my First bLog~~

should be haPPi~coz is my 1st~~^^
~~hav so manythgs 2 say ~2 tell~~
bt nt many ppl woUld wasTE so maNy Time juz 2 listen wat i say~~
be4 my sis go oversea~~
i always can talk 2 her
so do she
she will talk n let me know 2~
if she feels sad...bt is been more than 1 year a bit...she at australia..
so... i feel like i lost somethg important~~
haiz...1st half year~~i feel frEe ~coz i can do many thgs without ge scold by sis~
bt de next half...is really suffer...is so hard...
everythg i hav 2 face my own...like de room wasnt big...bt it used 2 hav 2 ppl ...nt 1..
i wonder did she sleep well on de 1st month...
bt is ok ~life hav 2 keep going~~
i already get used 2 it ...
bt at de same times i scared...get used 2 it..means i doesnt need my sis anymore??
is she hav de same TOt?
better no...
this wHOle time we juz Video call...
n sometimes..my family get mad coz they think my sis didnt on9 n chat wif us is my fauth...
n tat time i was de 1 angry~
haiz...did she change??
i dunknow...yes i know..
she didnt change..is juz she let go the"sangkar"we gave her...
she gt her wings~she doing thgs she likes...n thgs she always wanted~
so tat time i really cannot accept her "change"
bt is ok now...n about my change...i did cry once..about my change...
n later..i stop coz i ask myself....my change is good...y do i have 2 cry??
then i stop crying...
actually...4 gals like me...i juz hav 1 sister..
n we so so so close...when sis hav left...
sure will need 2 learn 2 stay alone..
independent...brave...n hav brain..make my own tot 2~~
makes me change...in de end...


i realize somethg...tat is ...
never feel sad 4 wat happens..juz stop stand there...
do somethg...n try ur bext fix it~
n if cannot ...then juz let urself get hurt...
when hurt till sometime then u will know how....