-01T10:32:00.000-07:00

我已经不期待爱情了。。。
在我最期待最想要的时候。。。它一次又一次的让我失望。。难过。。
我已经不想要了。。如果爱情是那样。。。我宁愿心里空空的。。就算是自己一个。。最多会羡慕别人一对对。。。有时会觉得孤单但最起码。。。也不会像心里有个人的难过。。。那种难过令人不舒服。。很不开心。。。。
我伤心了两天。。。才决定了。。。他不再重要了。。。他在我心里不再那么重要了。。。
我不想再为不值得的人掉一颗眼泪了。。。我不想了。。。

我啊。。。现在不喜欢爱情。。。因为它第一时间让我想到的是失望。。。因为。。。爱情·很容易在有希望时让你绝望。。。失望。。。然后。。会让人有种。。不知道自己到底在干嘛。。。
甚至觉的自己很蠢。。。很烦。。。
爱情能让你开心无比但一定能让你心痛难过无敌。。。
但最起码要值得吧。。。起码要很爱很开心过吧。。。
不喜欢。。。觉得自己是笨蛋。。。

所以现在看到情侣没有很想了。。我竟然有觉得他们很蠢。。。
觉得很傻的想法。。。很坏心眼哦。。。
因为看见他们我会心烦。。。不是很开心。。。

我已经忘了自己是别人女友的那种感觉和习惯了。。也不想记得了。。。
觉的记来很多余。。。

与其麻木的期待假的希望。。。倒不如。。好好习惯。。自己也可以很快乐。。。
我宁愿心空空的。。起码不会有心酸。。。不开心的感觉。。
觉得很烦。。。甚至觉得都有目的的。。。

就·连我最喜欢的。。。
热恋感觉。。。也有时不能使我动心了。。
有人接近我的心就会反弹了。。。
因为讨厌了。。讨厌它们总喜欢来去自如。。。
讨厌它们总自以为是。。。讨厌他们总利用我的温柔。。。利用我真心。。。学会不珍惜我。。
因为我动了心就会很全心全意了。。。总会让他们觉得。。。我不会走。。。我一定在。。。

是谁说。。我永远会那样好啊。。。
那样温柔哦。。。那样。。只要有事我就愿意陪你哦。。。
不懂得珍惜我。。。却懂得想要得到我的心。。。占据我的真心。。我的关心关怀。。。
得到以后。。。就不新鲜了。。。我不是理想的。。。就不要了。。。

难道爱情·里真·要坏才能被珍惜吗。。。
不是想要的。。。当初就别一起啊。。。
o(︶︿︶)o 唉。。。

不知道。。这感觉会持续多久但。。
现在不行。。。不想再让心受伤。。不想再惊动我的心了。。
也许我真很没防备心吧。。。
所以现在开始会有了。。。
要有目的的。。。。感应到就会防它。。。让它离开。。我说过我讨厌暧昧。。
是真的一直到是那样认为。。。因为。。。要真很爱。。很珍惜为什么见不得光不能一起呢。。
那样不清不楚。。。是不是证明我是可以被取代啊。。。。既然不是唯一。。。那就算了吧。。
我传统的很。。。我觉得爱情。。。应该是让心有个归宿。。有个落点。。。
所以我不想抢还是爭。。。。只想做唯一的。。。

要做朋友。。。关系就放干净点。。。不要踩过线。。。这样我才能安心的。。放心的做朋友啊。。
不让我觉得是有目的的。。。不然我会不再信你的。。。
我可以温柔可以真心。。。可以你有事不开心就一直陪你。。。
关心。。。交心。。但前提是。。要是你不是完全想当朋友而是。。。。玩游戏。。不懂珍惜我们的友谊（想要和真的跟我暧昧的人我都认为是不珍惜）因为。。。明知道我要是真的认真。。要是真的喜欢上会很伤很伤心的。。。你还让我傻傻的。。。我就会知道。。你不可靠了。。我就没有办法再像从前那样信任。。。了。。心事会越讲越少。。因为。。。
我不知道该怎么定位你了。。。
不是友情的信任。。。跟不是情人的信任。。。我会认定。。你是有目的的。。。
要人做仰慕者。。。。
很抱歉。。。我做不了。。。
要是我没有遇见地震和双鱼的他们。。。
也许我可以但我不能了。。。
我厌倦了。。当他们眼里乖女孩。。会一直在哪里。。会一直温柔。。。会容忍会接受。。
很抱歉。。。就是酱让我一次又一次失望的。。。所以。。。我会学会有所保留。。。

所以当我·遇见纯友谊。。我会心温暖。。。放心。。。安心。。信任。。。
因为我不用防可以安心了。。。

我啊。。。只要不去想。。。只要不去想就好。。。
真希望。。不要再让我有半点假希望了。。
我不想再等待以后就是失望了。。。
那很讨厌也让我的心更不开心。。。更更不开心。。。
所以请停止一切假希望了。。。就只让真正跟我有缘的人接近我的心吧。。。

我还终于学会不要管别人想什么。。。我做好我自己。。别人想什么关不了。。也没兴趣了。。。
反正不会对我照成太大影响。。。就算了吧。。。管我什么事。。。
也无许解释任何东西了。。因为信你的人不用你解释。。不信你的人。。解释也是多余的。。。
而且学会有时沉默是最好的。。。。

ordinary day...

2011-09-28T08:51:00.001-07:00

today wake up....super tired...then onli realised once again i forget to remove my make up and then fall asleep dy...
clear my face pack my things planning to go uni...then onli remember...today i got an one hour tax tutorial only...coz my banking and finance workshop cancel dy...>.<
i feel stupid to travel so far just for that one hour...so i end up didnt go to uni today...
i hav my breakfast then wash some cloths....read the newspaper for awhile...
then i walk to upstairs and change my cloths and go downstairs to cook " tong sui'^.^
long time didnt cook it...=)
finish everythg...then watch a cartoon for awhile...then is afternnoon...i hav my lunch then plan to start study....end up fall asleep....when wake up received two msg from fren...the resit result out dy...
quickly check it....WONDERFUL.....i still got one sub cant pass....
i have to repeat 3 subject now.....
SO HAPPY..................................

b patient and wait...wait for d right timing...

2011-09-24T23:39:00.000-07:00

昨天。。他忙一整天。。所一晚上才找我下。。。却让我闷闷的心不舒服了一整天。。。
我想我好朋友说得很对。。我把他放太大了。。。
不应该让他影响我得生活。。
每天习惯性的有他信息真的太纵容我自己了。
我啊。。。决定了。。不会一直酱下去的。。。
等到我真受不了得那一天我就要直接问他。。。让我死心也好啊。。
我会问他在他心里我算什么。。。到放弃时。。我就能好好的。。想想身边的人。。
我还真的快疯了。。。
一直记起跟他一起的那些细节。。。真要命。。。
也许。。。对他来说。。那些什么都不算吧。。。
我不管了。。。照我的性格。。。到那时。。我一定会问清楚。。。好让自己死心。。
不然我还真的不容易放弃的。。。
现在。。只好假装没事好好过活。。。o(︶︿︶)o 唉。。。
now..all i can do is wait...wait for he come and go by his own wish...i cant stop....i nt capable to do so...and wait till one day i cant take it anymore...maybe i will decide to leave or giv up by myself....haiz...

2011-08-24T16:43:00.000-07:00

tat day went to have dinner with them at BBQ plaza =)

MOnday- inside mango^^

TOday~in the financial department~~>.< juz testing^^

i am grateful with wat i have. i appreciate it. i will make it better to let my life more complete.=)

2011-08-20T21:33:00.000-07:00

能够安于现状。。能对拥有的感到满足就已经很足够了。。
=)

my sem break photos

2011-08-20T21:08:00.000-07:00

femine 30 camp=)

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YYC colleagues^.^

gals shot~

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single shots with guys=)

JJ@me.^.^

jeff~me

YJ@me~

Ian@me~

DIDI(wei hong)@me~
Ervin@me~=)

such long time i didnt take so many single photos with d male.~~>.< need to record it down>.<..

holiday ended my new semester start.

2011-08-20T20:56:00.000-07:00

i enjoy alot in this holiday ...make alot of new frens...nt really holiday coz i am working..but i didnt feel tired at all..maybe becoz i get to drive and get to stay away from my real life awhile...
sometimes i feel like i hate d real life...coz is so stress and so many ppl i need to becareful of...
i m really tired ...can i juz give out all d stupid and fake frenship....i really doubt about them...i wan to enjoy my student life also..
but i make a promise to myself...this is it...my end of bad results....i can lie to d others bt nt myself..
i knw wat is a full push ..i will need a real full push..
fren shud be fren..simple and shud nt have any interest conflict...i am sick of it...
no more show off...i happy for my fren and hope tat they are happy for me as weell..nt like..
forget about it...i might be blur..but hey...once again..i m nt going to be silly and easy to bully forever..
this time i m tired..i doesnt want care about d stupid relationship stuff dy...i already very busy...
i need to focus on my result..and all d society thg...for real..
i got too much to care about....so end of it...
FOR ALL THE PEOPLE WHO LOOK DOWN ON ME...LOOK AT ME CAREFULLY FROM NOW ONWARDS...
I WILL SHOW YOU MY TRUE COLOURS...SEE WHERE I END UP..I PROMISE TO MYSELF..
WILL NOT LET MYSELF DOWN AGAIN...
i will do as my fren jj says ^.^ enjoy my student life and hav no regrets..=)
student life is short..i shudnt waste my time on them ...
i will juz be me..so whoever doesnt happy about me..so please juz leave...
i will nt do any stupid moves like hold u all bac again...
=)

迷宫

2011-08-14T03:16:00.000-07:00

我又开始想逃避了。。
不想正面去面对它。。因为我实在是不懂该怎么做哦。。。
无言。。。
我好像跑进迷宫里。。找不到出路。。一直转圈圈。。。
好傻哦。。。

我可不可以。。

2011-08-13T07:10:00.000-07:00

我可以真的喜欢他吗？可以有期待有想法吗？能吗？能不能啊。。。
可以吗？？可以吗？？
我好想啊。。每天每次都小心提醒自己不能不能。。。
有时真累啊。。
真不明白。。这是为什么。。。让我遇见他。。。
真的越来越多不可能加在一起哦。。。
爱情不是比赛。。。不能要抢啊。。我要的从来很简单。。却为什么。。好像那么不可能。。
我很简单。。。就是努力按着自己。。

我小心翼翼的不去踩我那些危险的线。。。希望不去做就会安全。。。

可那天看戏。。真有让我很想。。。很想有那种想法啊。。。很想真的喜欢他哦。。。

但我的认真可是会真得很认真的哦。。。我不可以玩玩下啊。。我知道自己认真会有多认真。。

我好怕我会收到伤害哦。。为什么。。为什么那么好笑。。。别闹吧。。我不是游戏啊。。。不要这样对我。。。

所以我有时真宁愿他是女生。。那么我可以更过分的依赖他。。可以自自然的抱他。。。不用烦什么了。。。

你知不知道。。我喜欢你。。。会想你。。可其实这些是多么不切实际的事啊。。。。

我真的要疯了。。。我明明知道环境不能也知道情况也好像不能。。可我好像陷下去一样。。。

真的很讨厌啊。。。

我会想他的。。=)

2011-08-08T09:10:00.000-07:00

我会想他的。。
很喜欢他可又不像是那种哦。。
真奇怪。。。
我还真不明白自己哦。。可
能确定。。。我会想他。。
开始倒数了。。还有一个星期多。。。还有十二天吧。。
然后就开课了。。就不能像现在那样天天见天天让他教了。。
喜欢他的温柔。。可惜我们。。不太可能。。
哈。。。就喜欢他大过我。。。却因此注定更难。。
我会记得他的o(∩_∩)o 。。。

my SEm BREAk^.^

2011-08-03T09:40:00.000-07:00

new hair colour with straight hair^^~~

new hair colour and it is curl^^haha~~this taken on dinner with my family~~

MY working pass^^~~=p

friday-casual day, no out fit so wear my own shirt but i still get d working pass~~
^^

假期一点都不无聊。。我学到很多东西。。也认识了很多人。。
友善的人。。。开心o(∩_∩)o ~~
也认识到一个很神奇·的人。。。一个很好很好的人。好到我真怕我会喜欢上他。。。
o(∩_∩)o 。。因为太了解自己所以我知道。。。这是很危险的。。所以。。。会更小心。。
短暂。。。也不可能。。。
他人太好了。。太温柔了。。太贴心了。。也太细心了。。
让我很想很自然就想靠近想依靠。。但心里明白。。这像赌博。。。
所以在怕。。。好怕。。
不想失去。。因为。。他真的很好。。。进这间公司。。其中一件最幸运的事是认识到他。。。
他教我太多了。。很感谢他。。o(∩_∩)o 。。。

庆幸现在感觉还好=)
ofcuz~~besides about him...i still get to learn how to audit a report~~^.^
check accounts and sec audit and tax audit^.^
get to call to clients and use photo step machine and fax machine.
thgs tat i never done before^.^
haha~~^.^
and sis come bac i got super many thgs and also 1st time dye my hair in saloon^^haha~~
NICE^^~>.^hehehe~~

2011-07-21T10:36:00.000-07:00

如果當時沒遇見你

現在我還當真以為愛情很美好

如果當時選擇毅然決然放棄

最後選擇權也不會落在你手裡

如果當時不再為難你

現在

在同個城市也不會一個向左一個向右走

這樣也好

人生的過程又學習到一件事情

愛情來的不是時候

就不應該伸手去拿

因為

那不是我的

那是別人的

得到了又如何

又會用同樣的方式失去

我現在不怪你了

用了一小段時間釋懷

反而還很感謝你

如果沒有你

也不會真正領悟這些事情確實不用將感情事看得太重

感情不是用來傷害自己是用來成長自己就像咖啡一樣太濃會苦澀太甜會膩口中庸就好

上帝給了我許多次的機會

讓我看淡再看淡一點

關了我的門

會再幫我開另一扇窗

是希望這條路上

前面有坎坷的顛簸

只為找尋到屬於將來更平坦的路來走

也是找到任何事情做決定的方向

感謝的你多情讓我開始變的要更自私讓我更懂得保護自己讓我更自私的愛自己

沒有你剛開始很不快樂

但我現在過的很好

比跟你相處的那段時間還更踏實

而且還要更快樂與充實

謝謝你給的領悟

也希望你可以也領悟到這些
身邊的人在一起時要好好珍惜
不是等你有空才在挽回

選一個你愛的
也認真去愛你的選擇
共勉之

2011-07-21T07:05:00.000-07:00

太看重感情的人都這樣的..

1、容易滿足更容易受傷
2、總有一種被忽視的感覺
3、付出的遠遠超過得到的
4、很固執、不懂得放棄
5、總是說著要離開，卻一再為自己找不離開的理由
6、在別人面前笑得很開心，一個人的時候卻很漠落
7、在陌生人面前很安靜，在朋友面前胡鬧
8.、不會想索要的太多的回報，只要一點點就可以讓我死心塌地，可以很少、但一定要有
9、心情不好的時候，卻喜歡聽悲歌
10、坐在電腦前不知道做什麼，卻又不想關掉它
11、覺得世界上每一個人都不可靠，但卻還是那樣地選擇相信別人
12、偶爾會有種想消失的念頭
13、不喜歡等待卻總是等待
14、經常不經意的發呆
15、總會把事情想得很長久
16、總是覺得沒有人會把自己放在心裡疼
17、心事放在心底，有一個自己的世界
18、習慣了沉默，在沉默中爆發
19、會懷疑，卻總是要把人往好處想
20、不喜歡一個人逛街
21、一點點事就胡思亂想
22、自己走路會很快
23、隱藏心事，喜歡一個人流淚
24、習慣冷戰
25、喜歡角落、習慣蜷縮
26、莫名地孤單，無法抗拒的恐懼感
27、不愛說話或很愛說話

请不要怀疑，我爱你，但，那只是曾经。

2011-07-19T10:16:00.000-07:00

我爱你的时候是真的爱你，我不爱你的时候是真的不爱你了

请不要怀疑，曾经，我愿意不顾一切的等你，愿意随时随地陪你，愿意在你身后默默的看你，为你的快乐而快乐，为你的悲伤而悲伤，尽管，那些情绪，与我无关啊……

我爱你，但，那只是曾经。
o(∩_∩)o

今天考完试了·~~
考完姐姐回来然后又要做工了=)
又是忙忙碌了·~~能休息现在就要珍惜哦~~
今天跟他们一起吃饭。。。感觉真神奇。。一年前我们位置对换。。如今。。
我心里想我这半年做过遇过的事他们都不懂吗？
还是·都喜欢装不懂。。
还是那么讨厌我都不想懂我的事。。。无奈。。=)
反正。。我分了以后。。是变了不少。。无所谓他们懂不懂了。。
我庆幸我放开了。。不爱了。。=)
不能不承认。。。能在他们面前赢会尊严是很开心。。
起码不再自卑了。。。过去求过的。。。尊严要回来了=)
信不信都好。。。我真的走了也没有回头了。。。
一切都好。。你好我也好=)

had joined the clinique star tour' 2011on 3/7 =)

2011-07-06T22:06:00.000-07:00

BEfore>.<

AFTER~~=P(gOT differenceS??>.<~~hahaha~~)

I am in d website~~hahah~~~^^(but then i think i take myself is nicer than they take for me>.<~)

2011-06-29T09:17:00.001-07:00

因为爱过，所以不会成为敌人，因为伤过，所以不会做朋友。

痛過之後就不會覺得痛了，有的只會是一顆冷漠的心。-copy&paste=p

2011-06-27T17:05:00.000-07:00

2.走完同一條街,回到兩個世界。

6.誰把誰真的當真，誰為誰心疼。

7.多謝你的絕情，讓我學會死心

8.當眼淚流下來，才知道，分開也是另一種明白。

9.我真的愛你，閉上眼，以為我能忘記，但流下的眼淚，……… 卻沒有騙到自己

14.不是不死心是死不了心。

15.痛過之後就不會覺得痛了，有的只會是一顆冷漠的心。

16.真心離傷心最近。

18.在原諒與絕望之間游蕩，唯一的感覺是傷　傷　傷！

20. 喜歡一個人沒有錯，錯就錯在喜歡一個不喜歡自己的人

~~牛牛me~~o(∩_∩)o

2011-06-27T03:12:00.000-07:00

40、每一段恋情都独一无二。有的人让你学会了怎样去爱，有的人让你明白了什么是受伤，有的人让你尝到了人间最甜蜜的幸福……有的爱情虽已走远，但它把我们引向成熟；有的人虽已不爱，但曾经爱得真切。我们不知道什么时候会受到爱神的眷顾，但注定会有某个人，让我们不得不爱。---【摘自精彩语录】

17、对方说:「我已经不爱你了。」, 你着急了, 脱口而出:「没关系的啊 ! 我们还是可以在一起的啊 ! 」, 说完, 你忽然哭了, 不是因为伤心对方不爱你了, 而是因为这一瞬间, 你猛然醒悟, 自己已经成为爱情的乞丐。。。。。----【蔡康永给未知恋人的爱情短信】

41、如果开始下一段感情,我不会再问,喜欢我什么;也不会问,是认真对待吗'我会问:三个月后还会争分夺秒的关心吗;半年后一句不开心仍旧会陪伴左右吗; 一年后睡不着是还会百度故事在耳边轻喏吗;两年后看见落泪还像第一次那般束手无策吗;三年四年或者更久;敢不敢一如既往没有理由的对我疼爱! ---【摘自早安、晚安、心语】

43、人生最大的幸福，是发现自己爱的人正好也爱着自己。——【张爱玲】

by 牛牛me~~o(∩_∩)o

^^

2011-06-26T09:53:00.000-07:00

心烦时。。这几句真好用=)nevermind, is ok, it will be over =)~

就想要有个人不用你解释。。绝对相信你。。。什么事都支持你。。。你需要就在你身边。。想要这样绝对的好朋友。。。=）

Happiness is just on my hands, and even lost sense of direction, but still not afraid．

If you are in love with two person, choose the second person. because if you are really in love with the first, you wouldn't have fallen for the second.~~
"doesnt know why but i love this sentences"o(∩_∩)o ~

她说，幸福就是找到了一个令她想为他拼命减肥的人，而那人却总是拍拍她的头说，再吃一点，别饿着了。

不等了。。当作是那是答案了。。=)

想象比真正来的好吧。。。也还好想过而已。。。=)

就是没关系啊。。。。

o(∩_∩)o 哈哈~~我的写照。。我就是。。。^^

Nobody can go back and start a new begining, but anyone can start now and make a new ending

One day someone will walk into your life, then you realize love was always worth waiting for.

Even if someone breaks your heart, there is always someone willing to mend it.

祝福。。别了。。因为很讽刺。。因为曾经你就是我认为所谓的“幸福”。.

痛。。

最好别回头。。不然你会很难看。。。不过我对这有过无数不一样的想法。。。曾想过。。有天你会记起。。。想起。。念起我。。。不过那时。。我定是走远了。。不会在原地等你了。。
过后又觉得。。是自己傻。。决意要走的人怎么会记起旧人。。尤其已有了新人。。
为此曾不甘心过。。。担心。。想过。。。如今。。不在乎了。。。是与否。。。不重要了。。
因为你不再是我心里最独一无二的唯一了。。。就像我也不是你最重要的女人了。。。
所以你有否想起。。念起我。。。已经是none of my business了·。。是你的女人要想。。要担心的事了。。
不过。。。我还真的觉得最好别了。。不然。。她。。就是你的current。。就会。。让她。。变得不值得了。。负了一个就好。。再一个。。真的会很难看。。

People cry not because love ends, but because still continues,Even if it's over.

我曾经。。想过。。也希望过。。。你会在你如此对我时。。心也在流血。。
因为。。。就算已经这样了。。。也希望。。能借此证明。。我们的过去对你有意义。。。对你来说我的付出值得。。。不然。。

haha...but now..i doesnt want to hear it anymore..becoz it really doesnt matter anymore...and i doesnt need it anymore...=)
the last thing i wan hear from you now ....maybe it will be "i am sorry."..
becoz...it makes me feel like ...i am stupid...

我当初的心声。。。可惜。。。你都不明白。。。o(︶︿︶)o 唉~~~

~~~牛牛me~~~

another copy and paste...somethg i like =)

2011-06-26T08:51:00.001-07:00

放弃并不总意味着你软弱，有时反而说明你足够坚强去舍弃。

【我喜欢的那个人,能不能问你4个问题】
1.有没有一瞬间，你上线是为了找我，让我陪你聊天？

2.有没有那么一种感动，当你看到手机上有我发的短信时，嘴角会有一丝满意的微笑？
3.如果有一天我不再和你联系，你会主动跟我联系吗？
4.如果有一天，我彻底的在你的世界里消失，你会不会想起有我的存在？

原来，曾经亲密无间的两个人，会连路人都不如；
原来，如此关心爱护的两个人，也会彻底地失去联系。
每个人都是孤独的个体，学会坚强，学会勇敢，学会拿的起，就能放的下。

感情，会浓，也会变淡。即使有千般不愿，万般不舍，也阻止不了它的离去。
删掉一切，却无法删掉那最深的记忆。

“人生的价值不在于他人的赞赏或批评，而是取决于我们自身.”o(∩_∩)o

~~牛牛me~~~^^

copy and paste....really somethg somethg...=)

2011-06-26T08:27:00.000-07:00

生活就是这样，最终相守到老的人，也许并不是那个曾经许下山盟海誓，承诺白头偕老，暗自发誓这辈子只爱她一个的人。

终究，终究时间会带走一切..
到底是什麼让我们鬆开了彼此的手？
到底是什麼让我们放弃了自己，放弃了对方？
会一直说真的没什麼，然后又对著别人的故事沉默。
表面终究会归於平静，只是内心的波涛汹涌却不为人知。
只有自己才知道，谁是自己真正爱的那个人，谁又是伤了自己的那个人。
所以最后的最后，当我们都有了彼此的归属，你只能是我记忆中模糊地剪影而已。
一个女人突然决绝的跟相爱五年的男友分了手，闪电般嫁了他人。
她说她要结婚，她实在等不起了，而他虽然爱她，却根本没有一点这方面的意思..
过了几年，男人也结婚了..
那个新娘其实未必比她出色多少，或者这一次他的爱有多麼深，只不过她出现的时机实在太好了，刚刚好在他萌生倦意想安定下来的时候。
於是，不需要什麼更好的理由了，她来得正是时候，那麼，就是她了..

其实我们寻寻觅觅了那麼久，遍嚐每一次爱情的甜蜜与艰辛，而最后选择的爱人，不过就是在我们心意动时，经过身边的那一个。

什麼青梅竹马，什麼心有灵犀，什麼一见钟情，都不过是些锦上添花的藉口，
时间才是冥冥中一切的主宰..

回首往事的时候，想起那些如流星般划过生命的爱情，我们常常会把彼此的错过归咎为缘分..
其实说到底，缘分是那麼虚幻抽象的一个概念，
真正影响我们的，往往就是那一时三刻相遇与相爱的时机..
男女之间的交往，充满了犹疑忐忑的不确定与欲言又止的矜持，一个小小的变数，就可以完全改变选择的方向。

如果你出现的早一点，也许她就不会和另一个人十指紧扣;
又或者相遇的再晚一点，晚到两个人在各自的爱情经歷中慢慢学会了包容和体谅，善待和妥协。
在你最美丽的时候，你遇见了谁？
在你深爱一个人的时候，她又陪在谁身边？
在你心灵最脆弱的时候，又是谁在与她同行?
爱情到底给了你多少时间，去相遇和分离，去选择和后悔？
重温 “大话西游” 看到紫霞深爱至尊宝的时候，他心心念念的寻找他的白晶晶，而当他终於看到了她留在心裡的那一滴泪，却已经失去了选择的权利..
每一次看到他潜入另一个人的身体，去偿还前世欠她的一句承诺，再看他在夕阳下孤独的走远，总是情不自禁的想要落泪..
不是不心动，不是不后悔，但已经没有时间，再去相拥了..

如果爱一个人而无法在一起，相爱却无法在适当的时间相遇，
如果你爱了，却爱不对时间，除了珍藏那一滴心底的泪，无言的走远，你又能有什麼选择？
时间的荒野，没有早一步也没有晚一步，
於千万人之中，去邂逅自己的爱人，那是太难得的缘分，
更多的时候，我们只是在彼此不断的错过，错过了杨花飘飞的春，又错过了枫叶瑟索的秋，
直到漫天白雪，年华不再，
在一次次的心酸感嘆之后，才能终於了解..

即使真挚，即使亲密，即使两个人都已是心有戚戚，我们的爱，依然需要时间来成全和考验。
这世界有著太多这样那样的限制与隐秘的禁忌，又有太多难以预测的变故和身不由己的离离合合，一个转身，也许就已经一辈子错过..

多年以后，才会参透所有的争取和努力，都抵不过命运开的一个玩笑。
上帝在云端只眨了一眨眼，所有的结局，就都已经完全改变..

some words..sentences..meaningful..copy from an article..=)

2011-06-26T08:18:00.000-07:00

"我知道，如果我温柔，他就会感受不到辣；
如果我安静，他就会感受不到酸；
如果我风骚，他就感受不到甜；
如果我善良，他就感受不到苦。"

"你把我看的轻如鸿毛，就别指望自己还是我心中的泰山。"

2011-photos with CUTiES^^

2011-06-25T13:29:00.000-07:00

i guess i really like to take photos with "big moving cute things "haha~~^^

by 牛牛me~~o(∩_∩)o

wat kind of person he is??

2011-06-25T12:05:00.000-07:00

他是个怎样的人？？
他是个把我的心弄成满满是孔再离去的人！！
o(︶︿︶)o 唉。。。
在遇到他前。。。
我还记得。。。那时还在暗恋的第一个男生（地震）时。。
我那时好喜欢他（地震）哦。。。
真不明白。。
为什么。。
喜欢他两年。。表白失败。。决定死心要忘了他。。
我虽然每年都说要放了他（地震）。。。都过一两年了。。
可还是会想他。。还记的有次我喝的有点醉。。竟然打电话给好友诉哭。。
我那时还真的怕过会一直都放不了他（地震）。。。
还好。。我最后还是放了。。还遇见。。那个把我得心弄成满满是孔再离去的好男友！！
o(︶︿︶)o 唉。。。
我们曾经很恩爱哦。。。我好爱他。。他不忙的时候都会很疼我。。。
我们会吵架。。因为他好像很多东西要我改。。而且他每次很忙就会忽略我。。
我不会怨。。但会伤心会哭。。。他就觉得很无奈。。
我很在乎他。。。很爱他。。所以。。只要有一巴仙的可能。。觉得他不在乎我。。
我就会失控。。所以就会吵架。。。他从不在吵架时骂我。。。他只会盖电话。。
我就会哭得更凶。。。
哭是我每次跟他吵架必定会发生的事。。
慢慢的。。我越来越脆弱。。很容易哭。。。只要想很多。。就会。。。
没有安全感就会。。。但。。。他也说过。。我不是他心里的第一位。。
我只是比所有女生来得最重要。。。
他高兴时朋友都比我重要。。
我是知道的。。。
他跟我都清楚。。
我是爱他爱到赶都不会走。。
所以他不太担心失去我。。。
他讨厌跟我吵架。。。
是性格不合吗？
吵得多就会把爱也磨掉了。。。。
所以他说“我不想这样下去了”
就这样我们结束了。。就在我们两年半那天。。。
我那时也觉得自己爱傻了。。。为了得到他的注意。。。我会做很傻的事。。。其实。。这就已经是一个对我自己最好的提示了。。。我不能再这样下去了。。
所以。。。他跟我分手。。其实也是分对了。。
因为。。已经不对了。。。而且。。他要是等多几年才不要我。。。我还真怕我不懂我会做什么傻事哦。。。。
现在倒还好。。大概我也明白吧。。。所以就算我失控的求他。。也没有求过天让我跟他复合。。
大概我心里也明白。。。我跟他不能了。。不适合。。。
他曾经。。是我最认定的人。。。但时间。。种种考验证明了。。我和他不适合。。。
也许是我们不够爱。。不够坚定。。也可能。。。是。。要分手的终究是要结束。。。

还好。。。天崩地裂后。。
我终于平静。。快乐回了。。
可惜因为我太爱了。。。所以分手时。。双方都给对方带来不一样的伤害。。。
做不回朋友了。。也恭喜他。。找到他的爱了。。
我还是单身。。有点羡慕他。。。那么快。。
不过我也相信。。我也会遇到很棒的。。。只是。。现在就先。。好好的休息休息。。
充实好自己再去爱里拼搏。。。o(∩_∩)o 哈哈~~

by 牛牛me~^.^

哦~~

2011-06-25T11:00:00.000-07:00

突然觉得时间过的好快哦。。
转眼间。。
有不少事发生。。
我暗恋过一个男孩两年。。。
那时好喜欢他。。。好喜欢。。也喜欢好久哦。。
可惜他都不喜欢我。。。
过后。。。
我也恋爱两年半。。顺便失恋了。。。
怎么说呢。。两个我都好痛过。。
当然。。还是。。得到再失去比从未得到来的更更更痛。。。

两年又两年。。
我都二十了。。。
时间过得真快。。
想当初。。。第一次暗恋那个男孩。。我还十四岁。。。
两年后。。。我十六岁了。。。才勉强。。。放得下。。。
刚开始两年半的恋爱我才十七岁。。。
两年半后。。我二十岁了。。

时间过得真快。。。
两次。。。那两次我都是败给了双鱼座的他们。。。
明明不多双鱼的朋友。。
无奈。。。缘分还命运啊。。。
感叹。。。。。还真神奇。。
不懂下个会是什么星座。。什么样的人呢。。
应该不会再鱼鱼了吧。。。
会怕哦。。。。
。。。。
by 牛牛座的我=)

recently.-2011

2011-06-20T04:21:00.000-07:00

i havent write anythg here like forever.
i almost forgot about this blog.
haha...=D
is 2011...
i learn alot this year.
breaking up a two years and half relationship and have chicken pox ......
wat a special year..
i learn a lot..lost some...but gain back alot too...thank god about it.
i had go through a very special and crazy time...
but luckily...it had passed...and i am more stronger.
if tat didnt happen i will never realize that i can be so weak....
anyway i learn a lot....=)
going to have internship in this year end...
this semester is going to end too...
when it end..i will do a accounting firm part time job too...
is boring ...but this is life.=)
and for sure i will drive there...i will be driving to college and work...that is for sure...=)
i had taken 3 months to accept the truth, another three months to rest...(from the broke up thg)
now ...i am finally let go of myself and the past...
single now...
sometimes i feel weird...
haha....luckily not the same way i felt right after break up...
because...i am not sad anymore...luckily....
=) juz tat sometimes i still will miss the time that i had someone special....
but i doesnt wan to look for a bf juz because of that...
i cant...because i might regret....
i wan to find the right one...=) i will only be happy if i had find the right one =DD
so by then i will stay alone...single...
is nothing wrong with single ....=)..i will get used to it....
haha....i always get the feeling....after this year....=) i will be a better person =DD~~~
i truely believe that ^.^....
n...*having chicken pox now...scary..coz i doesnt knw it look so ugly...and wish that.."they" wont leave a mark on me when "they"("the chicken pox") leaves....
hughug=) i love myself alWAYs~~^.^

2010-11-12T17:47:00.000-08:00

BuBBLe sHoeS^^hahah~~so CuTE ar~~~~~~~

^^ my NailS~~but neeed to clear it dy loOO..>.<>

but i love it^^kekekke~~

2010-10-27T06:46:00.000-07:00

love is beautiful...
is good to start a new relationship...congrats my fren=)
but then worry tat...when time passes....d feel change........
...still luv ya...=)

2010-10-24T09:43:00.001-07:00

wat i used to do??

i dun knw ..

i wan a lot of thgs....i wan a shop ...a house...an island....clever brain( so i doesnt need to worry about my test....)

i m sorry to myself for being lazy....

i m sorry to myself for wasting d time to watch movie ,go fb or blogging instead of reading...studying my ma exam....which is on thursday.....

tat test cost my whole ma subject 30% ...my lecture decided to be kind to us...so he let us to have mid term test instead of assignment....and also change the two mid term test into one....

at 1st i tot it is a good idea n i feel happy and thankful to my dear lecturer....

but then ....

because i didnt giv full attention to my class....and i m wasting my time for somethg not so important and not studying.....so i think i might fail this subject...which is my second year subject....(means it is a very important subject)

i m such a stupid and weird person...

i feel so bad for wasting my time in the same time i m wasting my time to write this....

i wonder wat is wrong with me....

i so sad...i m sorry....

i used to think i m hardworking...and i did my thgs with as many affort as i can gav....

but now i dun think so....i think i m....

dun knw wat to think ....

feel like crying....

stupid gal...

i wan to get out of this box...which i cant...

i shud be find my way out of this box instead of waiting for some1 to pull me out...

i shud learn ....i shud find myself the best way to survive......

i wan to help myself...

i remember somethg on one of the movie...it says ...ppl tat used to start their writing with I ...usually....quite selfish...they care about themself then the others.....

mayb is true...tat i m a selfish gal...

wat m i writing??.....

good nite...and i m still lost and confuse....

somethg to share^^

2010-10-24T09:24:00.000-07:00

^^get myself a FUR laptop skin^^so happy~~~~~~~~~~~>.^

get a cake from the wondermilk for MUM's birthday^^

it is paid by my sis n me^^(sis pay90%i pay 10%)^^

but i do d order n collect part~~and also need to thanks my dear to fetch me to order and collect it^^[n also he make complains on fb for me la....>.<]

My birthday^^13/5/2010

2010-05-13T09:46:00.000-07:00

keke~~
today i reach sunway at 8am
then i go pass up my PTPTN form(finally GAO tim d^^)
about 10 am i onli gao tim all n go pyramid start my lovely birthday celebrate wif mh^^
1st we go buy movie tickets~
watch IP man2^^
he wanted to watch long time d~
finally got chances watch wif him^^
and then is shopping time ^^

WE eat donuts after d movies^^

we buy 3 of them with a hot green tea=)

and also chocolates tat he bought for me^^

b4 dinner we go shopping again^^

This time he bought me a dress^^

finally at 6: 30pm is our SHOGUN dinner^^

SO many thgs to eat^^

Nice and full^^

so happi happi=)

kekeke~~

Thankyou my dear^^ i have a wonderful birthday^^

A day^^

2010-05-09T10:04:00.000-07:00

some thgs happen today=)
some fine some not so great.
i finally get to knw d great feeling about driving alone^^
but then juz when i feel too good...i hit my neighbour's car.....
T.T
stupid right??
car going n going i didnt hit them i hit a car tat park there....
T.T
this happens when i stop infront of my house i try park in my lovely home...
then i didnt realize my neighbour's car has come out a bit ...mean stand a part of the road la....
then here goes...
i cant change anythg jor...when i realize...i try my best to turn fast fast...
but still hit d car's back a bit...coz a few crack la...few paints drop shud b fine...
i think...
but d lady damn fierce la...
come to my house n scold meT.T
scared scared leh...
haiz...end up crying there...
but i guess will b fine la ~coz d lady's husband say if is not veli mahal he fix himself o~~
hope so^^
i got a weird dream~~dream of my dear sis get marry hhaha~~
got her wedding photo~~haha damn funny~~
n my day is point less...do nthg but keep remembering d lady's fire talk to meT.T
haiz~~
wat a day~they keep telling me is a experience~~~~~ha ha .....
so i gain it~ HAIZ...T.T
hugs luv for frens tat still care about me~~
^^
peng you zhong shi hen duo...
dan, yue shi zhang da, gan qing jiu yue shu yuan...
hao lei o...
gan jue wo kuai bei tao tai le...
yin wei..wo hai ting liu zai na li...
wo hai yi wei wo men shi hen hao de peng you...
zhen yi wei..
cheng jing de peng you..
you duo shao hai hui zhen xin ji de ziji ne?
zui ba shuo de hao ting...xin shi fou ye yi yang?
mei yong de wo...
hai shi hen xiang nian cheng jing gen ni men de you hao...
xiang xiang jiu hao...
ye xui zhi shi wo yi xiang qing yuan...

2010-04-28T10:07:00.001-07:00

DEAR BLOG...
life sometimes really SUCKS...
my recent life really tired n sienz...
i dun knw wat is MCCG..i dun knw thgs about FBM-KLCI or GNP...
but i need to write thgs about them...(but now or later i will knw la..)
so tired...sometimes i really lost..i dun knw wat i m doing...y m i doing...
which way to do better...which is not...
all i knw is...today do thgs about tomorrow...
all i knw is wat happens now n tomorrow...
sometimes i doesnt even knw wat happen next min...
i think my brain stop working alredi la..
haha..stupid...
my dear bf give me quite alot of opinion lately...about how i act...
is shud b good thg la..
coz i always asking him about how i look which 1 nicer....
but then i feel sad....
mayb becoz he say it out while i didnt ask about anythg...
is like...suddenly i got so many "shortcoming"?
i started to wonder....y do we care about wat other ppl think?
WHO CARES? is not like they care WAT U THINK...
sucks...
my birthday is coming soon...(few frens of mine's birthday coming soon too...last yr celebrate together...this yrs nt anymore..wish them happy birthday too^^)
i shud b really happy~i always did...i m a very naive n hav a very short term thinking gal ...(sometimes)
i hav to admit it tat i love it this way...
i like avoid bad thgs....
becoz...i could pretend the world of mine is still simple n lovely n colourful^^
(but then i knw i shudnt....)
i got several assignment....test...tutorial questions....blablabla...
so many many thgs to...
suddenly.... having fun become a sin...
y har?i also havent reach 19 yet...
it gets more n more harder...
frens...
ppl change...u do i do too
we change to get better we change to move on to get use to the new environment...
bt still i miss all d memory i spent wif u all...mayb we r not calling or msging each other...but then i always run though those memory in my head...
so pls dun regret tat we used to close fren...really close like seeing each other everyday^^
pls dun regret being shin hui's fren~ =)
mayb becoz i got a bf so i cant make new frens or old frens doesnt feel comfortable b wif me anymore...
i actually feel sad...really sad...is like i lost them...lost d frenship...
y do i always need to pick one?
but then i will overcome it...becoz tat is my choice...
until today i still feel warm stay wif him...
i still feel is ok to deal wif so many difficult n (half get half dun get)de stuff...
he is important to me...he makes my life a little bit better^^
The whole point of writing this blog is no point=)

2010-01-30T18:58:00.000-08:00

god....so fan o...
T.Twan make a birthday celebration for my bf...need to worry so many thgs...
especially i not sure myself can go ornt...
T.T
i not sure who got go who didnt...
i feel like so shi bai...
worry worry ar....
T.T
very little fren go mh will b really sad coz let him knw jor i ask many ppl...
if too many ppl go i also takut i cant get so big d room...
still worry tat how much it will cost...
i worry about the cake shop....
what cakes...how much it will cost...
T.T
worry ar!!

26/1 Australia day

2010-01-26T21:56:00.000-08:00

today is australia day.
sis didnt work.
we visit sis housemate's Univercity.
ECU univercity.
is quite nice~
yesterday she work...
24/1,father birthday.
=)
tat day is sunday.
sis didnt work she take me to another area name fremantle.
nice city.
take us almost an hour to reach there.
used more time than usual coz tat day train dun knw y stop work.
we hav to take the bus to get there~
the way we go we hav to stand whole hour,
thank god when we bac we get to sit^^
i buy some cups n key chain at there for my dear frens..
n a small thg 4 my dear bf.^.^
i miss him so much...
i wonder y...
everyday while i take the bus go to the city alone,shop alone,get back wif bus n feet alone..
the most thg i tot is him...
i wonder y..
y i can miss him so much...
here every thg is really nice....
but then still i will think of him...
miss him...
if one day no his msg or mail..i cant b happy...it feels like heart missing somethg....
miss u everyday...
frens ar frens...i miss the day we hav class together also..
i miss tat feel..
i feel happy...
i feel tat been surround by love.
i hope u all hav nice life now...
i mayb juz a passer-by in u all's life....but then i m a frenly passer-by ^^

in this few weeks i went to different place again~~
i shop at ikea shop~
went to sis housemate graduation ceremony ~
n shop alone in the city again^^
i really familiar wif the city alredy~
hav really many fun spent time alone in the city.

15/1 Today ^^

2010-01-15T01:30:00.000-08:00

today my sis work ~~
i walk alone at the street of the city~
when almost afternoon~i sit at one cafe n read my books n also take photo of other ppl on the street~~
^^
photo below~

waiting at the bus stop^^

my books~spec~n also the chocolate~

flower next to me~they are beautiful^^

my hot chocolate wif marshmallow

another and another week^^

2010-01-14T03:17:00.000-08:00

i stay at aus for 2 weeks more jor~~
most of the time my sis work so i will go outside walk walk alone~~
i got take some photo while i walk alone~~
^^
sis got bring me to a lake call swan lake~
there is really many black swan ~~
really nice view~~
sometimes my sis housemate bring frens along~
so we go out together or eat dinner~~
^^
Photo below~~

take it while i waiting for the bus home^^

street view~

kind of stupid pose~~haha

swan~~

sit there actually quite scary~~haha~~but it has very nice view~

walk wif the duck~

take wif sis

have dinner at home~~

family photo at the swan lake

we take photo at seaside ~~nice view ~~many stars at the sky~~

another week in aus

2010-01-14T02:41:00.000-08:00

i m stay at aus been 2 weeks more alredi^^
i spent my 1st day of 2010 wif my sis n her housemate n housemate fren at the scarborough beach~~
It is really fun ~
i m didnt go any near the beach for almost 2 years~
so is really great n happy for me^^
the beach is fun but tat day is hot n we take different bus n train to get there~~
coz it is not very near ~
it take us about 40mins to get to the beach~
even the weather is hot but then when we reach there~
there not hot at all is cool~~~coz there is very strong wind~~
so glad i come here at the summer if i come here during winter there is no way i can feel the good of scarborough beach^^
there r many ppls at the beach~
familys~hot gals~~gay couples~~
we even saw a gal lay at the beach without her bikini top~~
^^
play some water there~~volley ball~~
then we wait till night~
so tat we can take pic wif the sunset~~
^^
haha~~
funny thg at aus~even the day is so hot when night arrive it still will b quite cold
i guess mayb is the wind~
anyway~tat day is fun~~

Photo at below^^

family photo~

play water wif sis fren^^

in the bus wif sis housemate n their fren^^

while i m in the train loooking at the sea^^

sis take my photo while i walking at the train station.

eat breakfast wif them be4 go to the beach^^

1st week in aus^^

2009-12-28T21:38:00.000-08:00

oh my god...T.T
big error....whole blog missing...
so i rewrite again...^.^
i arrive a day after christmas~~but there is still having christmas sales..
branded stuff all become really cheap^^my sis having holiday also ^^
she take me to all the street n bought really a lot of stuff^^
so happi~~there is quite among of asian lives here besides than logal australian...
here is 30 to 40 degrees~~feel better when there is wind~
the street here is really quiet ~
not many cars on the street n ppl dun yell n scream ~~
n i didnt c any one grap ppl's bag...
is quite lovely here^^
my sis housemate all great cookers~~especially the male~~
all my sis housemate is from china but my sis bf is from hk^^
there is 1 thg still i cant really accept~~>.<
tat is drinking the tap water~~
the tap water here is really clean so ppl all drink tap water~~
but i really ccant tahan the smell even it had been cook....>.<
my sis bought me 6 big bottles of water from the market..
hope next next week i can get used of it^.^
my sis dog is really lovely~~
teddy is really cute~~
on the 1st day we even bring teddy to go out walk walk~~
some photo below..^^

lunch made by sis housemate~~nice~~^_^

TeddY^.^

sis^^

stuff bought from christmas sales>.^

street performance~

angel on the street~

recent life

2009-11-04T18:38:00.000-08:00

i gt a really terrible illness...
i vomit n ciritbrit all day..
it all start from monday's 6"30pm's chicken rice...few hours then d whole thg started...
i start to vomit n run in n out the toilet from 9pm to 11:30pm i cant tahan i go c doctor..
i get a injection to stop vomit....but then juz when i get home after eat d med...i straight away vomit again......
vomit ...toilet....untill 4pm...
finally can sleep....
u knw i almost kill myself so tat i can stop this...is really shen fu ar.....
but tat time i really tired jor...
but i still wan to go school...i knew i m stupid but i already plan jor...i wan meet my bf...
so i force myself...
but b4 our date end at 3pm i fell sick again....
i go home but my dad come n fetch me at 4:45pm...
i cant tahan...
i vomit outside his car window...
ohgod....
i vomit whever i eat d whole day...i still can c clearly wat i vomit....
i go c doc again....more medi....some vomit at home...
next day was eng test....still sick....go home early....
today feel better=)
hope i will totally recover.
*i really happy u still remember me at tioman....^.^*
pls:i didnt wan to b jealous ..
hope is juz i tot to much~

Lost

2009-10-10T03:26:00.000-07:00

i m so so so lost...
wat is happening??
i nvr feel this
i feel so far away from him
i used to knw everythg about him
becoz i m connected wif him
i didnt mind if he miss report anythg tat happens on him to me
bt i still feel sad tat
there is many thgs tat every1 knw bt nt me
i feel like he dun trust me tat much anymore
...bt mayb i also nt tat trust him too...
i m crying...
so sad...
i knw u r busy on work...
every msg u gav me
u giv this kind of feels
u let me knw tat u r nt happi u r sad...
bt i still can c ur bright happi smile on ur face when u r wid ur fren...
mayb u r right...mayb tat kind of smile doesnt means tat u r really happi...
bt yet...
4 now
is nt really tat often to c u smile like this when u r wif me
wat is happening??
T.T
i used to b the onli gal tat is really connect wif u
u r nt shy bt u r juz
dun really a very socialize ppl
bt then
now i saw many gals around u
u didnt giv me enuf "an quan gan"
u even make me comfused tat m i ur gf??
i really hard to feel anythg
since u dun like to share ur thgs wif me
i used to tell u everythg
when u dun mind listening
bt then u tell me tat u r nt so happi coz
everythg i tell u is sad
i m so lost
i treat u as my best fren my love 1...the important 1..
bt wat m i to u ?
some1 tat u will miss if i leave bt is ok when life without me
i m no longer d onli d one d gal 4 u ...m i ?
i m no longer d one tat make u feel safe right?
i m juz a gal who keep complain
n u feel like when u r in a happi mood to reach me....i shud appreciate it
coz u r busy...n if i giv any no good faces to u
u will annoying n feel like go away since i dun appreciate it right?
tired to say thgs make me smile ....
becoz u r tired n i m a big gal i shud suit myself in this kind of situation right??
y u nvr tot about my feelings?
is been a long while time...u didnt spent ur time wif me
u go out hav lunch wif ur frens when u r free
bt u dun hav time 4 me
becoz going out wif me u need to c ur timetable
u need to c whether u fren ask u out
whether u nid to do thgs
bt u nvr tot about me
how long u been talking to me in one day??
is tat it??
u r busy??bt u still hav ur time to eat at d shopping mall???
y??becoz ur fren wan??
ur fren make u upset then y u make it sound like is was my fault
??
i m so lost...
i wan to leave n stay wif my sis
bt u r d onli reason tat is holding me bac
bt then this how u pay me bac
T.Tall i m asking is
pls stop gt mad tat easy...pls take a litle bit to c to knw wat is happening to me my life
if ur fren is important...then pls try...try think tat i m ur fren too...juz a gal fren....doesnt mean i will wait u to call me to find me when u r free...u r nt my boss...i cant b always waiting...
there will b the end
i dun knw when bt there will
~~~huihui~~~

:)

2009-09-14T09:36:00.000-07:00

doesnt wan to guess...i tired to guess anymore...
wats wrong wif me??
T.T
bully me...
i f i can leave u...
c how u still can bully me...
i hate to cry becoz of u ...
knw d word "zhen xi"??
cherish...
do u knw??
am i even important to u??
or mayb nt...when u r busy wif u r world ur own thgs..
no matter wat...
if u r interested in it means i will the 2nd again...
i m sad...i guess u knw...
bt y?
becoz u hav more important thgs to do??
so i hav to forgive n understand even u didnt find me 4 whole day??
T.T
yes...i hav to ...becoz i cant let go..
i cant leave u ..at least 4 now..
i cant....
dearest....
i miss d old time we spent together....
when u r in holiday...
i knw how much u care about me n love me...
bt now...i m comfuse....
becoz...
i hav to worry...in the next min will u might juz say oops...i m busy n i dun hav time to say how mucch i love u...i dun hav time to report everythg to u...i m so tired...i hav so many thgs to do... please go away ...i wan 2 rest......
i gone crazy tat day u say brkup to me....
i m too upset...i cant even remember wat d H. i tell u on d phone wif all my tears in my face....
..............
nt important anymore...
d thgs is..
i wan i try to escape from d love i giv u...
is hard...
is too hard....
or shud i say...actually i doesnt want to leave..............
please...
do some change 4 me....be4 we really end...n be4 my heart broke again...
please remember....u r tired...i am too.....
please dun make me cry anymore...........
........................
tell me.....wat can i do??

love really is blind

2009-09-12T07:40:00.000-07:00

zhong jiu hai shi fang bu xia ta...
zhen jui de zi ji hen fan jian...
T.T
mei yong de...
xian zai zhi hao xi wang bu hui zai you shen mou da feng lang...
wo zhi xi wang...ru guo ke yi...fen shou shi liang ge ren gan qing leng le cai fen...
zui hao bu yao shi bu hao de....
wu yan yi dui...
zhi neng shuo wo hai shi hen ai ta..
:)

is another day^.^

2009-07-16T09:54:00.000-07:00

i dun always write blog...i juz dun hav d habit^^
bt today i blog again^^
erm...
i m always a cry baby since primary school...
cry might nt even help a little bit...
bt it always make me feel better...
bt lately
i keep losing control..
mayb inside gt somethg rosak jor~~haha
dun knw how to control~
bt d thg is...
feel "stupid"about...." how can i cry twice in college??"
shame shame ~~T___T
bt i juz cant control...
i knew..
i always knew...
every1 gt their hard time...
their problem..pressure....
i knw wat i facing is small...
^.^
bt 4 me is hard a little bit...
i knw i gt d problem think too much loong ago lo~
juz tat i cant help to think too much...
i hav try bt like i say rosak jor cant control
n doesnt knw how to ...
which part is too much??@.@
haha i dun knw too~~
how to change...
i keep tot of my lonely form2 recently...
so sad...
i dun knw y...
i wonder is becoz same bad result i nevr had??
or same dun knw to suit d new place class??
cant catch up??
cant get wat ppl r talk ing about?
feels like i m alone when i m in d class while doing project??coz ppl r talking n...no 1 take notice of me??
feels like wat ever i say is pointless??
wat is going on wif me??
wat makes me so down so sad??
haha....
this is nt maths...negative positive cant help...
is nth to do wif it..
i juz need time to gt over it..

when i was in form2...
i told myself...nver ever let myself into d same situation again...
always been left out...coz no 1 wan to b in 1 group wif me...giving a stupid excuse about wan me to b independent to find own groupmate...
i hate pretending to b sleep during free time...coz i doesnt want to look like too alone while ppl r talking..
hide at my fren's class...while break...
hate to go to school..
feel tired about knwing ppl r talking about u behind..
even gt a website talk about how terrible u r...

tat time i nver knw tat ppl hate me tat much untill i visit tat website...
ha...
haiz.

tat time was really hard 4 me...
i even gt d worst result in my whole secondary school life..
well... my result might nt good bt wasnt tat bad..
tat time...
my sister 4 d 1st time...throwing my books out d house...
becoz of too angry...
feels like i hav been betray by every1 n thgs...

is a bad bad experience..
tat time i learn...
i keep changing...
thanks 2 my best fren..
they didnt left me n still giv me advice
^^i gt frens many frens after form2...

i m sorri i m sensitive all d time...
bt at least i tot i hav a good heart^^
i learn to find out more about d person while being frens wif them..
nt juz about telling them about u^^
care n love ur fren is d key~
tats y later i gt my frens

my result is moving too~^^
mayb nt veri much bt still moving^^
improve a little by alittle^^

so sometimes...
about other ppl...
even my bf..
i m a bit tired to guess..
if they cant change..i m always ready to change...
is fair enuf^^
juz wan to make thgs easier^^
sometimes listen is good
leaving me alone is also good^^
hahahahahhaha
there's always 2 side...

jump leave....flower....tears...sunshine^^
jump^^rabbit jump hahahah

to my frens..

2009-07-14T05:31:00.000-07:00

frens..
i m sorry tat i cant help u all...
i hav been try to think in u all d situation...
i hav try to understand...
tats y i keep say i used to feel d same thg...
bt i think u all juz think tat i m happy wif bf n still say tat i m nt happi...
bt i all i m been doing was juz try to be wif u all...
tats all i can do....
to understand... i tot d best way was to be like u all...
i m really sorry tat watever i do or say cant help u all...
bt i really care 4 u all...
i really sad 4 u all...
4 me...i always think tat u all r d best...
i m hav simple brain...
juz i like to think too much....
i love my fren n...i care...
i always hope tat u all r happi...

watever u all think ...
juz hope u all happi....
bt
sometimes i wasnt as happi as u all tot...
bf n family was d onli thg stable 4 me...
i also gt thgs to sad 4..
juz i gt no way to say it out...
In some way u all r happier than me...
in some way i dun hav thgs tat u all hav...
sometimes...
i do feel sad too...
bt
i also dun knw wat to say....
take care....
watever i say...juz dun bother..if u think is nt happi to hear ..
juz pretend u didnt hear...
sorri....

sometimes...when i hear tat u all say i always meet him...
wouldnt hav any problem...
makes me sad....
i m sorri if watever i do hurts u all' s feelings i m sorry...
bt
i do hav my sad moment n time n part too...juz tat
wasnt same wif u all...
wasnt been in d same situation cant feel...
juz....
i m sorri...
...
n when i hav my hard time...
u cant c cant feel...
juz becoz i always been like somethg wrong person...doesnt means my sadness wasnt as sad as d others....
doesnt means....i m nt as sad as urs...
this whole time i hav juz try to think in u all d situation ...
mayb is d wrong way...
if u all dun like i wouldnt say it...
all i been juz trying to do is keep u all wouldnt nt happi...
n i hav to say tat...
i really to care wat su ann say n feel...
sometimes..i dun dare to talk wif u coz i really afraid wat i say makes u more sad...
i cant stand when ppl sad next to me...
i will always try to make them feel better coz i will feel like is my fault....
bt i think i cant make u feel better so..
i always think mingming makes u feel better...
so when ming wif u i always dun wan kacau...
juz take care...
i might be juz think too much bt i do care...
i care about janice also...
mayb sometimes wat i say cant help u...
or i dun gt how isit...
bt all i hope is u will b happi n
wont gt hurt again....
i m sorri...
i hope tat times can help u feel better...
take care^.^

time passes....

2009-06-05T10:50:00.000-07:00

this blog... use to be onli 4 my 3 little frens^___^n one special frens...

bt now... because of some resons...i open it 4 d public... ^___^

my life have quite lot of changes.... some good ... some bad...

bt... like my sis say.... even how isit...hav 2 accept it...

one more reason...

y i didnt always write blog...

coz d moment i 2 wan write blog...

is always when i m so down... no one 2 tell.....

college life...is nt bad....

for old friends~~

i knw soome cute frens~~

their are~suann siewming shu hiong hoeyan heyherng janice(onli chonghwa fren)n ah sum ~~

haha~~ onli 1 guy in us~~

bt a nice guy~~ i learn alot from them....

hhehe some is banana~~(some is coconut)hahaa~~

no la...

juz kidding

bt they are really nice n smart...frenly~

always help me...

always~~

eat together~~

at least hav them life in college wont b so hard~

wont b so lonenly~~

bt i never 4gt our funny life wif u all d~~

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

to new frens~~ ^^

my coconut n balala~~

haha u knw how fun to b wif u all~~

haha~~ sometimes~~u all are childish like me~~

is really happi coz there is no 1 like u all so fun...

n play wif me...

usually...they c i play..

haha ^__^

different~ bt hor~~

really thankyou 4 teaching me so many thgs

n d birthday~~

muacks^^happi to knw u all~~

hahahahahah~~balalalala~~

友情=美丽的水晶球

2009-06-05T09:36:00.000-07:00

友情。。就像美丽的水晶球一样。
其实我觉得所有感情都像^___^
。。。。
美丽也易碎。。
有重量。。就像所有的感情那样。。。
感情越是深厚。。。球就越大。。。就越沉重。。。
但是同时水晶球就会更大更美丽。。。

有些人不想拿起那么重的水晶球。。。就无法拥有固定却也沉重的深厚感情。。。
有些人同时拥有太多水晶球了。。。总会不小心打碎一两个。。。

感情像水晶球那样。。。
有些会很清亮很透明很美丽~~
有些蒙蒙的。。。也很美。。。
做朋友做情人亲人。。。
清楚却也不清不楚。。
越是了解越是不理解。。。

有人说过。。。
人总是以自己的方式去解读别人。。。。所以到最后你也无法了解到别人。。。
很有意思的对白。。。^____^

有人说水晶球能预测未来~
那么。。。看你拿的是什么球。。。就像看你跟什么人待一起会有怎样的结果一样。。。
一切都很难说。。。水晶球准不准也要看你怎样看待它。。。
感情也一样。。。。

我是个很爱水晶球的人。。
总是会不小心撞到我的水晶球。。。
但我无法因此而买过新的。。。
我总会搽一搽就继续。。。

因为每个球都是独一无二的。。。有着不同的背景故事。。。。
所以只能不停的收不能丢。。。（除了坏蛋以外）哈>.^
~~~~huihui~~~muacks~~love all my frens n family..^^

4/3。。。乱乱打一篇。。。

2009-03-04T05:41:00.000-08:00

走过的路。。做过的选择后不后悔？又能不能后悔？？
选择。。有错吗？？

对我而言。。最重要的是相信自己。。

依赖。。哈。。多可悲啊。。

拥有失去。。谁来判断事悲或喜。。
拥有了痛苦失去了幸福。。那。。拥有还是喜吗？

伤心。。。我们为什么会伤心呢？？
又为什么要伤心呢？
大概我们都没有要不要选择伤心的权力。。。

眼泪。。流过。。。哭过了又怎样？？
难过又如何。？？

学会麻木及习惯。。。
一切就会变得无所谓没关系。。。就算无奈难过。。。也没办法。。

但。。。
拥有难过后。。。
乐观却能让世界变快乐些。。。

因为只是人类无法改变最现实的事实。。。
所以。。。。善待自己与周遭的人。。。却能让感觉好些。。。
只。。不是所有人能办到的。。。

最后大概学会骗自己。。。
因为比乐观更容易。。。

自私无知。。的我。。。
正在难过。。。
可悲的我。。。
无力与难过抗战。。。
选择了守。。

有没有不开心。。。
不太会分。。。
也不知道。。有或没有又怎样。。
我像是迷路了。。。
正在找出口。。。

有光就一定生机之门吗？

不要想太多。。。
东西就不存在吗？？

还是只。。用来叫人类。。逃避。。避免面对一些我们解决不到的事？？

我。。明明无知。。。为什么。。却又会想那么多呢？？
不想那么多。。会简单点吗？？

会想那么多。。。是不是因为不安啊？？
为什么不安？？
没有安全感吗？？

庆幸的是。。
就算有遗憾。。。
我也还是向前进。。
因为。。。
现实教会我。。。
时间真的不会为任何人停留。。（就我知的。。并没有。。见过）
所以在解决这个问题前。。。
要确保不会有另件麻烦出现。。。

慧。。**\(~^______^~)/**
comecome~~
let me giv u all a big hug~~(n___n)~

how r u??

2009-03-03T07:40:00.000-08:00

...
ming hui is coming bac next wednesday...
so sad...
he feel tired..
i also feel tired..
i wait so long time..
is this de result??break up??
......
dun knw wat 2 say
sad..
dun wan argue wif u ..
i so tired aredi...
u never understand ...wat is de point to talk wif u ...
bt ...i cant ...i dun wan break up...i cant ...
cant do it...
i dun wan 2 leave u..
i still love u..
bt y??
u make me so sad...
y??
isit becoz 2 long time in ns??
makes u become like this...
nth 2 talk wif me..
i so sick of cry 4 u so many nites...
sick...
i m really tired alredi...
hw can u say i dun knw becoz i never hav time 2 think so far be4 when i ask u did u afraid of losing me???
tat really break my heart....
do u still care bout me??
do u still wan b wif me??
every1 should stop say tat nevermind la..he is coming bac coz everythg will b fine...
u all cant gt it...
never can...
is nth 2 do wif tat...
i didnt accually argue wif u...
u juz listen..n keep telling me dunlike tat la...dun think so much la...
did u ??did u really listen 2 wat i say besides of juz thinking i m juz nt happi 4 little thgs??
so so so long time...
i dun knw wat 2 do any more...
all i can do is wait...
i always wait 4 u...
juz like be4 u say nt sure like me ornt...i wait 4 u...
untill someday u say together..then i b wif u...
n now...i cant open my mouth n say break...
if u ...really dun hav de passion wif me anymore...
juz say it..n leave...
................................

some photo n somethg 2 tell u all~

2009-03-01T06:08:00.000-08:00

this is recently pic i take bt i didnt put at facebook or frenster~~

dun really dare~~

juz put here let u all cc~~

bt hor~~

i go 2 college also didnt put make up la~~

juz wan giv mh surprise~so recently i learn jor~~

n i take some pic~~

qianqian~~n munmun ar~~

takecare o~~

i cant really help u all~~

mayb sometimes i can listen u all bt i also cant always help u 2~~

coz different jor~~

so muz take care o~~

luv u all~~

~~~huihui~~~

life

2009-02-19T08:39:00.000-08:00

....really wan knw hw i feel bout my new college life??
right..
is boring...tired..n hard...
mayb u can say is fun...coz is different from chghwa...
bt i m tired..
lonely..
i nv ask n hope all my best fren 2 understand hw is my life...
tat's y i didnt ask n find u all..
becoz i knw every1 hav their own life...hard or anythg..
we r facing different kind of thgs...
hw can i tell u all??hw can u all understand??
all i wish is some time...
i need time...
when i totally feel tat i can suit in it...i will find u all...
in college...i m nt sure hw gud isit ...
all i knw is....untill nw i cant find any real or true fren...
well we r frens...
talking bout stuff....if i say i dun hav frens is a lie...
coz if i dun hav any...i more cham....
living in a new world 2 urself without frens...
is hardly 2 survive...
bt they dun knw my thgs...
i dun knw them...
everyday need 2 find out some...
of their thgs...
so we can hav topics...
bt i m pretty sure...when come 2 u need some1 to talk 2...
is hard...
they dun knw anythg...
i hate 2 start over again n again like a story teller...
sometimes...better dun say...
so i keep my own story 2 myself...
i didnt take pic...didnt hav any self pic anymore recently....
u knw wat i m so bz about??
is nt juz bout de work...
is bout in de time when i m tired 2 help myself fit in de college life...in de same time...i m tiring
2 make myself feel better...by nt touching any thgs bout my past...
my chonghwa life...
i dun wan 2 compare bout now n chghwa...
i alredi feel tired n lonely..i dun wan 2 feel sad...
tire nt 2 touch it i will feel nth....
u knw wat i hav nw??
nth...
is nt tat college life is tat tough n hard..
is tat i dun hav any my best fren wif me..
my sister MH...
they all nt wif me in this time..
de time i try 2 suit in...
tat's y i told myself many times...tat...there is no happi or nt happi...
is nth 2 do wif it..
coz it can help 2 change..
i still hav 2 face it....
is life..
this is life...
can u image hw m i nw??
everyday...face 2 de enviroment which was nt de 1 tat u stay for 5 years...
is a new 1...
everyday u hav 2 tell urself...this is it...ur school...
n u will feel like everyday u will knw somethg new bout de school or ur fren...
u knw wat??
there is no long classmates...
so ur fren u will nt always c them..
well...those r juz new bout de college...
n my problem is...i m still trying 2 fit it...
everyday i gt thgs 2 tell...
who i should go n tell ???
should i call every1 n talk 2 them about de whole story???
i m alredi verry verry tired...
is enuf 4 me...
i dun wan 2 b nt fair 2 any of my frens...
so i choose nt 2 tell any1 ...
juz my MH was in ns...
he was alone 2...
i was like his only listener....
coz same reason...
his fren hav their own life 2...
n his family...
he can use a phone three times 1 week...
so those few hours...we can chat bt cant c...
during new year...i hav him n my sister...
after tat...
i m alone again...
u cant understand hw is feel...
aspecially 4 some1 like me ....
i like 2 talk ....i like 2 tell everythg...when i m nt happi...
bt nw....i could only talk 2 my father who fetch me everyday...
bt he doesnt like 2 talk bout my little school thg....
is nt important 2 him...
so most of de time ...he juz listen...sometimes...i wondering...did he listen also....
sister....damn far...juz dun wan waste her money 4 my little thg...
MH....i cant find him....
acually...
i m kind of cant catch up wif my work...
i m weak...i m nt so good on it..
i score low marks....
i m scare...
i cant understand...bt i dun knw who i can ask 4 help...
i cant even tell my parents...
i m damn tired...
some times..
i think janice is much more luckly than me...
she gt her fren li wen same college wif her...n her brother's fren...her boy sometimes come n find her...her parents wont hav any pressure wif her...her work is good 2....
i gt nth....
tat is y i feel like i m much much more ugly nw than be4...
coz i hav nth...no frens surpport...no frens or family understand...
i score low marks...helpless...
can u image??
will u think tat is colourful...is nice...is happi ?
will u think tat ur life will harder than me nw??
well....ofcoz...is juz 4 de start...
i knw tat ...we all knw tat....
tat's y i say i need time....
i really nt tat mood 2 go out....
i m guilty....i shouldnt hav fun nw....
at least u all r still familiar wif de area...u still gt familys or frens 2 surpport or help...
bt i nv wan 2 compare anythg...u all gt ur hard part...i gt mine...
tat's y i didnt find u all...
i m sorry...
if u 2 c....tell peiyeen 2..i wasnt forgeting her...
i luv u all...i miss those everyday can c u all...can talk gossip...nv feel boring...
at least when i m down...when my work is bad i knw i can find who....
nw...i trying 2 built my own new base again...
i hope when i c u all tat time i m alredi finish built my base...
then i can still talk n hav real fun wif u all...
coz...nw...all my happi i nt sure hw many percent is true..
(coz if u wan fren u need 2 b always happi then they onli will like u....they dun knw nth about u ...they will nt understand if u giv them sad face..)
take care my fren...
i hope i can go 2 chonghwa at march de 13^^
hope tat time i will feel better alredi...
i luv u all...
~~~huihui~~~~

hey frens

2009-02-08T23:29:00.000-08:00

look~my deardear fren..
i nv forget u all...
bt i still need time 2 gt use on wat i m nw..
bt i still love u all..
i change my msn title...
if u all didnt c..
i hope u all will c my blog..
if nt then i hope u all c my frenster or facebook..
anyway i will try my best...
tell u all this..
i miss i love every moment spenting wif u all...
bt juz nt de time yet 4 me 2 gathering...
i m nt growth enuf...
when u meet me...
i m pretty sure it will still de same me...
wif nt much change...
i hope tat time will juz make urs be more growth bt nt breaking our frenship..
hey gals~
take good care of urself ...
hope tat when next time we meet~
we can show each other wat we had learn from our different life stye...
n we can teach each other somethg new..
i always love u all^.^~
~~~~huihui~~~

is nt an end..is a start..

2008-12-01T07:25:00.000-08:00

juz 1 day more de spm is over...
bt 4 me ...is was juz a start...
n ...
i juz onli can feel like my timetable is full...
many thgs i should n hav 2...
this time...i didnt tired...n feel nth...
is juz ...i m scare i make any decision wrong...n brings big bad effect...
bt i still feel so calm..
i gt go so many place...do so many thgs..
new life stye??
ha..ha..
wat so good??or wat so nt good??
i didnt feel anythg...
some1 say...spm wasnt tat important ....
i juz can onli say..
mayb in ur life...ur tot...
or juz at ur moment...
bt nt every1..
i didnt say tat spm means everthg...
bt is a step...
so we need try our best do well on it...
tat's wat we hav 2 is nth 2 do wif de "important ornt"
de next step is wat?
i juz knw wat i should ..bt everythg is hold..
coz i m nt finish yet..
i gt 2 finish thgs 1 by 1..
after it there is no more easy way
is juz a way...
i m didnt feel tired becoz this is wat i wan...
i wan settle all my thgs..be4 i wan gt some break..
bt 1 thg i m sure
after de day we leave...nth will b same
is like ...we gt 2 hav a new view on looking thgs
bt i still tot tat dun hav 2 feel sad on it...
leaving de school doesnt mean anythg..
is like...erm..
i dun knw...
i remember de day i leave my primary school...
every1 was crying...i tried 2 cry...bt i feel nth ...
wasnt tat i m nt like my school or wat ...
is same wif now de situation..
i juz tot tat...
this is really nth 2 sad 4..
haha...
coz..
leaving is juz a step ...
step of life...
is nt moment 2 sad...is moment 2 tot about ur next step...
becoz i always tot tat is was nt end..
i juz finish this 1 then we go on 4 another..
we still will meet even ppl go 2 oversea...
we still live in de same world
juz missing each other is de natural thg..
in my tot...
promises...is de hard part...
actually...
is hard...
sometimes...
we r juz 2 stubborn...
on somethg we tot...
i make promises on tat moment...
i juz tot at tat moment...
no 1 knws on de future.... ....blabla..all thgs...i write...mayb is juz i tot 2 much...so..
juz remember 2 love urself more...
n ur family ofcoz~~^^
takecare

3 month n more...

2008-11-05T04:57:00.000-08:00

being wif i m so happi^.^
is wat i always dream of~
i feel settle down...
is like i m home...
trust n u treat me so nice n i was nice 2 u 2~~
n both of us gt de result wif improve~
means de blog be4 it~
i say de thgs no need 2 do~
i m happi really glad~
thanks~
n who knws ...
how r we can go juz nw we r good n n happi is enough mayb...
~~huihui~~

ME...

2008-09-25T06:46:00.000-07:00

spm trial..
study..
i m kept asking myself...
wat is wrong wif me??
shouldnt i b focus on my study??
....
muz hav somethg wrong....
...
over..is 2 over..
should stop de 2 over de"敏感"...
够了真的够了。。
越不想讲越在乎。。
避他因为怕自己心软。。

那天看了套戏。。。
女孩两次考不上大学。。于是她决定辞了兼职搬到很郊外的地方靠近的学校再努力要考上大学。。
同时她决定要跟她男朋友分手。。
因为。。。
她说。。
当男孩没找她时她不能一直坐着想他到底在做什么跟谁一起。。。
不能一直情绪不稳定。。
一下开心一下伤心一下又担心或生气。。。
这样她很难读书很难专心。。。
所以才决定搬到很远的地方。。。避免跟他见。。
不带电话不让自己跟他联络。。。
一年后考进大学才再谈。。

为了让她男朋友死心。。
她决定。。。
跟男朋友玩一个与缘份游戏。。

他们认识时。。
女孩是为了帮男孩捡起他掉的信件而把新鞋弄脏。。
于是男孩买回同款鞋给她。。
男孩买的是名牌。。
可女孩穿的其实是冒牌。。
于是女孩决定还給他。。
男孩不要。。
女孩决定包男孩三餐来还回他把多出的钱。。
因为她拿不出那么多钱。。

于是。。。
他门的故事慢慢发展了。。。
他们的开始似乎是这双鞋牵的红线。。

于是女孩对男孩说明天六点她将把东西搬进要搬的朋友家。。
女孩说如果明天六点前如果能买回她那时穿的冒牌鞋。。
她就不分手。。。

于是男孩拼了命去完所有找到的鞋店。。
可都买不到鞋子。。

买不到鞋子。。
当然就是分手咯。。。

女孩上了车。。。
男孩很伤心的在后头看着她走。。
女孩也在车里哭。。。
。。。。。
原来。。。
一向很省的她。。
为了不让他买到这款鞋子。。
去到所有会有这款鞋子的店并把所有这款鞋子全都买下了。。
一切就为了让他买不到鞋子。。
为了让他死心。。。

讲了一大堆。。。
其实就是在想。。。
这女孩做的好撤底哦。。。
就因为她觉得。。
已经两次考不上了。。。
时间也不会多。。。
她必须专心读书考上大学。。
不能让辛苦养大她的唯一哥哥难过。。
至于男孩。。。
她知道一年后男孩不一定还是属于她的了。。
只是她觉得。。。爱情跟前途。。前途更重要。。
而且真的有缘份的话。。。
那怕多久。。还是会在一起的。。。

现实中。。。
我们做的到吗？其实。。
女孩说的很对。。。
我。。。
也开始想。。。
也许我也该。。
可。。
我不知道。。
能不能像女孩那样撤底。。

她好会想哦。。。
这样做。。。男孩跟她都能在一年内好好的为前途拼搏。。

很难。。
不过。。。

未来。。
很渺望哦。。
不太可能的感觉。。
现在也会阻碍的感觉。。
会是包袱吧？

我自问也不是很有本事。。
不一定能完全放下。。。
只。。
我是不是也该。。。
放下。。
让大家能专心。。

所以。。
我想也玩个游戏。。
^-^
如果。。。。。
我就。。。
因为对我来说。。
有没有。。。似乎影响不大。。
只怕害了他。。。
因为我还是会因为自己的懒躲而分心。。。
要做这决定。。要很大的决心。。
朋友们会支持我吧？
加油！！

wish u all gt de result u hope~~
^^thankyou~
huihui~~

要两个月了。。

2008-09-15T03:35:00.000-07:00

快要两个月咯。。
都算很好。。没有吵大架。。

有时候我在想。。。
如果你忘了我会怎样。。。
会吗？

我常会想你到底喜欢我什么。。。
问了好多次。。。
都没答案。。。

有时候真的很没安全感。。。
只是不关你的事。。。
你已经很尽力了。。。

但还是会。。。
难道是因为以前的事吗？
也许。。。

爱情跟友情总难两全。。。。

以前我也常做说别人的角色。。
‘重色轻友’。。。说得真容易。。
现在却轮到我。。
哈。。。
那种感觉有够难受。。。

由其当你重视两方。。。
。。。。。。。。
有时不是你们的错。。。
也许是我自己把自己逼到这样的。。。

好多好多次。。
我想放弃。。。
两个选一个。。。。

我很难过。。。
不能。。。。
很明显。。。。
我已经开始钻牛角尖了。。。

我做不到调适的功能。。。
所以。。。
朋友们。。。
对不起。。
我没有在调整了。。。

因为我做不到。。。。
我不会了。。。。

很累很累。。。。

有占有欲是好。。。
可是。。。
我的脑却终是认为你们不鼓励我。。。。
我。。。。
活不了。。。。

不是。。。。。。。。。。。。。
我们终爱任何一个有事我们就会互相鼓励。。。

只是。。。。。
我好怕。。。好怕兼顾不了。。。

怕到想很多。。。怕到想歪了。。。。。

有时候。。。
我会觉的一个朋友说得很对。。。
我们四个很好。。。
只容易为小事吵架。。。
好累哦。。。

是不是。。。。少了两个字呢？
。。。“大方”。。。
我们都少了这样。。。
好累哦。。。
你们如此的好可却还是。。。
容易生气介意。。。。
有的忘了分寸。。。做错。。。

铭辉。。。

很重要。。。。
不想再中途失去了。。。

我只想要安定的感觉。。。
辉阿。。你真的让我觉得你对我很好。。。
很重视我。。。
我很开心。。。
这个才是我觉得稳的原因。。。
我的一个眼神。。。
一封信息。。
你会懂我不开心。。。
懂我有话说。。。。

只是我就没你那么细心。。。
所以我终会想。。。
你会不会那天醒来。。。
发觉。。。我真的很不好。。。
然后不再爱我。。。。

觉得我想太多噢？。。
没错。。我就是这样敏感。。。
很累噢~
》《。。。
不用跟我讲什么啦。。傻佬。。。
我懂你对我的心的~
谢谢你~

朋友。。。。
也谢谢你们。。。也原谅我做不好你们的朋友。。。

3 weeks~^^

2008-08-10T06:23:00.000-07:00

ok~~
we been 2gether 3 weeks jor~~
keke~~
okok ~~
quite happi~~
n he is really sweet sometimes~~^^
being serius also~~
keke~~o~~
about spm.............
after tat go where do wat??...
need choose o~~
think....n think....
o~~

tkd black belt~~
i going 2 face it~~
oh~~
is really important 4 me!!!
pRAy 4 me~~~~~~~~~~~~
gambateh!!

oh~we together jor~~

2008-07-23T07:35:00.000-07:00

o~~
21/7~~
u sms ask me leh~~
keke~~
so sweet o~~
u say "bao bei i love u ...can we be together?"
keke~~
unbelieveable~~
u ask me so suddenly~~
i feel super happi~~
after i c i m legend~
then i get ur msg..
read 3 times...i onli dare 2 reply~~
keke~~
is good also~~
nw really many many ppl knw lo~~
we also veli ming xian~~
haiz~~
i also dun knw say wat jor la~~
bt we will keep di diao de~~^^
dun knw how u all think la~~
bt this time i juz wan veli simple de be wif him then ok lo~~
i then will feel veli happi de la~
^^

2008-07-19T18:46:00.000-07:00

sick...so sick..
help me..
wat happen 2 me??
i feel tired n sick from inside 2 outside..
cant do good on any thg also..
tkd...my study...
n he..
i m so sick...
i doesnt wan it liao can i??
i feel tired...
i cant ...
cant...
i shouldnt say so bt i juz ..
cant control myself...
let me forget everythg can i??
nono..
cannot choose 2 tao bi..
i should learn how 2 fix problem...
i use 2 hav nice saturday n sunday..
bt i nw i hav 2 do soso many homework..
i knw...is 4 my spm...
i m lazy..yes i m..
bt i m tired of it..
i wna giv it all up..
can i ?
i hate myself like this..
i always like this n waitting ppl will help me n carry me up..
who can i ask this time??
my sis at aus..
i still gt few months...
is test...
i cant juz waste my time on thinking wat 2 do next...
i hate it..
when can u grow up tee shin hui..
stop waiting...can u??
dun pls...
de chance is once onli.......
dun...............let it go................
dun let urself...try 2 forget wat is happening...
life wont stop becoz u wan ...
n stop let urself effect by his thg..
he is nt urs..
n his thg should bother u...
dun...
u need 2 push urself more harder.!!
gal..
remember how old r u ??
u hav many thgs need 2 do~~
dun giv up...
rest..
u can hav bt u need 2 wake up de next day...
can u??
dun wait..
time wont wait 4 u...
be wif me...
my "yong qi..jian chi..yi li.."
dun~~
dun let it make u forget wat u wan from de start~~
uc an scared bt nt skip it...
is not ur resbonsible 2 keep him ok ....or other ppl good..
dun ....
who is de most important 2 u 4 u??
u need 2 remember wat u wish from de start...
is spm ...
is ur own future..
is ur parents n ur aunt n ur sis hope on u..
is wat u hope 2 get !!
not him~~~
he is nt wat u wan from de start~
dun ~~
big gal should knw how 2 make choices...
dun~
no giv up him..
juz wan u let his thg go 1st~
n let ur self think...
n make choices~~
k??
remember is ur own future~~
no his/~
remember wat u hope 2 get
n wat ur parents wan u 2 hav......
n wat they help u~~
well nw u feel sick then u can hav a rest bt dun let urself down juz luz like this!!
promise me~
this is de last time u skip ur tuition without a good reason!!
remember who u r!!
n wat u surppose 2 do n been!!
not a ......

clean n clear~

2008-07-15T06:56:00.000-07:00

juz fren~

is SundAy~~

2008-07-05T20:54:00.000-07:00

u will never understand y m i so happi~~
since i hav tution i hav been so tired~~
i feel stress~~n cant be happi when is saturrday~
coz i always hav 2 do de homowork~
school homework i also cant do lo ~~
still gt this tuituion de work~~
sick~~
n now becoz i 4get 2 bring de book home so ~~
mum say i can no need go~~
so so happi~~^^
juz gt sis 's news~
she is ok nw~
n she say will bring terry home~~
hope tat this time he was de 1~~^___^
wish her all de best~
me n c~~
hehe~~
quite good also~~
we r frens~
gt feel de frens~~
n is good also~
we r nt boy fren n gal fren~
so no need 2 do anythg those like muz eat wif each other~~or wat la~~
we juz ~gt time n we can stay 2gether~~
talk or wat ever la~~
bt juz we r clean~~
^^
we will try dun care wat ppl think~~
we try be ourself~
n he hope tat i can go aus wif him~~
ofcoz i also hope i can~~^^
bt we both knew~
future cant be knw nt untill tat time~
so we also say let it b la~~
so ~~nw quite happi de~~
"chinese"
xian zai de wo~
mei you na me zhi zuo le~
fang kai~kan kai~~
xi huan bu yi ding yao zai yi qi~~
jian jian dan dan de ~
dan dan chun chun de~~
xiang zhe yang ye hen hao~~^^
ying wei ~
bu yong ai qing le~~
mei you shen mou guan xi ke xing rong wo men~
ying wei wo men shi te bie de~
dang rang~
xuan zhe ze yang de guan xi ~
wo men jiu bu neng guan dui fang~
you geng duo geng duo de zhi you~
bu hui xian zhi ~
bu neng du ji~
wo men ye mei you yi ding yao chang zai yi qi~
xiang jian xiang nian jiu zhao dui fang~
jiang ye hen hao bu shi ma?
^__^
jian dan kuai le ~
ye you shu yu wo men de du you tian mii~~
hehe~~
n mayb tat is already veri nice n beautiful relation ship ~
which is onli we can feel it~
hehe~~

o~~

2008-06-29T09:40:00.001-07:00

today onli knw u use de same blogpot keke~~
so i hav 2 lock it up~~
2 make sure u cant c it~~
i already tell u 2 many thgs~~
cant let u knw more~
^^
c ur blog all about test~~
juz 1 about ur "gan qing"~
dun knw wat mean leh~~
n also wondering who is de gal~~
bt i also think it wont b jing yin~~
coz she wif brendon quite long time jor de~~
so i guess mayb is other gals lo~~
bt ~~nvm la~~
ur thg ma~~
n i knw u to gt feel 2 u till nw~~
juz a month somethg onli~~
so short~~
i also hav many thgs la~~
^^so ur past in nth 2 me~~
n i really quite enjoy nw~
tat day i still gila about wat kind of "guan xi"between us..
n now ~~mayb carmen is right~~
this wat i wan isiit~~
yes ~she is right ~~
i should enjoy it~~
n juz like u all say~~
dun think so much~~^^
i like de feel tat ~~we gt somethg de~~bt no 1 knw~~
is funny n i like it~~^^
bt mayb he is doing de right thg la~~
nt 2gether in this kind of time is really better~~
so i will try nt sms u in class~~
we will chat after tat lo~~^^
if u didnt think i m "fan"
qian qian say some thg really right~~
"jin chi"mayb is nt 2 good if i dun hav..
thanks qian~~
i try control~~
n mao mao~~
always make me wan laugh~~
kekeke~~
sit near u also nt bad~~^^
in de end~thanks u guys~~^^

C-coffee..chocolate...chili...also colour...

2008-06-28T07:24:00.000-07:00

haiz...
everythg say it out..
i like being c through~~
n nth left 4 me..
feel wai..
bt they r right..
since tat time i take my 1st step...then means i will hav 2 keep on go...
i m sick of wat m i 4 u...
well...mayb is juz fren...
a fren...
haiz...
look at u..
haiz...
there's nth i can say anymore..
really dun understand u o.........

you again.....

2008-06-13T06:05:00.000-07:00

so sien ar~~
always tot about u ...
haiz..
A i already...nth can do n say jor...'
so...let it b la..
bt u ...
i was thinking isit de god was playing wif me??
i was sick of it~~
i juz dun understand y...
help...
i doesnt wan it anymore...
i hav been through it...
n i was sick of it...
nono....i doesnt wan it liao...
sick....
bt i juz cant help myself...
everytime i c u ..
i juz wan u 2 remember me n saw me...
so sick of myself..
huihui ar~~
will stop it!!
ar~~
nono...i will....bt can i ??
..........i really wan knw y i was like tat nw...
gosh...help me..
i knw is nth...bt juz...
is like i cant wake or....doesnt wan wake...
wat u wan.......
C...wat u wan??
or...u juz tot frens...
i m so stupid...so i dun knw...
sorri....................
wat can i do nw??
start it liao...
i cant juz lt it all go ....
human also k~
dear god...
wat do u hope me 2 do??
i cannot juz act like be4 i like A...
i doesnt wan 2 like him ....it wasnt wat i thinking...from de start...
bt y??
i cant accept it..
i hav been c "mr c" wif ex ...
i juz cant forgt tat picture...
nono...cant let it go............
wat can i do nw????
wat???
god...dun gav me any clue...i dun need them anymore jor...
i juz wan fix it...
wat u wan me do nw....??
how ??
dunknow...
~~~~~
huihui~~u.u

a blog 4 u 33 leng lui best fren^^

2008-06-13T05:15:00.000-07:00

hey~~
i wan thankyou 4 u 3~~
i m so happi knw u 3~~
u 3 giv me many special memories~
which no other of them can gav me...
even yen li them also...
bt~~we juz knw 4...mun mun n ah mao i knw 4 2 year more la~~
bt our QQ i juz knw her nt even 1 year yet~~
i think we r de best match!!^^
n i wan say somethg~~
~~~~~
1st of all~~
i wan say sorri about 2 day~
2day is teacher's day~~
n i think u all can feel tat i more high then usual~
so i think hav keep force u all 2 b as happi as i was..
n i think tat was nt good~~so i wan say sorry 2 u all~~
sorry my dear fren~~
n i also dun know y i was so weird 2day...
mayb is becoz last year...n mayb is becoz i know i cant hav fun when after school...
i need b focus on my tuition work ...n i was stress...
i m sorri....n thanks 4 u all de "ti liang"^^
so so luv u all~~
well~~
let talk about 1 by 1~~
~~~~yeenyeen~~lemon ~~~~ahmao ~~~
yeen~~knw y i like u so much??
hehe i guesss u knw~~
is becoz u always de 1st gt high wif me~~^^
so i enjoy everytime wif u ~~^^
knw 4 so long time jor~~
i was happi ~~^^since be4 n nw~~
i really we can always like tat~~
talk about fashion stuff~
about idol~~~n bla bla~~^^
walaupun abit aunty la~~keke~~
bt i was happi~~so ok lar~~aunty ~~then aunty 2gether lo~~~k??~~^^
n i was sorry 2day~~
bt hor~~thanks 4 u teman me "gila"
keke!~~
by de way i really think tat u gt some thg la~~
mayb u dun think so or mayb u didnt feel it ba~~
bt i n mun mun feel dao o~~
dun know~~mayb juz us sensitive~~
bt if gt thg muz say out o~~
coz i m ready 2 listen it~~^^k~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
munmun~~~~carmen~~~~our beauty cute mei mei~~^^
be4 this year o~~
i wasnt tat good wif u de~~
bt this year we gt much much more closer~~^^
n i realize u r veli care ur fren de nice gal~~
2day i really can feel dao u really care about me lo~~
so thankyou~~n many times u can knw wat i m thinking o~~
so so good~~
n i still remember 1st time talk ur thgs...makes me surprise...
n i can feel tat u r so "shen qing" la~~
n i can feel tat there's many same wif...makes me more "xia dao"~~
so i really like talk wif u~~
was glad can talk wif u about those sad thgs...
i feel sad everytime i heard ur story...coz...haiz..is veli sad...
2 times jor i saw u cry...
i happi u didnt take me as "org luar" lar~
bt i feel sad coz u still tears 4 them...
i always think tat u deserts more better de...
they juz shouldnt b de 1 tat make u tears...
bt nvm...i always say we r here...when u sad come 2 us~~
so i was happi 2~~2knew u as our best group~~^^
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
QQ~~~~qiqian~~~dear qian qian~~~
my dear qian qian aR~~
knw u nt even a year~~
bt i think u r a nice gal...juz...
u like be4 de carmen...
cant really knw u well~~
i wan knw u more...n hope u also knw me more~~
bt still a bit hard~~bt i can still can feel ur good~~
^^when we at genting~~
thanks 4 ur ticket~~
haha~~
if nt we cant gt a chance~~^^
thankyou so much~~
n 2day~~i m so sorri i didnt "ti liang" u~~
i juz enjoy myself n 4get 2 think 4 u ~~
really soli ~~bt i knw u didnt angry me~~so thankyou ar~~^^
when hear u talk about soap alex...
i can feel tat u been hurt so much~~
so scared u become no good de gal gal ar~~
bt u gt us ma~~^^so we wont let u b like tat de~~^^
i also always say 2 u tat i also will be here wif u if u sad...
i really think so ~~i was hoping u will listen 2 my "silly story"also o~~
^^ enjoy this year ba^^
about soap...i think u will knw how 2 do de~
we will try surpport u on wat u think ~~k~~take care QQ~~
by de way~~4get 2 thankyou u about C de thg...
thanks 4 u care about me...let me knw more about u n C n his thgs...
thankyou~~
n also...about i tell dun gt so near him juz dun let me c it...sorri about my"guo fen" de "yao qiu"
n really thankyou u .....2 do so...thankyou ~~
luv u gals...~~^^
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
well~~
my dear 3 beauty~~
thanks 2 u all~~n i really hope we all enjoy this year 2gether coz..is june already~~
we soon will leave...we might nt spent so much time 2gether ~~
so we all muz ejoy this year n make it more colorful ya~~
frens ~~~~~~let RocK it~~^--------^~~~~
~~~luv u all~~~~
~~~~~huihui~~~~n______n~~

plaY~~~~~~~~~~??@.@

2008-06-11T06:56:00.000-07:00

wat u wan Play??
me??
game??
or wat ??
i dun know wat u thinking...
bt takut o...
m i de start de "game"??
ohh....
juz ...onli can keep on going nw...............
=.= +.+

2008-05-29T08:54:00.000-07:00

wan write sumthg..
juz dun know how..
tat day lost control...
so sad...
haiz..
bt every1 also veli hav this kind of situation de..
haiz...
juz tired...
dun know wat 2 do...
i guess i miss u...
i wan 2 sms u ...
bt no i wont...
coz ...how 2 forget de sad of waiting ur msg...
n tat time u hav a gal , how cold ur msg can be...
even is nt short..bt different wif be4...juz i cant feel it anymore...
de sound of de heart broke...
hav u hear it be4???
i didnt hear it liao...bt i still remember...
when de 1st time u shout at me...
even i already nt tat in u ...juz u still special 4 me...
how could u shout at me??
n...tat time i still worry u angry...try explain 2 u...
if i was wrong mayb my heart wasnt tat pain...
bt it wasnt my fault...u knw it...
juz even after tat u apologize...
i still gt a hole in my heart...
so big gal liao o~~long time didnt hav sum1 shout so loud 2 me infront so many ppl...
tell me ??how 2 get over it??
haha...i still scared u angry...
linn tell me...she saw ur gal play wif other guys while u stand a side wait 4 her...
she guess...isit becoz of tat...
i..dun know...coz i dun hope so...really dun ...
nv write any diary since de day i giv up u wif tears...
juz...becoz my diary is like make 4 me 2 write u...
all about u...
makes me feel myself was stupid..
juz..now so long time jor...should start over...
de old 1...
i tore it all out...
n hide...cannot throw...coz i will miss it...
haa..stupid har??
i tot of tell u about how much i like u..
bt still i didnt..
coz no point 2 do so..
u wont like me becoz i so in u...juz will make u scared...
i ..still remember..
since u hav a gal..
when i saw u eat alone i wonder ur gal didnt wif u..
feel uncomfortable when i hear ur gal veli like 2 play wif boys even already wif u...
haha...
i should let it all go...
pass jor~
juz dun know y recently kept think about it...
keke~~
rest time~~

a new day..

2008-05-26T08:05:00.000-07:00

a day makES me cAnnot dun tot of him...
saw him 2day....kind of...dun know wat 2 say ...
juz...wierd or sad/?
ha...
i didnt tot i would c u ...juz when i m nt ready yet....
havent really let u go...
bt...i will never let u go..
coz u used 2 be de1 i like so much..
haha
take pic wif u...
finally..Mr.A....
hhaa~~
dun know wat say...
wan talk 2 u bt dun know how....n say wat...
n i can c u also dun know wat 2 talk wif me...
haha~~
at least i say goodbye 2 u~~
n get ur pic finally...
n.n
will nt 4get u bt...
i wont let myself like u again..
coz i m so sure i wasnt de gal u will like...
so takut about de feel 2 like u ...
tat u r so far...
hhehe~~nvm ...
past jor..
i will be ok de~~
Waloa~~
who i m!!
xin hui wOR~~
surE nth de~~^^
juz dun know y de past flash bac...
u...sky...li....blabla...
makes me think tat i already nt little gal jor...
i mean..
nt 14 15...
is 17~~
cannt play wif u like be4 jor...
wake up......
hehe........

WOw~~^^

2008-05-25T07:44:00.000-07:00

iS hoLidaY~~
haha~~
i guesS...i should be happi ya~~n.n
i was having a big break...
n i was giving my self time 2 relax...
soon i find out tat those thg tat make me feel unhappy........
pressure...is school...
about my result...
about him..
i can do nth bt feeling tired on it...n started 2 slow down...
more n more slow...
haha...suddenly i realize ...tat
we all hav problem...
haha...isit late 2 knoe??
n.n...
nvm..............
he hav sum thg...makes me think about him....
....is like he try let me know tat he had sum1 he like...
i dun know y...bt...makes me fear...
i scare..so scared...pls dun start again.....
i ...really cant stand it.........
be sTrong gal...
how many times do i hav 2 tell myself??
gosh...
ahhaha~~dun be stupid...
i going 2 be alright~~
juz read my sis de blog..
can c her heart ..had veli tired...
feel sad 4 her...
bt i will always be her side~~
gambateh wif her^^
oh~~
veli fan ar~~
4 go out de thg~~
this1 Gt prob~~tat 1 also gt~~
haiz~~
sick o~~
dun know~~
BUUo~~
DOngdong~~
dun knooooooooow~~
feel my heart...cannot c anythg..
juz can feel tat i try make myself happi...
so.....i wish i was really happi~~
be good be nice...
be hui..............

2008-05-19T06:37:00.000-07:00

i ..........
o...i always hav so many thgs 2 say...
bt when i hav 2 say it all out...i will become spechless....
wat i wan/??
i nt so sure about it...
bt i m sure wat i hav 2 n wat i need 2...
is juz i dun know isit de thg i really wan....
i really luv n enjoy doing thgs follow by my feel n tot...
bt i also know tat it has coz me lots of trouble...
bt still i ....dun look like wan 2 change...
they dun understand me...really dun...
n they doesnt even look like they wan...
n yet...i was tired already...
u know??
no...u all juz dun know...
i feel sick n tired on all these thgs...
start 2 know how it feels when u trying 2 do or be some1 u already unable 2 be...
again these feels...
i dun like it..i really dun...bt still i cant do anythg on it...
so how???so wat??
there is nth i can do...
n i really get tired on trying to tell u all wat i think...
coz u all always no time N no interested 2 listen..
becoz u all hav so many thgs 2 worry about ...
n u all will juz tot thgs of mine r veli little n i should handle it myself....
feel tired....coz u never know wat de feels on us...
i start 2 understand y my sister prefer outside more than our lovely home...
is nt tat u all nt luv us...
u all luv us so much n we know it so well...
n tat is y we cant breath well...
u all will never accept tat thgs u all tot is nt same wif de world now...
coz de thg u wan say is ur ways is always good 4 us...
never never really care on wat we tot...coz we r small n dun know how 2 think...
i luv be a kid...doesnt mean i n mature enuf...
sometimes i will some tot tat even u all wont hav...
is juz i was wondering...isit de gal tat onli juz listen on wat u all say n do so then will be a good gal in u all's heart??
i dun know..bt i guess de ans is yes...
u dun know tat we know u so well..
i was sick...n tired in my heart....
coz i feel like i dun know wat 2 so then i can be more better...
i ...more care about wat i was...bt u all care about wat i can...
so i cant say anythg...
u all should know me well..tat wat i will listen n wat i wont...
bt u always shows like i should be tat should be this....
n yet....i was keep trying 2 tell u to proof tat i was clearly know wat u wan tell me...
bt all u can c is i was trying 2 tell u tat i was better than u...
no~~~~
i was juz wan let u know tat i was already understand u........
n stop giving me tat look tat wat i say is rubbish.......
makes me feel more sick coz...u will never understand me.........
well i accept wat u say tat u r my parents my aunt i should listen wat u says.....
bt still sometimes i really cant stand it....
juz CAnt~
i know myself veli well...
i veli never let myself be in somethg tat i was goimg 2 sad or hurt...
unless somethg special....
i luv u all bt u know..
i was getting tired n tired...
dun know how 2 sad...
dun know how 2 react...
always hav 2 social...
sick of it..
bt i need it....
coz ppl lives in de world n they need frens n familys support...
no i dun wan 2 be unhappi....
i dun wan to hurt any1...
bt yet...they still hav get throuht me...
sick of it...
i was empty...
so empty...is like having black hole in my heart...
scared of luv ppl ...
scared of get hurt when fall 4 some1...
n tired on being de gal...
n no more feels...
so confuses...
who R u??
wHo??
do i know u??
no............
terrible gal................
take away everythg...
i wan go somewhere..
n hav silence n peaceful...
n relax...
i always wan 2 forget...bt still cant..
live is short we should do everythg right wif no regrets...
bt juz tat i was getting sick of being empty...
well...
i was sad...about my result..
maybe is should say is dissapointed...
i did try..
bt i was getting tired...
i cant get up..
i was trying pull myself....
i didnt tell them...
coz is no use...
life is no fair..is always never fair...
so de thg u can do is do ur best 2 get near de fair...
tat is wat human should do...n can do...
oh....so long n yet i still feel sick of it...
maybe they r right..
i was fake...
totally fake n stupid n de gal tat should be hate..
..........even i write so much bt still is de same...
so ....go ahead....be strong n take gud care of urself...

last day liao~~

2008-05-14T06:26:00.000-07:00

another day later...going 2 c him jor...
well...cant say wat also~
bt i feel realli better jor~~^^
on my big day~~Mr.A sms me on de 1st time since 5years we know...
haaha~~
is ok ~~
i realli quite happi~~
wish him ok also~~
oooOO~~
erm..
wait 4 2molo ~~
go out wif fren fren~~^^
so gambateH ya~huihui~~^^

another day...

2008-05-03T06:17:00.001-07:00

so sad 2 know tat his scared of me jor...
haiz...
so no use..
i wont eat u ...
help..
i juz like 2 play wif u n like ur smile onli..
nth is going 2 happen...
going 2 hav test...
i wan giv it all up...
wat ever..
i cant sad anymore...
actually my mood quite good~
so i wont let u make me fell down...
n i really doesnt wan becoz of CcccCCC~~n hate my fren~
so wat ever la~~i gv up him doesnt mean i will like CCCccccgiv 2 u ...u should knowit...
n dun make hate u ...n do anythg which will hurt u...
i doesnt wan 2...
u r my fren..
i didnt ask u do wat ...juz dun like this anymore...can u??
u know wat i mean...
duN~~i warn u~~
i will never forgiv...
well well~~
i still hav nice nice frens which good 2 me ~~
which will listen 2 wat i say N will nt make me feel sad~~
o i m sorry 2 say... igt hurt 2 much...so is hard 4 me 2 tot ur hurt as nth...
so dun make me do this...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
well~~
now is time 2 talk 2 myself~~
hey galgal~~
be GOOD~~be sTrong~~
never sad of thgs easily~~
thGS will go ~~so dun upset 4 yesterday~~
u should go on~~
last year...even u really like him...will ok 2..coz u n him will never meet again...
n i m sure...i will be able 2 get well~~
so baby gal~~
take good care of urself~~
coz u hav so much 2 do~~
like my favourite movies~~
i still will continue like fairytales~
bt nt totaly believe in it~~
n believe urself n never let urself down~~
coz the most sad thg 4 me is c ur tears my baby hui~~
^^so cheer up my dear~~n.n

newnEW~~

2008-05-01T06:07:00.000-07:00

well~~
after all these~~
i was weak...bt more strong jor...
i hav my own tot~~
i believe in my self...
i will protect myself n my family n frens..
well~~try my best lar~
luV like..cant really trusted...
so do guys also...
so i kind of...scared...n doesnt wan 2...
i was differennt wif de 1 of me ...
i mean..
de 1 always wan "pak tuo"~~
always...
now...
i still play alot...
bt no more hope..
now i tot i kind of tot i was become a little gal anymore...
play bt dun think of luv n like...
my 1st record~~
didnt like any1..4 so long time...
ooo~~
bt ...cant o~~
untill this guy shows up~~
haiz...
be4 him..still gt 1 i tot i gt feel de~
bt...no liao~~coz i found tat he wasnt de type i like~~
then talk about him...
"mr.C"
he...
at first i saw him ..
i know..who is he~
he was de guy of my fren's ex...
n de 1...also "mr.A"'s Ex..
"mr.C"was close 2 de guy ..i always play wif de~
so juz once~
i sat next him..
coz teacher cuming~n i hav no place 2 sit~
N actually tat time..
de 1 i gt feel de wasnt him..
was de 1 i sat there de behind..
so i didnt really know who sit beside me..
when i try talk 2 him..
my fren plays wif me liao~~
n my mood was good~
then i kept play n also try talk 2 de 1 behind me..
bt...then tat gal came..
makes me no mood 2 talk 2 him jor..
so i juz play wif them~~
n untill then i onli realize who sit beside me...n i was playing wif him~~
later...
coz he is really a fren wif de 1 sit infront me..
so everytime some special period he wan listen..he will sit infront..
n then...later...
gt so much time 2 know him...play wif him...
he was same wif "mr.A" hav ....
many same thg..
juz their look wasnt look alike...
bt there r 2 many same...
n i wasnt sure..
m i ..was i ..
feel like....getting like him...
i ws scared....
frens say they hope me can do as i say...
try dun fall to him~~
i hope so...O.O