i ..........
o...i always hav so many thgs 2 say...
bt when i hav 2 say it all out...i will become spechless....
wat i wan/??
i nt so sure about it...
bt i m sure wat i hav 2 n wat i need 2...
is juz i dun know isit de thg i really wan....
i really luv n enjoy doing thgs follow by my feel n tot...
bt i also know tat it has coz me lots of trouble...
bt still i ....dun look like wan 2 change...
they dun understand me...really dun...
n they doesnt even look like they wan...
n yet...i was tired already...
u know??
no...u all juz dun know...
i feel sick n tired on all these thgs...
start 2 know how it feels when u trying 2 do or be some1 u already unable 2 be...
again these feels...
i dun like it..i really dun...bt still i cant do anythg on it...
so how???so wat??
there is nth i can do...
n i really get tired on trying to tell u all wat i think...
coz u all always no time N no interested 2 listen..
becoz u all hav so many thgs 2 worry about ...
n u all will juz tot thgs of mine r veli little n i should handle it myself....
feel tired....coz u never know wat de feels on us...
i start 2 understand y my sister prefer outside more than our lovely home...
is nt tat u all nt luv us...
u all luv us so much n we know it so well...
n tat is y we cant breath well...
u all will never accept tat thgs u all tot is nt same wif de world now...
coz de thg u wan say is ur ways is always good 4 us...
never never really care on wat we tot...coz we r small n dun know how 2 think...
i luv be a kid...doesnt mean i n mature enuf...
sometimes i will some tot tat even u all wont hav...
is juz i was wondering...isit de gal tat onli juz listen on wat u all say n do so then will be a good gal in u all's heart??
i dun know..bt i guess de ans is yes...
u dun know tat we know u so well..
i was sick...n tired in my heart....
coz i feel like i dun know wat 2 so then i can be more better...
i ...more care about wat i was...bt u all care about wat i can...
so i cant say anythg...
u all should know me well..tat wat i will listen n wat i wont...
bt u always shows like i should be tat should be this....
n yet....i was keep trying 2 tell u to proof tat i was clearly know wat u wan tell me...
bt all u can c is i was trying 2 tell u tat i was better than u...
no~~~~
i was juz wan let u know tat i was already understand u........
n stop giving me tat look tat wat i say is rubbish.......
makes me feel more sick coz...u will never understand me.........
well i accept wat u say tat u r my parents my aunt i should listen wat u says.....
bt still sometimes i really cant stand it....
juz CAnt~
i know myself veli well...
i veli never let myself be in somethg tat i was goimg 2 sad or hurt...
unless somethg special....
i luv u all bt u know..
i was getting tired n tired...
dun know how 2 sad...
dun know how 2 react...
always hav 2 social...
sick of it..
bt i need it....
coz ppl lives in de world n they need frens n familys support...
no i dun wan 2 be unhappi....
i dun wan to hurt any1...
bt yet...they still hav get throuht me...
sick of it...
i was empty...
so empty...is like having black hole in my heart...
scared of luv ppl ...
scared of get hurt when fall 4 some1...
n tired on being de gal...
n no more feels...
so confuses...
who R u??
wHo??
do i know u??
no............
terrible gal................
take away everythg...
i wan go somewhere..
n hav silence n peaceful...
n relax...
i always wan 2 forget...bt still cant..
live is short we should do everythg right wif no regrets...
bt juz tat i was getting sick of being empty...
well...
i was sad...about my result..
maybe is should say is dissapointed...
i did try..
bt i was getting tired...
i cant get up..
i was trying pull myself....
i didnt tell them...
coz is no use...
life is no fair..is always never fair...
so de thg u can do is do ur best 2 get near de fair...
tat is wat human should do...n can do...
oh....so long n yet i still feel sick of it...
maybe they r right..
i was fake...
totally fake n stupid n de gal tat should be hate..
..........even i write so much bt still is de same...
so ....go ahead....be strong n take gud care of urself...