juz 1 day more de spm is over...
bt 4 me ...is was juz a start...
n ...
i juz onli can feel like my timetable is full...
many thgs i should n hav 2...
this time...i didnt tired...n feel nth...
is juz ...i m scare i make any decision wrong...n brings big bad effect...
bt i still feel so calm..
i gt go so many place...do so many thgs..
new life stye??
ha..ha..
wat so good??or wat so nt good??
i didnt feel anythg...
some1 say...spm wasnt tat important ....
i juz can onli say..
mayb in ur life...ur tot...
or juz at ur moment...
bt nt every1..
i didnt say tat spm means everthg...
bt is a step...
so we need try our best do well on it...
tat's wat we hav 2 is nth 2 do wif de "important ornt"
de next step is wat?
i juz knw wat i should ..bt everythg is hold..
coz i m nt finish yet..
i gt 2 finish thgs 1 by 1..
after it there is no more easy way
is juz a way...
i m didnt feel tired becoz this is wat i wan...
i wan settle all my thgs..be4 i wan gt some break..
bt 1 thg i m sure
after de day we leave...nth will b same
is like ...we gt 2 hav a new view on looking thgs
bt i still tot tat dun hav 2 feel sad on it...
leaving de school doesnt mean anythg..
is like...erm..
i dun knw...
i remember de day i leave my primary school...
every1 was crying...i tried 2 cry...bt i feel nth ...
wasnt tat i m nt like my school or wat ...
is same wif now de situation..
i juz tot tat...
this is really nth 2 sad 4..
haha...
coz..
leaving is juz a step ...
step of life...
is nt moment 2 sad...is moment 2 tot about ur next step...
becoz i always tot tat is was nt end..
i juz finish this 1 then we go on 4 another..
we still will meet even ppl go 2 oversea...
we still live in de same world
juz missing each other is de natural thg..
in my tot...
promises...is de hard part...
actually...
is hard...
sometimes...
we r juz 2 stubborn...
on somethg we tot...
i make promises on tat moment...
i juz tot at tat moment...
no 1 knws on de future.... ....blabla..all thgs...i write...mayb is juz i tot 2 much...so..
juz remember 2 love urself more...
n ur family ofcoz~~^^
takecare
Monday, December 1, 2008
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
3 month n more...
being wif i m so happi^.^
is wat i always dream of~
i feel settle down...
is like i m home...
trust n u treat me so nice n i was nice 2 u 2~~
n both of us gt de result wif improve~
means de blog be4 it~
i say de thgs no need 2 do~
i m happi really glad~
thanks~
n who knws ...
how r we can go juz nw we r good n n happi is enough mayb...
~~huihui~~
is wat i always dream of~
i feel settle down...
is like i m home...
trust n u treat me so nice n i was nice 2 u 2~~
n both of us gt de result wif improve~
means de blog be4 it~
i say de thgs no need 2 do~
i m happi really glad~
thanks~
n who knws ...
how r we can go juz nw we r good n n happi is enough mayb...
~~huihui~~
Thursday, September 25, 2008
ME...
spm trial..
study..
i m kept asking myself...
wat is wrong wif me??
shouldnt i b focus on my study??
....
muz hav somethg wrong....
...
over..is 2 over..
should stop de 2 over de"敏感"...
够了真的够了。。
越不想讲越在乎。。
避他因为怕自己心软。。
那天看了套戏。。。
女孩两次考不上大学。。于是她决定辞了兼职搬到很郊外的地方靠近的学校再努力要考上大学。。
同时她决定要跟她男朋友分手。。
因为。。。
她说。。
当男孩没找她时她不能一直坐着想他到底在做什么跟谁一起。。。
不能一直情绪不稳定。。
一下开心一下伤心一下又担心或生气。。。
这样她很难读书很难专心。。。
所以才决定搬到很远的地方。。。避免跟他见。。
不带电话不让自己跟他联络。。。
一年后考进大学才再谈。。
为了让她男朋友死心。。
她决定。。。
跟男朋友玩一个与缘份游戏。。
他们认识时。。
女孩是为了帮男孩捡起他掉的信件而把新鞋弄脏。。
于是男孩买回同款鞋给她。。
男孩买的是名牌。。
可女孩穿的其实是冒牌。。
于是女孩决定还給他。。
男孩不要。。
女孩决定包男孩三餐来还回他把多出的钱。。
因为她拿不出那么多钱。。
于是。。。
他门的故事慢慢发展了。。。
他们的开始似乎是这双鞋牵的红线。。
于是女孩对男孩说明天六点她将把东西搬进要搬的朋友家。。
女孩说如果明天六点前如果能买回她那时穿的冒牌鞋。。
她就不分手。。。
于是男孩拼了命去完所有找到的鞋店。。
可都买不到鞋子。。
买不到鞋子。。
当然就是分手咯。。。
女孩上了车。。。
男孩很伤心的在后头看着她走。。
女孩也在车里哭。。。
。。。。。
原来。。。
一向很省的她。。
为了不让他买到这款鞋子。。
去到所有会有这款鞋子的店并把所有这款鞋子全都买下了。。
一切就为了让他买不到鞋子。。
为了让他死心。。。
讲了一大堆。。。
其实就是在想。。。
这女孩做的好撤底哦。。。
就因为她觉得。。
已经两次考不上了。。。
时间也不会多。。。
她必须专心读书考上大学。。
不能让辛苦养大她的唯一哥哥难过。。
至于男孩。。。
她知道一年后男孩不一定还是属于她的了。。
只是她觉得。。。爱情跟前途。。前途更重要。。
而且真的有缘份的话。。。
那怕多久。。还是会在一起的。。。
现实中。。。
我们做的到吗？其实。。
女孩说的很对。。。
我。。。
也开始想。。。
也许我也该。。
可。。
我不知道。。
能不能像女孩那样撤底。。
她好会想哦。。。
这样做。。。男孩跟她都能在一年内好好的为前途拼搏。。
很难。。
不过。。。
未来。。
很渺望哦。。
不太可能的感觉。。
现在也会阻碍的感觉。。
会是包袱吧？
我自问也不是很有本事。。
不一定能完全放下。。。
只。。
我是不是也该。。。
放下。。
让大家能专心。。
所以。。
我想也玩个游戏。。
^-^
如果。。。。。
我就。。。
因为对我来说。。
有没有。。。似乎影响不大。。
只怕害了他。。。
因为我还是会因为自己的懒躲而分心。。。
要做这决定。。要很大的决心。。
朋友们会支持我吧？
加油！！
wish u all gt de result u hope~~
^^thankyou~
huihui~~
study..
i m kept asking myself...
wat is wrong wif me??
shouldnt i b focus on my study??
....
muz hav somethg wrong....
...
over..is 2 over..
should stop de 2 over de"敏感"...
够了真的够了。。
越不想讲越在乎。。
避他因为怕自己心软。。
那天看了套戏。。。
女孩两次考不上大学。。于是她决定辞了兼职搬到很郊外的地方靠近的学校再努力要考上大学。。
同时她决定要跟她男朋友分手。。
因为。。。
她说。。
当男孩没找她时她不能一直坐着想他到底在做什么跟谁一起。。。
不能一直情绪不稳定。。
一下开心一下伤心一下又担心或生气。。。
这样她很难读书很难专心。。。
所以才决定搬到很远的地方。。。避免跟他见。。
不带电话不让自己跟他联络。。。
一年后考进大学才再谈。。
为了让她男朋友死心。。
她决定。。。
跟男朋友玩一个与缘份游戏。。
他们认识时。。
女孩是为了帮男孩捡起他掉的信件而把新鞋弄脏。。
于是男孩买回同款鞋给她。。
男孩买的是名牌。。
可女孩穿的其实是冒牌。。
于是女孩决定还給他。。
男孩不要。。
女孩决定包男孩三餐来还回他把多出的钱。。
因为她拿不出那么多钱。。
于是。。。
他门的故事慢慢发展了。。。
他们的开始似乎是这双鞋牵的红线。。
于是女孩对男孩说明天六点她将把东西搬进要搬的朋友家。。
女孩说如果明天六点前如果能买回她那时穿的冒牌鞋。。
她就不分手。。。
于是男孩拼了命去完所有找到的鞋店。。
可都买不到鞋子。。
买不到鞋子。。
当然就是分手咯。。。
女孩上了车。。。
男孩很伤心的在后头看着她走。。
女孩也在车里哭。。。
。。。。。
原来。。。
一向很省的她。。
为了不让他买到这款鞋子。。
去到所有会有这款鞋子的店并把所有这款鞋子全都买下了。。
一切就为了让他买不到鞋子。。
为了让他死心。。。
讲了一大堆。。。
其实就是在想。。。
这女孩做的好撤底哦。。。
就因为她觉得。。
已经两次考不上了。。。
时间也不会多。。。
她必须专心读书考上大学。。
不能让辛苦养大她的唯一哥哥难过。。
至于男孩。。。
她知道一年后男孩不一定还是属于她的了。。
只是她觉得。。。爱情跟前途。。前途更重要。。
而且真的有缘份的话。。。
那怕多久。。还是会在一起的。。。
现实中。。。
我们做的到吗？其实。。
女孩说的很对。。。
我。。。
也开始想。。。
也许我也该。。
可。。
我不知道。。
能不能像女孩那样撤底。。
她好会想哦。。。
这样做。。。男孩跟她都能在一年内好好的为前途拼搏。。
很难。。
不过。。。
未来。。
很渺望哦。。
不太可能的感觉。。
现在也会阻碍的感觉。。
会是包袱吧？
我自问也不是很有本事。。
不一定能完全放下。。。
只。。
我是不是也该。。。
放下。。
让大家能专心。。
所以。。
我想也玩个游戏。。
^-^
如果。。。。。
我就。。。
因为对我来说。。
有没有。。。似乎影响不大。。
只怕害了他。。。
因为我还是会因为自己的懒躲而分心。。。
要做这决定。。要很大的决心。。
朋友们会支持我吧？
加油！！
wish u all gt de result u hope~~
^^thankyou~
huihui~~
Monday, September 15, 2008
要两个月了。。
快要两个月咯。。
都算很好。。没有吵大架。。
有时候我在想。。。
如果你忘了我会怎样。。。
会吗？
我常会想你到底喜欢我什么。。。
问了好多次。。。
都没答案。。。
有时候真的很没安全感。。。
只是不关你的事。。。
你已经很尽力了。。。
但还是会。。。
难道是因为以前的事吗？
也许。。。
爱情跟友情总难两全。。。。
以前我也常做说别人的角色。。
‘重色轻友’。。。说得真容易。。
现在却轮到我。。
哈。。。
那种感觉有够难受。。。
由其当你重视两方。。。
。。。。。。。。
有时不是你们的错。。。
也许是我自己把自己逼到这样的。。。
好多好多次。。
我想放弃。。。
两个选一个。。。。
我很难过。。。
不能。。。。
很明显。。。。
我已经开始钻牛角尖了。。。
我做不到调适的功能。。。
所以。。。
朋友们。。。
对不起。。
我没有在调整了。。。
因为我做不到。。。。
我不会了。。。。
很累很累。。。。
有占有欲是好。。。
可是。。。
我的脑却终是认为你们不鼓励我。。。。
我。。。。
活不了。。。。
不是。。。。。。。。。。。。。
我们终爱任何一个有事我们就会互相鼓励。。。
只是。。。。。
我好怕。。。好怕兼顾不了。。。
怕到想很多。。。怕到想歪了。。。。。
有时候。。。
我会觉的一个朋友说得很对。。。
我们四个很好。。。
只容易为小事吵架。。。
好累哦。。。
是不是。。。。少了两个字呢？
。。。“大方”。。。
我们都少了这样。。。
好累哦。。。
你们如此的好可却还是。。。
容易生气介意。。。。
有的忘了分寸。。。做错。。。
铭辉。。。
很重要。。。。
不想再中途失去了。。。
我只想要安定的感觉。。。
辉阿。。你真的让我觉得你对我很好。。。
很重视我。。。
我很开心。。。
这个才是我觉得稳的原因。。。
我的一个眼神。。。
一封信息。。
你会懂我不开心。。。
懂我有话说。。。。
只是我就没你那么细心。。。
所以我终会想。。。
你会不会那天醒来。。。
发觉。。。我真的很不好。。。
然后不再爱我。。。。
觉得我想太多噢？。。
没错。。我就是这样敏感。。。
很累噢~
》《。。。
不用跟我讲什么啦。。傻佬。。。
我懂你对我的心的~
谢谢你~
朋友。。。。
也谢谢你们。。。也原谅我做不好你们的朋友。。。
都算很好。。没有吵大架。。
有时候我在想。。。
如果你忘了我会怎样。。。
会吗？
我常会想你到底喜欢我什么。。。
问了好多次。。。
都没答案。。。
有时候真的很没安全感。。。
只是不关你的事。。。
你已经很尽力了。。。
但还是会。。。
难道是因为以前的事吗？
也许。。。
爱情跟友情总难两全。。。。
以前我也常做说别人的角色。。
‘重色轻友’。。。说得真容易。。
现在却轮到我。。
哈。。。
那种感觉有够难受。。。
由其当你重视两方。。。
。。。。。。。。
有时不是你们的错。。。
也许是我自己把自己逼到这样的。。。
好多好多次。。
我想放弃。。。
两个选一个。。。。
我很难过。。。
不能。。。。
很明显。。。。
我已经开始钻牛角尖了。。。
我做不到调适的功能。。。
所以。。。
朋友们。。。
对不起。。
我没有在调整了。。。
因为我做不到。。。。
我不会了。。。。
很累很累。。。。
有占有欲是好。。。
可是。。。
我的脑却终是认为你们不鼓励我。。。。
我。。。。
活不了。。。。
不是。。。。。。。。。。。。。
我们终爱任何一个有事我们就会互相鼓励。。。
只是。。。。。
我好怕。。。好怕兼顾不了。。。
怕到想很多。。。怕到想歪了。。。。。
有时候。。。
我会觉的一个朋友说得很对。。。
我们四个很好。。。
只容易为小事吵架。。。
好累哦。。。
是不是。。。。少了两个字呢？
。。。“大方”。。。
我们都少了这样。。。
好累哦。。。
你们如此的好可却还是。。。
容易生气介意。。。。
有的忘了分寸。。。做错。。。
铭辉。。。
很重要。。。。
不想再中途失去了。。。
我只想要安定的感觉。。。
辉阿。。你真的让我觉得你对我很好。。。
很重视我。。。
我很开心。。。
这个才是我觉得稳的原因。。。
我的一个眼神。。。
一封信息。。
你会懂我不开心。。。
懂我有话说。。。。
只是我就没你那么细心。。。
所以我终会想。。。
你会不会那天醒来。。。
发觉。。。我真的很不好。。。
然后不再爱我。。。。
觉得我想太多噢？。。
没错。。我就是这样敏感。。。
很累噢~
》《。。。
不用跟我讲什么啦。。傻佬。。。
我懂你对我的心的~
谢谢你~
朋友。。。。
也谢谢你们。。。也原谅我做不好你们的朋友。。。
Sunday, August 10, 2008
3 weeks~^^
ok~~
we been 2gether 3 weeks jor~~
keke~~
okok ~~
quite happi~~
n he is really sweet sometimes~~^^
being serius also~~
keke~~o~~
about spm.............
after tat go where do wat??...
need choose o~~
think....n think....
o~~
tkd black belt~~
i going 2 face it~~
oh~~
is really important 4 me!!!
pRAy 4 me~~~~~~~~~~~~
gambateh!!
we been 2gether 3 weeks jor~~
keke~~
okok ~~
quite happi~~
n he is really sweet sometimes~~^^
being serius also~~
keke~~o~~
about spm.............
after tat go where do wat??...
need choose o~~
think....n think....
o~~
tkd black belt~~
i going 2 face it~~
oh~~
is really important 4 me!!!
pRAy 4 me~~~~~~~~~~~~
gambateh!!
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
oh~we together jor~~
o~~
21/7~~
u sms ask me leh~~
keke~~
so sweet o~~
u say "bao bei i love u ...can we be together?"
keke~~
unbelieveable~~
u ask me so suddenly~~
i feel super happi~~
after i c i m legend~
then i get ur msg..
read 3 times...i onli dare 2 reply~~
keke~~
is good also~~
nw really many many ppl knw lo~~
we also veli ming xian~~
haiz~~
i also dun knw say wat jor la~~
bt we will keep di diao de~~^^
dun knw how u all think la~~
bt this time i juz wan veli simple de be wif him then ok lo~~
i then will feel veli happi de la~
^^
21/7~~
u sms ask me leh~~
keke~~
so sweet o~~
u say "bao bei i love u ...can we be together?"
keke~~
unbelieveable~~
u ask me so suddenly~~
i feel super happi~~
after i c i m legend~
then i get ur msg..
read 3 times...i onli dare 2 reply~~
keke~~
is good also~~
nw really many many ppl knw lo~~
we also veli ming xian~~
haiz~~
i also dun knw say wat jor la~~
bt we will keep di diao de~~^^
dun knw how u all think la~~
bt this time i juz wan veli simple de be wif him then ok lo~~
i then will feel veli happi de la~
^^
Saturday, July 19, 2008
sick...so sick..
help me..
wat happen 2 me??
i feel tired n sick from inside 2 outside..
cant do good on any thg also..
tkd...my study...
n he..
i m so sick...
i doesnt wan it liao can i??
i feel tired...
i cant ...
cant...
i shouldnt say so bt i juz ..
cant control myself...
let me forget everythg can i??
nono..
cannot choose 2 tao bi..
i should learn how 2 fix problem...
i use 2 hav nice saturday n sunday..
bt i nw i hav 2 do soso many homework..
i knw...is 4 my spm...
i m lazy..yes i m..
bt i m tired of it..
i wna giv it all up..
can i ?
i hate myself like this..
i always like this n waitting ppl will help me n carry me up..
who can i ask this time??
my sis at aus..
i still gt few months...
is test...
i cant juz waste my time on thinking wat 2 do next...
i hate it..
when can u grow up tee shin hui..
stop waiting...can u??
dun pls...
de chance is once onli.......
dun...............let it go................
dun let urself...try 2 forget wat is happening...
life wont stop becoz u wan ...
n stop let urself effect by his thg..
he is nt urs..
n his thg should bother u...
dun...
u need 2 push urself more harder.!!
gal..
remember how old r u ??
u hav many thgs need 2 do~~
dun giv up...
rest..
u can hav bt u need 2 wake up de next day...
can u??
dun wait..
time wont wait 4 u...
be wif me...
my "yong qi..jian chi..yi li.."
dun~~
dun let it make u forget wat u wan from de start~~
uc an scared bt nt skip it...
is not ur resbonsible 2 keep him ok ....or other ppl good..
dun ....
who is de most important 2 u 4 u??
u need 2 remember wat u wish from de start...
is spm ...
is ur own future..
is ur parents n ur aunt n ur sis hope on u..
is wat u hope 2 get !!
not him~~~
he is nt wat u wan from de start~
dun ~~
big gal should knw how 2 make choices...
dun~
no giv up him..
juz wan u let his thg go 1st~
n let ur self think...
n make choices~~
k??
remember is ur own future~~
no his/~
remember wat u hope 2 get
n wat ur parents wan u 2 hav......
n wat they help u~~
well nw u feel sick then u can hav a rest bt dun let urself down juz luz like this!!
promise me~
this is de last time u skip ur tuition without a good reason!!
remember who u r!!
n wat u surppose 2 do n been!!
not a ......
help me..
wat happen 2 me??
i feel tired n sick from inside 2 outside..
cant do good on any thg also..
tkd...my study...
n he..
i m so sick...
i doesnt wan it liao can i??
i feel tired...
i cant ...
cant...
i shouldnt say so bt i juz ..
cant control myself...
let me forget everythg can i??
nono..
cannot choose 2 tao bi..
i should learn how 2 fix problem...
i use 2 hav nice saturday n sunday..
bt i nw i hav 2 do soso many homework..
i knw...is 4 my spm...
i m lazy..yes i m..
bt i m tired of it..
i wna giv it all up..
can i ?
i hate myself like this..
i always like this n waitting ppl will help me n carry me up..
who can i ask this time??
my sis at aus..
i still gt few months...
is test...
i cant juz waste my time on thinking wat 2 do next...
i hate it..
when can u grow up tee shin hui..
stop waiting...can u??
dun pls...
de chance is once onli.......
dun...............let it go................
dun let urself...try 2 forget wat is happening...
life wont stop becoz u wan ...
n stop let urself effect by his thg..
he is nt urs..
n his thg should bother u...
dun...
u need 2 push urself more harder.!!
gal..
remember how old r u ??
u hav many thgs need 2 do~~
dun giv up...
rest..
u can hav bt u need 2 wake up de next day...
can u??
dun wait..
time wont wait 4 u...
be wif me...
my "yong qi..jian chi..yi li.."
dun~~
dun let it make u forget wat u wan from de start~~
uc an scared bt nt skip it...
is not ur resbonsible 2 keep him ok ....or other ppl good..
dun ....
who is de most important 2 u 4 u??
u need 2 remember wat u wish from de start...
is spm ...
is ur own future..
is ur parents n ur aunt n ur sis hope on u..
is wat u hope 2 get !!
not him~~~
he is nt wat u wan from de start~
dun ~~
big gal should knw how 2 make choices...
dun~
no giv up him..
juz wan u let his thg go 1st~
n let ur self think...
n make choices~~
k??
remember is ur own future~~
no his/~
remember wat u hope 2 get
n wat ur parents wan u 2 hav......
n wat they help u~~
well nw u feel sick then u can hav a rest bt dun let urself down juz luz like this!!
promise me~
this is de last time u skip ur tuition without a good reason!!
remember who u r!!
n wat u surppose 2 do n been!!
not a ......
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Saturday, July 5, 2008
is SundAy~~
u will never understand y m i so happi~~
since i hav tution i hav been so tired~~
i feel stress~~n cant be happi when is saturrday~
coz i always hav 2 do de homowork~
school homework i also cant do lo ~~
still gt this tuituion de work~~
sick~~
n now becoz i 4get 2 bring de book home so ~~
mum say i can no need go~~
so so happi~~^^
juz gt sis 's news~
she is ok nw~
n she say will bring terry home~~
hope tat this time he was de 1~~^___^
wish her all de best~
me n c~~
hehe~~
quite good also~~
we r frens~
gt feel de frens~~
n is good also~
we r nt boy fren n gal fren~
so no need 2 do anythg those like muz eat wif each other~~or wat la~~
we juz ~gt time n we can stay 2gether~~
talk or wat ever la~~
bt juz we r clean~~
^^
we will try dun care wat ppl think~~
we try be ourself~
n he hope tat i can go aus wif him~~
ofcoz i also hope i can~~^^
bt we both knew~
future cant be knw nt untill tat time~
so we also say let it b la~~
so ~~nw quite happi de~~
"chinese"
xian zai de wo~
mei you na me zhi zuo le~
fang kai~kan kai~~
xi huan bu yi ding yao zai yi qi~~
jian jian dan dan de ~
dan dan chun chun de~~
xiang zhe yang ye hen hao~~^^
ying wei ~
bu yong ai qing le~~
mei you shen mou guan xi ke xing rong wo men~
ying wei wo men shi te bie de~
dang rang~
xuan zhe ze yang de guan xi ~
wo men jiu bu neng guan dui fang~
you geng duo geng duo de zhi you~
bu hui xian zhi ~
bu neng du ji~
wo men ye mei you yi ding yao chang zai yi qi~
xiang jian xiang nian jiu zhao dui fang~
jiang ye hen hao bu shi ma?
^__^
jian dan kuai le ~
ye you shu yu wo men de du you tian mii~~
hehe~~
n mayb tat is already veri nice n beautiful relation ship ~
which is onli we can feel it~
hehe~~
since i hav tution i hav been so tired~~
i feel stress~~n cant be happi when is saturrday~
coz i always hav 2 do de homowork~
school homework i also cant do lo ~~
still gt this tuituion de work~~
sick~~
n now becoz i 4get 2 bring de book home so ~~
mum say i can no need go~~
so so happi~~^^
juz gt sis 's news~
she is ok nw~
n she say will bring terry home~~
hope tat this time he was de 1~~^___^
wish her all de best~
me n c~~
hehe~~
quite good also~~
we r frens~
gt feel de frens~~
n is good also~
we r nt boy fren n gal fren~
so no need 2 do anythg those like muz eat wif each other~~or wat la~~
we juz ~gt time n we can stay 2gether~~
talk or wat ever la~~
bt juz we r clean~~
^^
we will try dun care wat ppl think~~
we try be ourself~
n he hope tat i can go aus wif him~~
ofcoz i also hope i can~~^^
bt we both knew~
future cant be knw nt untill tat time~
so we also say let it b la~~
so ~~nw quite happi de~~
"chinese"
xian zai de wo~
mei you na me zhi zuo le~
fang kai~kan kai~~
xi huan bu yi ding yao zai yi qi~~
jian jian dan dan de ~
dan dan chun chun de~~
xiang zhe yang ye hen hao~~^^
ying wei ~
bu yong ai qing le~~
mei you shen mou guan xi ke xing rong wo men~
ying wei wo men shi te bie de~
dang rang~
xuan zhe ze yang de guan xi ~
wo men jiu bu neng guan dui fang~
you geng duo geng duo de zhi you~
bu hui xian zhi ~
bu neng du ji~
wo men ye mei you yi ding yao chang zai yi qi~
xiang jian xiang nian jiu zhao dui fang~
jiang ye hen hao bu shi ma?
^__^
jian dan kuai le ~
ye you shu yu wo men de du you tian mii~~
hehe~~
n mayb tat is already veri nice n beautiful relation ship ~
which is onli we can feel it~
hehe~~
Sunday, June 29, 2008
o~~
today onli knw u use de same blogpot keke~~
so i hav 2 lock it up~~
2 make sure u cant c it~~
i already tell u 2 many thgs~~
cant let u knw more~
^^
c ur blog all about test~~
juz 1 about ur "gan qing"~
dun knw wat mean leh~~
n also wondering who is de gal~~
bt i also think it wont b jing yin~~
coz she wif brendon quite long time jor de~~
so i guess mayb is other gals lo~~
bt ~~nvm la~~
ur thg ma~~
n i knw u to gt feel 2 u till nw~~
juz a month somethg onli~~
so short~~
i also hav many thgs la~~
^^so ur past in nth 2 me~~
n i really quite enjoy nw~
tat day i still gila about wat kind of "guan xi"between us..
n now ~~mayb carmen is right~~
this wat i wan isiit~~
yes ~she is right ~~
i should enjoy it~~
n juz like u all say~~
dun think so much~~^^
i like de feel tat ~~we gt somethg de~~bt no 1 knw~~
is funny n i like it~~^^
bt mayb he is doing de right thg la~~
nt 2gether in this kind of time is really better~~
so i will try nt sms u in class~~
we will chat after tat lo~~^^
if u didnt think i m "fan"
qian qian say some thg really right~~
"jin chi"mayb is nt 2 good if i dun hav..
thanks qian~~
i try control~~
n mao mao~~
always make me wan laugh~~
kekeke~~
sit near u also nt bad~~^^
in de end~thanks u guys~~^^
so i hav 2 lock it up~~
2 make sure u cant c it~~
i already tell u 2 many thgs~~
cant let u knw more~
^^
c ur blog all about test~~
juz 1 about ur "gan qing"~
dun knw wat mean leh~~
n also wondering who is de gal~~
bt i also think it wont b jing yin~~
coz she wif brendon quite long time jor de~~
so i guess mayb is other gals lo~~
bt ~~nvm la~~
ur thg ma~~
n i knw u to gt feel 2 u till nw~~
juz a month somethg onli~~
so short~~
i also hav many thgs la~~
^^so ur past in nth 2 me~~
n i really quite enjoy nw~
tat day i still gila about wat kind of "guan xi"between us..
n now ~~mayb carmen is right~~
this wat i wan isiit~~
yes ~she is right ~~
i should enjoy it~~
n juz like u all say~~
dun think so much~~^^
i like de feel tat ~~we gt somethg de~~bt no 1 knw~~
is funny n i like it~~^^
bt mayb he is doing de right thg la~~
nt 2gether in this kind of time is really better~~
so i will try nt sms u in class~~
we will chat after tat lo~~^^
if u didnt think i m "fan"
qian qian say some thg really right~~
"jin chi"mayb is nt 2 good if i dun hav..
thanks qian~~
i try control~~
n mao mao~~
always make me wan laugh~~
kekeke~~
sit near u also nt bad~~^^
in de end~thanks u guys~~^^
Saturday, June 28, 2008
C-coffee..chocolate...chili...also colour...
haiz...
everythg say it out..
i like being c through~~
n nth left 4 me..
feel wai..
bt they r right..
since tat time i take my 1st step...then means i will hav 2 keep on go...
i m sick of wat m i 4 u...
well...mayb is juz fren...
a fren...
haiz...
look at u..
haiz...
there's nth i can say anymore..
really dun understand u o.........
everythg say it out..
i like being c through~~
n nth left 4 me..
feel wai..
bt they r right..
since tat time i take my 1st step...then means i will hav 2 keep on go...
i m sick of wat m i 4 u...
well...mayb is juz fren...
a fren...
haiz...
look at u..
haiz...
there's nth i can say anymore..
really dun understand u o.........
Friday, June 13, 2008
you again.....
so sien ar~~
always tot about u ...
haiz..
A i already...nth can do n say jor...'
so...let it b la..
bt u ...
i was thinking isit de god was playing wif me??
i was sick of it~~
i juz dun understand y...
help...
i doesnt wan it anymore...
i hav been through it...
n i was sick of it...
nono....i doesnt wan it liao...
sick....
bt i juz cant help myself...
everytime i c u ..
i juz wan u 2 remember me n saw me...
so sick of myself..
huihui ar~~
will stop it!!
ar~~
nono...i will....bt can i ??
..........i really wan knw y i was like tat nw...
gosh...help me..
i knw is nth...bt juz...
is like i cant wake or....doesnt wan wake...
wat u wan.......
C...wat u wan??
or...u juz tot frens...
i m so stupid...so i dun knw...
sorri....................
wat can i do nw??
start it liao...
i cant juz lt it all go ....
human also k~
dear god...
wat do u hope me 2 do??
i cannot juz act like be4 i like A...
i doesnt wan 2 like him ....it wasnt wat i thinking...from de start...
bt y??
i cant accept it..
i hav been c "mr c" wif ex ...
i juz cant forgt tat picture...
nono...cant let it go............
wat can i do nw????
wat???
god...dun gav me any clue...i dun need them anymore jor...
i juz wan fix it...
wat u wan me do nw....??
how ??
dunknow...
~~~~~
huihui~~u.u
always tot about u ...
haiz..
A i already...nth can do n say jor...'
so...let it b la..
bt u ...
i was thinking isit de god was playing wif me??
i was sick of it~~
i juz dun understand y...
help...
i doesnt wan it anymore...
i hav been through it...
n i was sick of it...
nono....i doesnt wan it liao...
sick....
bt i juz cant help myself...
everytime i c u ..
i juz wan u 2 remember me n saw me...
so sick of myself..
huihui ar~~
will stop it!!
ar~~
nono...i will....bt can i ??
..........i really wan knw y i was like tat nw...
gosh...help me..
i knw is nth...bt juz...
is like i cant wake or....doesnt wan wake...
wat u wan.......
C...wat u wan??
or...u juz tot frens...
i m so stupid...so i dun knw...
sorri....................
wat can i do nw??
start it liao...
i cant juz lt it all go ....
human also k~
dear god...
wat do u hope me 2 do??
i cannot juz act like be4 i like A...
i doesnt wan 2 like him ....it wasnt wat i thinking...from de start...
bt y??
i cant accept it..
i hav been c "mr c" wif ex ...
i juz cant forgt tat picture...
nono...cant let it go............
wat can i do nw????
wat???
god...dun gav me any clue...i dun need them anymore jor...
i juz wan fix it...
wat u wan me do nw....??
how ??
dunknow...
~~~~~
huihui~~u.u
a blog 4 u 3~~3 leng lui best fren~~^^
hey~~
i wan thankyou 4 u 3~~
i m so happi knw u 3~~
u 3 giv me many special memories~
which no other of them can gav me...
even yen li them also...
bt~~we juz knw 4...mun mun n ah mao i knw 4 2 year more la~~
bt our QQ i juz knw her nt even 1 year yet~~
i think we r de best match!!^^
n i wan say somethg~~
~~~~~
1st of all~~
i wan say sorri about 2 day~
2day is teacher's day~~
n i think u all can feel tat i more high then usual~
so i think hav keep force u all 2 b as happi as i was..
n i think tat was nt good~~so i wan say sorry 2 u all~~
sorry my dear fren~~
n i also dun know y i was so weird 2day...
mayb is becoz last year...n mayb is becoz i know i cant hav fun when after school...
i need b focus on my tuition work ...n i was stress...
i m sorri....n thanks 4 u all de "ti liang"^^
so so luv u all~~
well~~
let talk about 1 by 1~~
~~~~yeenyeen~~lemon ~~~~ahmao ~~~
yeen~~knw y i like u so much??
hehe i guesss u knw~~
is becoz u always de 1st gt high wif me~~^^
so i enjoy everytime wif u ~~^^
knw 4 so long time jor~~
i was happi ~~^^since be4 n nw~~
i really we can always like tat~~
talk about fashion stuff~
about idol~~~n bla bla~~^^
walaupun abit aunty la~~keke~~
bt i was happi~~so ok lar~~aunty ~~then aunty 2gether lo~~~k??~~^^
n i was sorry 2day~~
bt hor~~thanks 4 u teman me "gila"
keke!~~
by de way i really think tat u gt some thg la~~
mayb u dun think so or mayb u didnt feel it ba~~
bt i n mun mun feel dao o~~
dun know~~mayb juz us sensitive~~
bt if gt thg muz say out o~~
coz i m ready 2 listen it~~^^k~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
munmun~~~~carmen~~~~our beauty cute mei mei~~^^
be4 this year o~~
i wasnt tat good wif u de~~
bt this year we gt much much more closer~~^^
n i realize u r veli care ur fren de nice gal~~
2day i really can feel dao u really care about me lo~~
so thankyou~~n many times u can knw wat i m thinking o~~
so so good~~
n i still remember 1st time talk ur thgs...makes me surprise...
n i can feel tat u r so "shen qing" la~~
n i can feel tat there's many same wif...makes me more "xia dao"~~
so i really like talk wif u~~
was glad can talk wif u about those sad thgs...
i feel sad everytime i heard ur story...coz...haiz..is veli sad...
2 times jor i saw u cry...
i happi u didnt take me as "org luar" lar~
bt i feel sad coz u still tears 4 them...
i always think tat u deserts more better de...
they juz shouldnt b de 1 tat make u tears...
bt nvm...i always say we r here...when u sad come 2 us~~
so i was happi 2~~2knew u as our best group~~^^
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
QQ~~~~qiqian~~~dear qian qian~~~
my dear qian qian aR~~
knw u nt even a year~~
bt i think u r a nice gal...juz...
u like be4 de carmen...
cant really knw u well~~
i wan knw u more...n hope u also knw me more~~
bt still a bit hard~~bt i can still can feel ur good~~
^^when we at genting~~
thanks 4 ur ticket~~
haha~~
if nt we cant gt a chance~~^^
thankyou so much~~
n 2day~~i m so sorri i didnt "ti liang" u~~
i juz enjoy myself n 4get 2 think 4 u ~~
really soli ~~bt i knw u didnt angry me~~so thankyou ar~~^^
when hear u talk about soap alex...
i can feel tat u been hurt so much~~
so scared u become no good de gal gal ar~~
bt u gt us ma~~^^so we wont let u b like tat de~~^^
i also always say 2 u tat i also will be here wif u if u sad...
i really think so ~~i was hoping u will listen 2 my "silly story"also o~~
^^ enjoy this year ba^^
about soap...i think u will knw how 2 do de~
we will try surpport u on wat u think ~~k~~take care QQ~~
by de way~~4get 2 thankyou u about C de thg...
thanks 4 u care about me...let me knw more about u n C n his thgs...
thankyou~~
n also...about i tell dun gt so near him juz dun let me c it...sorri about my"guo fen" de "yao qiu"
n really thankyou u .....2 do so...thankyou ~~
luv u gals...~~^^
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
well~~
my dear 3 beauty~~
thanks 2 u all~~n i really hope we all enjoy this year 2gether coz..is june already~~
we soon will leave...we might nt spent so much time 2gether ~~
so we all muz ejoy this year n make it more colorful ya~~
frens ~~~~~~let RocK it~~^--------^~~~~
~~~luv u all~~~~
~~~~~huihui~~~~n______n~~
i wan thankyou 4 u 3~~
i m so happi knw u 3~~
u 3 giv me many special memories~
which no other of them can gav me...
even yen li them also...
bt~~we juz knw 4...mun mun n ah mao i knw 4 2 year more la~~
bt our QQ i juz knw her nt even 1 year yet~~
i think we r de best match!!^^
n i wan say somethg~~
~~~~~
1st of all~~
i wan say sorri about 2 day~
2day is teacher's day~~
n i think u all can feel tat i more high then usual~
so i think hav keep force u all 2 b as happi as i was..
n i think tat was nt good~~so i wan say sorry 2 u all~~
sorry my dear fren~~
n i also dun know y i was so weird 2day...
mayb is becoz last year...n mayb is becoz i know i cant hav fun when after school...
i need b focus on my tuition work ...n i was stress...
i m sorri....n thanks 4 u all de "ti liang"^^
so so luv u all~~
well~~
let talk about 1 by 1~~
~~~~yeenyeen~~lemon ~~~~ahmao ~~~
yeen~~knw y i like u so much??
hehe i guesss u knw~~
is becoz u always de 1st gt high wif me~~^^
so i enjoy everytime wif u ~~^^
knw 4 so long time jor~~
i was happi ~~^^since be4 n nw~~
i really we can always like tat~~
talk about fashion stuff~
about idol~~~n bla bla~~^^
walaupun abit aunty la~~keke~~
bt i was happi~~so ok lar~~aunty ~~then aunty 2gether lo~~~k??~~^^
n i was sorry 2day~~
bt hor~~thanks 4 u teman me "gila"
keke!~~
by de way i really think tat u gt some thg la~~
mayb u dun think so or mayb u didnt feel it ba~~
bt i n mun mun feel dao o~~
dun know~~mayb juz us sensitive~~
bt if gt thg muz say out o~~
coz i m ready 2 listen it~~^^k~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
munmun~~~~carmen~~~~our beauty cute mei mei~~^^
be4 this year o~~
i wasnt tat good wif u de~~
bt this year we gt much much more closer~~^^
n i realize u r veli care ur fren de nice gal~~
2day i really can feel dao u really care about me lo~~
so thankyou~~n many times u can knw wat i m thinking o~~
so so good~~
n i still remember 1st time talk ur thgs...makes me surprise...
n i can feel tat u r so "shen qing" la~~
n i can feel tat there's many same wif...makes me more "xia dao"~~
so i really like talk wif u~~
was glad can talk wif u about those sad thgs...
i feel sad everytime i heard ur story...coz...haiz..is veli sad...
2 times jor i saw u cry...
i happi u didnt take me as "org luar" lar~
bt i feel sad coz u still tears 4 them...
i always think tat u deserts more better de...
they juz shouldnt b de 1 tat make u tears...
bt nvm...i always say we r here...when u sad come 2 us~~
so i was happi 2~~2knew u as our best group~~^^
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
QQ~~~~qiqian~~~dear qian qian~~~
my dear qian qian aR~~
knw u nt even a year~~
bt i think u r a nice gal...juz...
u like be4 de carmen...
cant really knw u well~~
i wan knw u more...n hope u also knw me more~~
bt still a bit hard~~bt i can still can feel ur good~~
^^when we at genting~~
thanks 4 ur ticket~~
haha~~
if nt we cant gt a chance~~^^
thankyou so much~~
n 2day~~i m so sorri i didnt "ti liang" u~~
i juz enjoy myself n 4get 2 think 4 u ~~
really soli ~~bt i knw u didnt angry me~~so thankyou ar~~^^
when hear u talk about soap alex...
i can feel tat u been hurt so much~~
so scared u become no good de gal gal ar~~
bt u gt us ma~~^^so we wont let u b like tat de~~^^
i also always say 2 u tat i also will be here wif u if u sad...
i really think so ~~i was hoping u will listen 2 my "silly story"also o~~
^^ enjoy this year ba^^
about soap...i think u will knw how 2 do de~
we will try surpport u on wat u think ~~k~~take care QQ~~
by de way~~4get 2 thankyou u about C de thg...
thanks 4 u care about me...let me knw more about u n C n his thgs...
thankyou~~
n also...about i tell dun gt so near him juz dun let me c it...sorri about my"guo fen" de "yao qiu"
n really thankyou u .....2 do so...thankyou ~~
luv u gals...~~^^
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
well~~
my dear 3 beauty~~
thanks 2 u all~~n i really hope we all enjoy this year 2gether coz..is june already~~
we soon will leave...we might nt spent so much time 2gether ~~
so we all muz ejoy this year n make it more colorful ya~~
frens ~~~~~~let RocK it~~^--------^~~~~
~~~luv u all~~~~
~~~~~huihui~~~~n______n~~
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
plaY~~~~~~~~~~??@.@
wat u wan Play??
me??
game??
or wat ??
i dun know wat u thinking...
bt takut o...
m i de start de "game"??
ohh....
juz ...onli can keep on going nw...............
=.= +.+
me??
game??
or wat ??
i dun know wat u thinking...
bt takut o...
m i de start de "game"??
ohh....
juz ...onli can keep on going nw...............
=.= +.+
Thursday, May 29, 2008
wan write sumthg..
juz dun know how..
tat day lost control...
so sad...
haiz..
bt every1 also veli hav this kind of situation de..
haiz...
juz tired...
dun know wat 2 do...
i guess i miss u...
i wan 2 sms u ...
bt no i wont...
coz ...how 2 forget de sad of waiting ur msg...
n tat time u hav a gal , how cold ur msg can be...
even is nt short..bt different wif be4...juz i cant feel it anymore...
de sound of de heart broke...
hav u hear it be4???
i didnt hear it liao...bt i still remember...
when de 1st time u shout at me...
even i already nt tat in u ...juz u still special 4 me...
how could u shout at me??
n...tat time i still worry u angry...try explain 2 u...
if i was wrong mayb my heart wasnt tat pain...
bt it wasnt my fault...u knw it...
juz even after tat u apologize...
i still gt a hole in my heart...
so big gal liao o~~long time didnt hav sum1 shout so loud 2 me infront so many ppl...
tell me ??how 2 get over it??
haha...i still scared u angry...
linn tell me...she saw ur gal play wif other guys while u stand a side wait 4 her...
she guess...isit becoz of tat...
i..dun know...coz i dun hope so...really dun ...
nv write any diary since de day i giv up u wif tears...
juz...becoz my diary is like make 4 me 2 write u...
all about u...
makes me feel myself was stupid..
juz..now so long time jor...should start over...
de old 1...
i tore it all out...
n hide...cannot throw...coz i will miss it...
haa..stupid har??
i tot of tell u about how much i like u..
bt still i didnt..
coz no point 2 do so..
u wont like me becoz i so in u...juz will make u scared...
i ..still remember..
since u hav a gal..
when i saw u eat alone i wonder ur gal didnt wif u..
feel uncomfortable when i hear ur gal veli like 2 play wif boys even already wif u...
haha...
i should let it all go...
pass jor~
juz dun know y recently kept think about it...
keke~~
rest time~~
juz dun know how..
tat day lost control...
so sad...
haiz..
bt every1 also veli hav this kind of situation de..
haiz...
juz tired...
dun know wat 2 do...
i guess i miss u...
i wan 2 sms u ...
bt no i wont...
coz ...how 2 forget de sad of waiting ur msg...
n tat time u hav a gal , how cold ur msg can be...
even is nt short..bt different wif be4...juz i cant feel it anymore...
de sound of de heart broke...
hav u hear it be4???
i didnt hear it liao...bt i still remember...
when de 1st time u shout at me...
even i already nt tat in u ...juz u still special 4 me...
how could u shout at me??
n...tat time i still worry u angry...try explain 2 u...
if i was wrong mayb my heart wasnt tat pain...
bt it wasnt my fault...u knw it...
juz even after tat u apologize...
i still gt a hole in my heart...
so big gal liao o~~long time didnt hav sum1 shout so loud 2 me infront so many ppl...
tell me ??how 2 get over it??
haha...i still scared u angry...
linn tell me...she saw ur gal play wif other guys while u stand a side wait 4 her...
she guess...isit becoz of tat...
i..dun know...coz i dun hope so...really dun ...
nv write any diary since de day i giv up u wif tears...
juz...becoz my diary is like make 4 me 2 write u...
all about u...
makes me feel myself was stupid..
juz..now so long time jor...should start over...
de old 1...
i tore it all out...
n hide...cannot throw...coz i will miss it...
haa..stupid har??
i tot of tell u about how much i like u..
bt still i didnt..
coz no point 2 do so..
u wont like me becoz i so in u...juz will make u scared...
i ..still remember..
since u hav a gal..
when i saw u eat alone i wonder ur gal didnt wif u..
feel uncomfortable when i hear ur gal veli like 2 play wif boys even already wif u...
haha...
i should let it all go...
pass jor~
juz dun know y recently kept think about it...
keke~~
rest time~~
Monday, May 26, 2008
a new day..
a day makES me cAnnot dun tot of him...
saw him 2day....kind of...dun know wat 2 say ...
juz...wierd or sad/?
ha...
i didnt tot i would c u ...juz when i m nt ready yet....
havent really let u go...
bt...i will never let u go..
coz u used 2 be de1 i like so much..
haha
take pic wif u...
finally..Mr.A....
hhaa~~
dun know wat say...
wan talk 2 u bt dun know how....n say wat...
n i can c u also dun know wat 2 talk wif me...
haha~~
at least i say goodbye 2 u~~
n get ur pic finally...
n.n
will nt 4get u bt...
i wont let myself like u again..
coz i m so sure i wasnt de gal u will like...
so takut about de feel 2 like u ...
tat u r so far...
hhehe~~nvm ...
past jor..
i will be ok de~~
Waloa~~
who i m!!
xin hui wOR~~
surE nth de~~^^
juz dun know y de past flash bac...
u...sky...li....blabla...
makes me think tat i already nt little gal jor...
i mean..
nt 14 15...
is 17~~
cannt play wif u like be4 jor...
wake up......
hehe........
saw him 2day....kind of...dun know wat 2 say ...
juz...wierd or sad/?
ha...
i didnt tot i would c u ...juz when i m nt ready yet....
havent really let u go...
bt...i will never let u go..
coz u used 2 be de1 i like so much..
haha
take pic wif u...
finally..Mr.A....
hhaa~~
dun know wat say...
wan talk 2 u bt dun know how....n say wat...
n i can c u also dun know wat 2 talk wif me...
haha~~
at least i say goodbye 2 u~~
n get ur pic finally...
n.n
will nt 4get u bt...
i wont let myself like u again..
coz i m so sure i wasnt de gal u will like...
so takut about de feel 2 like u ...
tat u r so far...
hhehe~~nvm ...
past jor..
i will be ok de~~
Waloa~~
who i m!!
xin hui wOR~~
surE nth de~~^^
juz dun know y de past flash bac...
u...sky...li....blabla...
makes me think tat i already nt little gal jor...
i mean..
nt 14 15...
is 17~~
cannt play wif u like be4 jor...
wake up......
hehe........
Sunday, May 25, 2008
WOw~~^^
iS hoLidaY~~
haha~~
i guesS...i should be happi ya~~n.n
i was having a big break...
n i was giving my self time 2 relax...
soon i find out tat those thg tat make me feel unhappy........
pressure...is school...
about my result...
about him..
i can do nth bt feeling tired on it...n started 2 slow down...
more n more slow...
haha...suddenly i realize ...tat
we all hav problem...
haha...isit late 2 knoe??
n.n...
nvm..............
he hav sum thg...makes me think about him....
....is like he try let me know tat he had sum1 he like...
i dun know y...bt...makes me fear...
i scare..so scared...pls dun start again.....
i ...really cant stand it.........
be sTrong gal...
how many times do i hav 2 tell myself??
gosh...
ahhaha~~dun be stupid...
i going 2 be alright~~
juz read my sis de blog..
can c her heart ..had veli tired...
feel sad 4 her...
bt i will always be her side~~
gambateh wif her^^
oh~~
veli fan ar~~
4 go out de thg~~
this1 Gt prob~~tat 1 also gt~~
haiz~~
sick o~~
dun know~~
BUUo~~
DOngdong~~
dun knooooooooow~~
feel my heart...cannot c anythg..
juz can feel tat i try make myself happi...
so.....i wish i was really happi~~
be good be nice...
be hui..............
haha~~
i guesS...i should be happi ya~~n.n
i was having a big break...
n i was giving my self time 2 relax...
soon i find out tat those thg tat make me feel unhappy........
pressure...is school...
about my result...
about him..
i can do nth bt feeling tired on it...n started 2 slow down...
more n more slow...
haha...suddenly i realize ...tat
we all hav problem...
haha...isit late 2 knoe??
n.n...
nvm..............
he hav sum thg...makes me think about him....
....is like he try let me know tat he had sum1 he like...
i dun know y...bt...makes me fear...
i scare..so scared...pls dun start again.....
i ...really cant stand it.........
be sTrong gal...
how many times do i hav 2 tell myself??
gosh...
ahhaha~~dun be stupid...
i going 2 be alright~~
juz read my sis de blog..
can c her heart ..had veli tired...
feel sad 4 her...
bt i will always be her side~~
gambateh wif her^^
oh~~
veli fan ar~~
4 go out de thg~~
this1 Gt prob~~tat 1 also gt~~
haiz~~
sick o~~
dun know~~
BUUo~~
DOngdong~~
dun knooooooooow~~
feel my heart...cannot c anythg..
juz can feel tat i try make myself happi...
so.....i wish i was really happi~~
be good be nice...
be hui..............
Monday, May 19, 2008
i ..........
o...i always hav so many thgs 2 say...
bt when i hav 2 say it all out...i will become spechless....
wat i wan/??
i nt so sure about it...
bt i m sure wat i hav 2 n wat i need 2...
is juz i dun know isit de thg i really wan....
i really luv n enjoy doing thgs follow by my feel n tot...
bt i also know tat it has coz me lots of trouble...
bt still i ....dun look like wan 2 change...
they dun understand me...really dun...
n they doesnt even look like they wan...
n yet...i was tired already...
u know??
no...u all juz dun know...
i feel sick n tired on all these thgs...
start 2 know how it feels when u trying 2 do or be some1 u already unable 2 be...
again these feels...
i dun like it..i really dun...bt still i cant do anythg on it...
so how???so wat??
there is nth i can do...
n i really get tired on trying to tell u all wat i think...
coz u all always no time N no interested 2 listen..
becoz u all hav so many thgs 2 worry about ...
n u all will juz tot thgs of mine r veli little n i should handle it myself....
feel tired....coz u never know wat de feels on us...
i start 2 understand y my sister prefer outside more than our lovely home...
is nt tat u all nt luv us...
u all luv us so much n we know it so well...
n tat is y we cant breath well...
u all will never accept tat thgs u all tot is nt same wif de world now...
coz de thg u wan say is ur ways is always good 4 us...
never never really care on wat we tot...coz we r small n dun know how 2 think...
i luv be a kid...doesnt mean i n mature enuf...
sometimes i will some tot tat even u all wont hav...
is juz i was wondering...isit de gal tat onli juz listen on wat u all say n do so then will be a good gal in u all's heart??
i dun know..bt i guess de ans is yes...
u dun know tat we know u so well..
i was sick...n tired in my heart....
coz i feel like i dun know wat 2 so then i can be more better...
i ...more care about wat i was...bt u all care about wat i can...
so i cant say anythg...
u all should know me well..tat wat i will listen n wat i wont...
bt u always shows like i should be tat should be this....
n yet....i was keep trying 2 tell u to proof tat i was clearly know wat u wan tell me...
bt all u can c is i was trying 2 tell u tat i was better than u...
no~~~~
i was juz wan let u know tat i was already understand u........
n stop giving me tat look tat wat i say is rubbish.......
makes me feel more sick coz...u will never understand me.........
well i accept wat u say tat u r my parents my aunt i should listen wat u says.....
bt still sometimes i really cant stand it....
juz CAnt~
i know myself veli well...
i veli never let myself be in somethg tat i was goimg 2 sad or hurt...
unless somethg special....
i luv u all bt u know..
i was getting tired n tired...
dun know how 2 sad...
dun know how 2 react...
always hav 2 social...
sick of it..
bt i need it....
coz ppl lives in de world n they need frens n familys support...
no i dun wan 2 be unhappi....
i dun wan to hurt any1...
bt yet...they still hav get throuht me...
sick of it...
i was empty...
so empty...is like having black hole in my heart...
scared of luv ppl ...
scared of get hurt when fall 4 some1...
n tired on being de gal...
n no more feels...
so confuses...
who R u??
wHo??
do i know u??
no............
terrible gal................
take away everythg...
i wan go somewhere..
n hav silence n peaceful...
n relax...
i always wan 2 forget...bt still cant..
live is short we should do everythg right wif no regrets...
bt juz tat i was getting sick of being empty...
well...
i was sad...about my result..
maybe is should say is dissapointed...
i did try..
bt i was getting tired...
i cant get up..
i was trying pull myself....
i didnt tell them...
coz is no use...
life is no fair..is always never fair...
so de thg u can do is do ur best 2 get near de fair...
tat is wat human should do...n can do...
oh....so long n yet i still feel sick of it...
maybe they r right..
i was fake...
totally fake n stupid n de gal tat should be hate..
..........even i write so much bt still is de same...
so ....go ahead....be strong n take gud care of urself...
o...i always hav so many thgs 2 say...
bt when i hav 2 say it all out...i will become spechless....
wat i wan/??
i nt so sure about it...
bt i m sure wat i hav 2 n wat i need 2...
is juz i dun know isit de thg i really wan....
i really luv n enjoy doing thgs follow by my feel n tot...
bt i also know tat it has coz me lots of trouble...
bt still i ....dun look like wan 2 change...
they dun understand me...really dun...
n they doesnt even look like they wan...
n yet...i was tired already...
u know??
no...u all juz dun know...
i feel sick n tired on all these thgs...
start 2 know how it feels when u trying 2 do or be some1 u already unable 2 be...
again these feels...
i dun like it..i really dun...bt still i cant do anythg on it...
so how???so wat??
there is nth i can do...
n i really get tired on trying to tell u all wat i think...
coz u all always no time N no interested 2 listen..
becoz u all hav so many thgs 2 worry about ...
n u all will juz tot thgs of mine r veli little n i should handle it myself....
feel tired....coz u never know wat de feels on us...
i start 2 understand y my sister prefer outside more than our lovely home...
is nt tat u all nt luv us...
u all luv us so much n we know it so well...
n tat is y we cant breath well...
u all will never accept tat thgs u all tot is nt same wif de world now...
coz de thg u wan say is ur ways is always good 4 us...
never never really care on wat we tot...coz we r small n dun know how 2 think...
i luv be a kid...doesnt mean i n mature enuf...
sometimes i will some tot tat even u all wont hav...
is juz i was wondering...isit de gal tat onli juz listen on wat u all say n do so then will be a good gal in u all's heart??
i dun know..bt i guess de ans is yes...
u dun know tat we know u so well..
i was sick...n tired in my heart....
coz i feel like i dun know wat 2 so then i can be more better...
i ...more care about wat i was...bt u all care about wat i can...
so i cant say anythg...
u all should know me well..tat wat i will listen n wat i wont...
bt u always shows like i should be tat should be this....
n yet....i was keep trying 2 tell u to proof tat i was clearly know wat u wan tell me...
bt all u can c is i was trying 2 tell u tat i was better than u...
no~~~~
i was juz wan let u know tat i was already understand u........
n stop giving me tat look tat wat i say is rubbish.......
makes me feel more sick coz...u will never understand me.........
well i accept wat u say tat u r my parents my aunt i should listen wat u says.....
bt still sometimes i really cant stand it....
juz CAnt~
i know myself veli well...
i veli never let myself be in somethg tat i was goimg 2 sad or hurt...
unless somethg special....
i luv u all bt u know..
i was getting tired n tired...
dun know how 2 sad...
dun know how 2 react...
always hav 2 social...
sick of it..
bt i need it....
coz ppl lives in de world n they need frens n familys support...
no i dun wan 2 be unhappi....
i dun wan to hurt any1...
bt yet...they still hav get throuht me...
sick of it...
i was empty...
so empty...is like having black hole in my heart...
scared of luv ppl ...
scared of get hurt when fall 4 some1...
n tired on being de gal...
n no more feels...
so confuses...
who R u??
wHo??
do i know u??
no............
terrible gal................
take away everythg...
i wan go somewhere..
n hav silence n peaceful...
n relax...
i always wan 2 forget...bt still cant..
live is short we should do everythg right wif no regrets...
bt juz tat i was getting sick of being empty...
well...
i was sad...about my result..
maybe is should say is dissapointed...
i did try..
bt i was getting tired...
i cant get up..
i was trying pull myself....
i didnt tell them...
coz is no use...
life is no fair..is always never fair...
so de thg u can do is do ur best 2 get near de fair...
tat is wat human should do...n can do...
oh....so long n yet i still feel sick of it...
maybe they r right..
i was fake...
totally fake n stupid n de gal tat should be hate..
..........even i write so much bt still is de same...
so ....go ahead....be strong n take gud care of urself...
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
last day liao~~
another day later...going 2 c him jor...
well...cant say wat also~
bt i feel realli better jor~~^^
on my big day~~Mr.A sms me on de 1st time since 5years we know...
haaha~~
is ok ~~
i realli quite happi~~
wish him ok also~~
oooOO~~
erm..
wait 4 2molo ~~
go out wif fren fren~~^^
so gambateH ya~huihui~~^^
well...cant say wat also~
bt i feel realli better jor~~^^
on my big day~~Mr.A sms me on de 1st time since 5years we know...
haaha~~
is ok ~~
i realli quite happi~~
wish him ok also~~
oooOO~~
erm..
wait 4 2molo ~~
go out wif fren fren~~^^
so gambateH ya~huihui~~^^
Saturday, May 3, 2008
another day...
so sad 2 know tat his scared of me jor...
haiz...
so no use..
i wont eat u ...
help..
i juz like 2 play wif u n like ur smile onli..
nth is going 2 happen...
going 2 hav test...
i wan giv it all up...
wat ever..
i cant sad anymore...
actually my mood quite good~
so i wont let u make me fell down...
n i really doesnt wan becoz of CcccCCC~~n hate my fren~
so wat ever la~~i gv up him doesnt mean i will like CCCccccgiv 2 u ...u should knowit...
n dun make hate u ...n do anythg which will hurt u...
i doesnt wan 2...
u r my fren..
i didnt ask u do wat ...juz dun like this anymore...can u??
u know wat i mean...
duN~~i warn u~~
i will never forgiv...
well well~~
i still hav nice nice frens which good 2 me ~~
which will listen 2 wat i say N will nt make me feel sad~~
o i m sorry 2 say... igt hurt 2 much...so is hard 4 me 2 tot ur hurt as nth...
so dun make me do this...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
well~~
now is time 2 talk 2 myself~~
hey galgal~~
be GOOD~~be sTrong~~
never sad of thgs easily~~
thGS will go ~~so dun upset 4 yesterday~~
u should go on~~
last year...even u really like him...will ok 2..coz u n him will never meet again...
n i m sure...i will be able 2 get well~~
so baby gal~~
take good care of urself~~
coz u hav so much 2 do~~
like my favourite movies~~
i still will continue like fairytales~
bt nt totaly believe in it~~
n believe urself n never let urself down~~
coz the most sad thg 4 me is c ur tears my baby hui~~
^^so cheer up my dear~~n.n
haiz...
so no use..
i wont eat u ...
help..
i juz like 2 play wif u n like ur smile onli..
nth is going 2 happen...
going 2 hav test...
i wan giv it all up...
wat ever..
i cant sad anymore...
actually my mood quite good~
so i wont let u make me fell down...
n i really doesnt wan becoz of CcccCCC~~n hate my fren~
so wat ever la~~i gv up him doesnt mean i will like CCCccccgiv 2 u ...u should knowit...
n dun make hate u ...n do anythg which will hurt u...
i doesnt wan 2...
u r my fren..
i didnt ask u do wat ...juz dun like this anymore...can u??
u know wat i mean...
duN~~i warn u~~
i will never forgiv...
well well~~
i still hav nice nice frens which good 2 me ~~
which will listen 2 wat i say N will nt make me feel sad~~
o i m sorry 2 say... igt hurt 2 much...so is hard 4 me 2 tot ur hurt as nth...
so dun make me do this...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
well~~
now is time 2 talk 2 myself~~
hey galgal~~
be GOOD~~be sTrong~~
never sad of thgs easily~~
thGS will go ~~so dun upset 4 yesterday~~
u should go on~~
last year...even u really like him...will ok 2..coz u n him will never meet again...
n i m sure...i will be able 2 get well~~
so baby gal~~
take good care of urself~~
coz u hav so much 2 do~~
like my favourite movies~~
i still will continue like fairytales~
bt nt totaly believe in it~~
n believe urself n never let urself down~~
coz the most sad thg 4 me is c ur tears my baby hui~~
^^so cheer up my dear~~n.n
Thursday, May 1, 2008
newnEW~~
well~~
after all these~~
i was weak...bt more strong jor...
i hav my own tot~~
i believe in my self...
i will protect myself n my family n frens..
well~~try my best lar~
luV like..cant really trusted...
so do guys also...
so i kind of...scared...n doesnt wan 2...
i was differennt wif de 1 of me ...
i mean..
de 1 always wan "pak tuo"~~
always...
now...
i still play alot...
bt no more hope..
now i tot i kind of tot i was become a little gal anymore...
play bt dun think of luv n like...
my 1st record~~
didnt like any1..4 so long time...
ooo~~
bt ...cant o~~
untill this guy shows up~~
haiz...
be4 him..still gt 1 i tot i gt feel de~
bt...no liao~~coz i found tat he wasnt de type i like~~
then talk about him...
"mr.C"
he...
at first i saw him ..
i know..who is he~
he was de guy of my fren's ex...
n de 1...also "mr.A"'s Ex..
"mr.C"was close 2 de guy ..i always play wif de~
so juz once~
i sat next him..
coz teacher cuming~n i hav no place 2 sit~
N actually tat time..
de 1 i gt feel de wasnt him..
was de 1 i sat there de behind..
so i didnt really know who sit beside me..
when i try talk 2 him..
my fren plays wif me liao~~
n my mood was good~
then i kept play n also try talk 2 de 1 behind me..
bt...then tat gal came..
makes me no mood 2 talk 2 him jor..
so i juz play wif them~~
n untill then i onli realize who sit beside me...n i was playing wif him~~
later...
coz he is really a fren wif de 1 sit infront me..
so everytime some special period he wan listen..he will sit infront..
n then...later...
gt so much time 2 know him...play wif him...
he was same wif "mr.A" hav ....
many same thg..
juz their look wasnt look alike...
bt there r 2 many same...
n i wasnt sure..
m i ..was i ..
feel like....getting like him...
i ws scared....
frens say they hope me can do as i say...
try dun fall to him~~
i hope so...O.O
after all these~~
i was weak...bt more strong jor...
i hav my own tot~~
i believe in my self...
i will protect myself n my family n frens..
well~~try my best lar~
luV like..cant really trusted...
so do guys also...
so i kind of...scared...n doesnt wan 2...
i was differennt wif de 1 of me ...
i mean..
de 1 always wan "pak tuo"~~
always...
now...
i still play alot...
bt no more hope..
now i tot i kind of tot i was become a little gal anymore...
play bt dun think of luv n like...
my 1st record~~
didnt like any1..4 so long time...
ooo~~
bt ...cant o~~
untill this guy shows up~~
haiz...
be4 him..still gt 1 i tot i gt feel de~
bt...no liao~~coz i found tat he wasnt de type i like~~
then talk about him...
"mr.C"
he...
at first i saw him ..
i know..who is he~
he was de guy of my fren's ex...
n de 1...also "mr.A"'s Ex..
"mr.C"was close 2 de guy ..i always play wif de~
so juz once~
i sat next him..
coz teacher cuming~n i hav no place 2 sit~
N actually tat time..
de 1 i gt feel de wasnt him..
was de 1 i sat there de behind..
so i didnt really know who sit beside me..
when i try talk 2 him..
my fren plays wif me liao~~
n my mood was good~
then i kept play n also try talk 2 de 1 behind me..
bt...then tat gal came..
makes me no mood 2 talk 2 him jor..
so i juz play wif them~~
n untill then i onli realize who sit beside me...n i was playing wif him~~
later...
coz he is really a fren wif de 1 sit infront me..
so everytime some special period he wan listen..he will sit infront..
n then...later...
gt so much time 2 know him...play wif him...
he was same wif "mr.A" hav ....
many same thg..
juz their look wasnt look alike...
bt there r 2 many same...
n i wasnt sure..
m i ..was i ..
feel like....getting like him...
i ws scared....
frens say they hope me can do as i say...
try dun fall to him~~
i hope so...O.O
last 1~
well..this 1..i wan say tat...he is really not good at all~~
haiz..
doesnt wan say much abou him...juz...
after"mrA"n sky...
he next..
when we 1st know..
he was having a big problem wif his gal..
bt he still hav weird act wif me..
bt is ok~
nt de point yet~
then later he tell me he break liao..
n he is so sad...
n next year...
i tat time..
i was single n sky de thg...was...already 6 or7 month...
n i wasnt sure i was already let his thg go...
so i didnt really go wif him..
juz then my fren tell me 2 gav another ppl a chance...so i giv him a chance..
n we start at 24/12...i hav think 4 a week then i say yes 2 him..
well..
at first i tot...
he was good n "chang qing" guy ...so i can wif him long time..
bt...later i found out tat...
well ya~he is really "chang qin"
bt...2 his Ex also
stupid..
i trust on him..
i get mad....
coz hearing so many thgs..
i listen 2 my sis...so i find him...
n i ask him face 2 face....
his react tells me tat everythg i hear is true...
he lies~
n i hate him........
tat time..
now...no more..
n i start 2 feel sorry 4 this guy..
he so no use...
n untill hurt 2 gals...
damn no use...
always say dun know...
even me was stronger than him....................
later i refuse 2 talk 2 him..
bt later..
i had send a mail....coz i really need a good explain..
n after tat...i feel much better...
n i didnt hate him so much jor..
bt i doesnt like 2 be frens wif this guy also....
so i didnt talk 2 him liao...
haiz..
doesnt wan say much abou him...juz...
after"mrA"n sky...
he next..
when we 1st know..
he was having a big problem wif his gal..
bt he still hav weird act wif me..
bt is ok~
nt de point yet~
then later he tell me he break liao..
n he is so sad...
n next year...
i tat time..
i was single n sky de thg...was...already 6 or7 month...
n i wasnt sure i was already let his thg go...
so i didnt really go wif him..
juz then my fren tell me 2 gav another ppl a chance...so i giv him a chance..
n we start at 24/12...i hav think 4 a week then i say yes 2 him..
well..
at first i tot...
he was good n "chang qing" guy ...so i can wif him long time..
bt...later i found out tat...
well ya~he is really "chang qin"
bt...2 his Ex also
stupid..
i trust on him..
i get mad....
coz hearing so many thgs..
i listen 2 my sis...so i find him...
n i ask him face 2 face....
his react tells me tat everythg i hear is true...
he lies~
n i hate him........
tat time..
now...no more..
n i start 2 feel sorry 4 this guy..
he so no use...
n untill hurt 2 gals...
damn no use...
always say dun know...
even me was stronger than him....................
later i refuse 2 talk 2 him..
bt later..
i had send a mail....coz i really need a good explain..
n after tat...i feel much better...
n i didnt hate him so much jor..
bt i doesnt like 2 be frens wif this guy also....
so i didnt talk 2 him liao...
wan write more o~~
let's go 2 second story~
later ...aFter "mr.A"..about 7 or 8 month..
i finally let everythg go...
going on my life...
n then..i know him....
well...
4 me...he is cute...i mean is like the 1st time i saw him...i fall 4 his cute face~~
oh my god~~ofcoz his earring..more shiny??keke~~
haiz...
to be wif him...wasnt my first wish...ofcoz nt his also...
haiz...juz thgs cant count on it de...
he wasnt a super good boy....i mean...he wasnt veli good in his study...
is juz ok onli....bt he is good in sport...
n he sometimes veli super confident~
haha~~i know...he gt a good look~~
a look tat gals like it so ~~
he is so good ...4 me..
i think...
even we cant meet always..
bt he always sms wif me..
i didnt reply his msg...he will veli angry..gt 1 time he angry till 4get 2 take his nap..
sohlou~~
hehe...he will nt happi if i was becoz chating guys n forget reply him...
n he always let me know wat he is doing...
even he forget bring his phone n had gone outside...
he will use his fren's phone 2 call me let me knoe..
when he gt bac ...sure he will sms let me know..
gt once i on9 chatting wif him...
n i off9 coz my line gt problem..n i dint tell him..
he call me staight a way~
he say his hp really hard 2 sms coz gt problem,...
so he decided call me n ask y i off9 n didnt tell him...
we chat 4 long time...O.o~i miss him...o~~
..later he tell he hav 2 go meet his fren dun know at somewhere...
so he wan close phone ..bt he wan me call him baobao..hehe~~
n he call me twice baobei n say he wan hear me call him baobao...
oh~i say long time onli say it out~~he say he is happi then close it..haha~~
makes me think of our 1st call...
he say he wan say good nite 2 me..so he call a while~~
n i was happi~~^^
he always sms me..
when he take bath he will bring his phone in also~~
so gt once he tell me tat his phone gt abit sot coz a water~keke~~
when i was having big big test...he accompany me till veli veli late...
even his msg so many wrong words..he still wan...n in de end he fall alseep finallly..hehe
bt i think is sweet..bt silly...when at his fren's house..he still sms..even he is chatting..
so Bz also wan 2 sms...
silly baobao...
gt once...he go 2 some factory tat makes sweet de.~~
after come bac he tell me he wan learn 2 make a pair bangbang tang 4 me~
haha~~i say him silly coz~candy cant wait so long de~
he gt another name 2~~
sky~bt in phone..we call each other baobao n bao bei~~^^
geli hor~~
bt he is de 1 tat can make me call so geli de word~~keke~~till nw..de onli 1..O.o
gt once~he call me baobei lao po be4 sleep...
then another day i call him baobao laogong~
he say he is surprise n happi...bt he say somethg veli funny...
keke~~coz he say...i m nt "sui bian"let gals call me lao gong de~~
he say..if i i veli easy then wan break up de dun call him like tat...
coz he say ...he was serius...
n he wan me promise nt wan break so easy...^^
like old man~~
when play wif me like little kid~~
bt when talk 2 this kind..he suddenly turn old~~keke~~
ooo~~silly~~
..he had gav me so many sweet memories...
3 month..
weird har...
when u meet some1 u really in it...
somethg sure will happen...
i cant stand...coz cant c him..always..
out timetable always cant match......
i miss him...
even whole day sms...i still will veli veri miss him...
so i decided 2 giv it up~
nevermind........
i m sad...
he is i think..n.n
after break..he n me still contact...n sometimes he will ask me..
do i wan 2gether again...
i will ask him...r our problem tat make us break still there??
he will say yes...
then i say ...then no....
then later n later...we lost our contact..
never sms anymore...
tat time...so sad...is like...my heart gt a big big hole...
cant do anythg well...cant really use it..coz it gt a hole..
n thgs gt in n then will dissapear...
cant cry..bt never smile happi.....u.u
i did tot about find him again..
bt i know..
everythg was going 2 be de same..
so i didnt....
n i know de 1 i used 2 fall in so much..had gone..n de 1 fall in him so much also had gone...
there is no use 2 catch de memories...n together...
so i ...let it all go...n never sms or call him anymore...bt i still happi of having those memories..n.n
later ...aFter "mr.A"..about 7 or 8 month..
i finally let everythg go...
going on my life...
n then..i know him....
well...
4 me...he is cute...i mean is like the 1st time i saw him...i fall 4 his cute face~~
oh my god~~ofcoz his earring..more shiny??keke~~
haiz...
to be wif him...wasnt my first wish...ofcoz nt his also...
haiz...juz thgs cant count on it de...
he wasnt a super good boy....i mean...he wasnt veli good in his study...
is juz ok onli....bt he is good in sport...
n he sometimes veli super confident~
haha~~i know...he gt a good look~~
a look tat gals like it so ~~
he is so good ...4 me..
i think...
even we cant meet always..
bt he always sms wif me..
i didnt reply his msg...he will veli angry..gt 1 time he angry till 4get 2 take his nap..
sohlou~~
hehe...he will nt happi if i was becoz chating guys n forget reply him...
n he always let me know wat he is doing...
even he forget bring his phone n had gone outside...
he will use his fren's phone 2 call me let me knoe..
when he gt bac ...sure he will sms let me know..
gt once i on9 chatting wif him...
n i off9 coz my line gt problem..n i dint tell him..
he call me staight a way~
he say his hp really hard 2 sms coz gt problem,...
so he decided call me n ask y i off9 n didnt tell him...
we chat 4 long time...O.o~i miss him...o~~
..later he tell he hav 2 go meet his fren dun know at somewhere...
so he wan close phone ..bt he wan me call him baobao..hehe~~
n he call me twice baobei n say he wan hear me call him baobao...
oh~i say long time onli say it out~~he say he is happi then close it..haha~~
makes me think of our 1st call...
he say he wan say good nite 2 me..so he call a while~~
n i was happi~~^^
he always sms me..
when he take bath he will bring his phone in also~~
so gt once he tell me tat his phone gt abit sot coz a water~keke~~
when i was having big big test...he accompany me till veli veli late...
even his msg so many wrong words..he still wan...n in de end he fall alseep finallly..hehe
bt i think is sweet..bt silly...when at his fren's house..he still sms..even he is chatting..
so Bz also wan 2 sms...
silly baobao...
gt once...he go 2 some factory tat makes sweet de.~~
after come bac he tell me he wan learn 2 make a pair bangbang tang 4 me~
haha~~i say him silly coz~candy cant wait so long de~
he gt another name 2~~
sky~bt in phone..we call each other baobao n bao bei~~^^
geli hor~~
bt he is de 1 tat can make me call so geli de word~~keke~~till nw..de onli 1..O.o
gt once~he call me baobei lao po be4 sleep...
then another day i call him baobao laogong~
he say he is surprise n happi...bt he say somethg veli funny...
keke~~coz he say...i m nt "sui bian"let gals call me lao gong de~~
he say..if i i veli easy then wan break up de dun call him like tat...
coz he say ...he was serius...
n he wan me promise nt wan break so easy...^^
like old man~~
when play wif me like little kid~~
bt when talk 2 this kind..he suddenly turn old~~keke~~
ooo~~silly~~
..he had gav me so many sweet memories...
3 month..
weird har...
when u meet some1 u really in it...
somethg sure will happen...
i cant stand...coz cant c him..always..
out timetable always cant match......
i miss him...
even whole day sms...i still will veli veri miss him...
so i decided 2 giv it up~
nevermind........
i m sad...
he is i think..n.n
after break..he n me still contact...n sometimes he will ask me..
do i wan 2gether again...
i will ask him...r our problem tat make us break still there??
he will say yes...
then i say ...then no....
then later n later...we lost our contact..
never sms anymore...
tat time...so sad...is like...my heart gt a big big hole...
cant do anythg well...cant really use it..coz it gt a hole..
n thgs gt in n then will dissapear...
cant cry..bt never smile happi.....u.u
i did tot about find him again..
bt i know..
everythg was going 2 be de same..
so i didnt....
n i know de 1 i used 2 fall in so much..had gone..n de 1 fall in him so much also had gone...
there is no use 2 catch de memories...n together...
so i ...let it all go...n never sms or call him anymore...bt i still happi of having those memories..n.n
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
my SEcond Bog~~
this time i wan saY thREe sTory~~
once upon a time..
thERe's a gal...a silly gal..
juz like de others~hav many beautiful tot's about love n likes~
she meet many guys...hav different experies...
n those nt important...
n then she meet a guy ...a special 1??
at least 4 her...
he is~
he is a clever guy...
good in study...good in sports...
funnY 1 too~o~n a good leader too~~
in her eyes...she like juz can how good he is...
she..didnt realise she fall 2 him...untill de second year they know...
all de gal knows is she cares about this guy...
in end..she found tat...she falls in to him jor..
2 late 2 know it..
try many ways...bt de ans is same...shows tat she like veli veli like this guy~"Mr A"
so stupid~~
she usES~ways 2 gt near him...
beCOz him...shE change.~~
a lot~
shE wan gET near him...wan know More abOut him~~
later....she tot the guy should know it....
about she likes him so much...
bt...she nt sure about it..coz he didnt say anythg...
she wans 2 know...she try...bt de guy say he nt understand..
near de test...
she cant stand it...
coz becoz of him..
she change so much~
she becomes suddently silent suddetly veli veli happi~
n is like de only thg she can tot is him...
close her eyes...open...the only thg she can c is him...
kind of crazy...
haha~~
silly gal~in de end ..she tell him liao..
she likes him...
....guess wat ans she gt??
sori i hav gf ...
the thg tat makes her cry serius..wasnt juz this...
she hav a big fight wif her sis...
her only sis...
they never hav such big fight...
dad ran upstairs n sperate us...tat night...i cry 4 almost 3 hours....
so so so sad...2 heartbreaking.......
.....so i guess..u can know tat...the gal was me...
haha...so stupid...
once upon a time..
thERe's a gal...a silly gal..
juz like de others~hav many beautiful tot's about love n likes~
she meet many guys...hav different experies...
n those nt important...
n then she meet a guy ...a special 1??
at least 4 her...
he is~
he is a clever guy...
good in study...good in sports...
funnY 1 too~o~n a good leader too~~
in her eyes...she like juz can how good he is...
she..didnt realise she fall 2 him...untill de second year they know...
all de gal knows is she cares about this guy...
in end..she found tat...she falls in to him jor..
2 late 2 know it..
try many ways...bt de ans is same...shows tat she like veli veli like this guy~"Mr A"
so stupid~~
she usES~ways 2 gt near him...
beCOz him...shE change.~~
a lot~
shE wan gET near him...wan know More abOut him~~
later....she tot the guy should know it....
about she likes him so much...
bt...she nt sure about it..coz he didnt say anythg...
she wans 2 know...she try...bt de guy say he nt understand..
near de test...
she cant stand it...
coz becoz of him..
she change so much~
she becomes suddently silent suddetly veli veli happi~
n is like de only thg she can tot is him...
close her eyes...open...the only thg she can c is him...
kind of crazy...
haha~~
silly gal~in de end ..she tell him liao..
she likes him...
....guess wat ans she gt??
sori i hav gf ...
the thg tat makes her cry serius..wasnt juz this...
she hav a big fight wif her sis...
her only sis...
they never hav such big fight...
dad ran upstairs n sperate us...tat night...i cry 4 almost 3 hours....
so so so sad...2 heartbreaking.......
.....so i guess..u can know tat...the gal was me...
haha...so stupid...
my First bLog~~
should be haPPi~coz is my 1st~~^^
~~hav so manythgs 2 say ~2 tell~~
bt nt many ppl woUld wasTE so maNy Time juz 2 listen wat i say~~
be4 my sis go oversea~~
i always can talk 2 her
so do she
she will talk n let me know 2~
if she feels sad...bt is been more than 1 year a bit...she at australia..
so... i feel like i lost somethg important~~
haiz...1st half year~~i feel frEe ~coz i can do many thgs without ge scold by sis~
bt de next half...is really suffer...is so hard...
everythg i hav 2 face my own...like de room wasnt big...bt it used 2 hav 2 ppl ...nt 1..
i wonder did she sleep well on de 1st month...
bt is ok ~life hav 2 keep going~~
i already get used 2 it ...
bt at de same times i scared...get used 2 it..means i doesnt need my sis anymore??
is she hav de same TOt?
better no...
this wHOle time we juz Video call...
n sometimes..my family get mad coz they think my sis didnt on9 n chat wif us is my fauth...
n tat time i was de 1 angry~
haiz...did she change??
i dunknow...yes i know..
she didnt change..is juz she let go the"sangkar"we gave her...
she gt her wings~she doing thgs she likes...n thgs she always wanted~
so tat time i really cannot accept her "change"
bt is ok now...n about my change...i did cry once..about my change...
n later..i stop coz i ask myself....my change is good...y do i have 2 cry??
then i stop crying...
actually...4 gals like me...i juz hav 1 sister..
n we so so so close...when sis hav left...
sure will need 2 learn 2 stay alone..
independent...brave...n hav brain..make my own tot 2~~
makes me change...in de end...
i realize somethg...tat is ...
never feel sad 4 wat happens..juz stop stand there...
do somethg...n try ur bext fix it~
n if cannot ...then juz let urself get hurt...
when hurt till sometime then u will know how....
~~hav so manythgs 2 say ~2 tell~~
bt nt many ppl woUld wasTE so maNy Time juz 2 listen wat i say~~
be4 my sis go oversea~~
i always can talk 2 her
so do she
she will talk n let me know 2~
if she feels sad...bt is been more than 1 year a bit...she at australia..
so... i feel like i lost somethg important~~
haiz...1st half year~~i feel frEe ~coz i can do many thgs without ge scold by sis~
bt de next half...is really suffer...is so hard...
everythg i hav 2 face my own...like de room wasnt big...bt it used 2 hav 2 ppl ...nt 1..
i wonder did she sleep well on de 1st month...
bt is ok ~life hav 2 keep going~~
i already get used 2 it ...
bt at de same times i scared...get used 2 it..means i doesnt need my sis anymore??
is she hav de same TOt?
better no...
this wHOle time we juz Video call...
n sometimes..my family get mad coz they think my sis didnt on9 n chat wif us is my fauth...
n tat time i was de 1 angry~
haiz...did she change??
i dunknow...yes i know..
she didnt change..is juz she let go the"sangkar"we gave her...
she gt her wings~she doing thgs she likes...n thgs she always wanted~
so tat time i really cannot accept her "change"
bt is ok now...n about my change...i did cry once..about my change...
n later..i stop coz i ask myself....my change is good...y do i have 2 cry??
then i stop crying...
actually...4 gals like me...i juz hav 1 sister..
n we so so so close...when sis hav left...
sure will need 2 learn 2 stay alone..
independent...brave...n hav brain..make my own tot 2~~
makes me change...in de end...
i realize somethg...tat is ...
never feel sad 4 wat happens..juz stop stand there...
do somethg...n try ur bext fix it~
n if cannot ...then juz let urself get hurt...
when hurt till sometime then u will know how....
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